Words that are Better Left Unspoken

Chapter Five

I stayed in the closest for most of first hour. My entire body hurt in places I didn't even knew existed. I got up and walked to the bathroom 2 minutes before the bell and redid my makeup to hide the forming bruises and cut on my lip and used the restroom as well. I made my way to my locker and tried to ignore all the whispers about how ugly and worthless I was. I couldn't hear any of them but it's obvious when you look at you and start to laugh. I went to my locker and entered the code. I grabbed my book and was making my way to class when I saw a piece of paper sticking out of my book. Funny because I never put my papers in my books. I like to stay as organized as possible actually.. I got to the class room and pulled the paper out. It was a note from Austin. I didn't really want to read it, but I did any ways.

Jessica

Listen I'm sorry. I shouldn't have hit you that hard. I just really love kids and the fact that you insulted my parenting skills got to me. I always wanted kids but no matter how many people I f**k or how many times I try I never get one. So I am sorry for being that violent. I feel really bad and I wanted to say sorry in person but that wouldn't have been the best idea. By the way if you tell any one who this is from I will not own up to it and no one will believe you. I feel bad though and if you want to talk I'll be at the park after school.

You know who

I was speechless. No one ever has said they were sorry to me, especially that monster. He had tortured me for years but this was the worst beating he's ever gave you.. I had class with Heather and she walked in just as I recovered from my shock. Should I go to the park and meet Austin? Should I tell Heather about the note? Should I talk to my dad? He probably hates my by now. I could not blame him though. Is there a way I could get back at Austin? How did Austin get into my locker?

Oh My Gosh!! Why didn't I think of this soon?! I could tell Austin's mom about his dad! Then they would surely break up and Austin would know my pain. I mean not be able to beat him down but my words, which only a few are ever spoken, are deadly..

Could I really ruin a marriage? I doubt it. Maybe going to the park I could convince Austin to say sorry to me or my dad. Maybe Austin really didn't call my dad? How did he know about his dad and my mom? Did he know where I lived? Did he really think I was a slut? I was a virgin for crying at loud! I haven't even had a boyfriend, not that I would admit that to him!

I have to many questions to ignore. I have to go to the park and ask him. I can't live without knowing. What if Heather sees me at the park talking to him? She would literally KILL me! I have no doubt in my head I would be a goner.

I don't know what to do. Should I go? If I do then I could get caught by Heather and get kicked off the cheer team. If I don't then I will have to go forever without knowing all these questions. God! Why can't life be easy! Help!!!

Man, class dragged on and on, like dear god.. I just want to get this over with, and luckily there wasn't cheer practice after school.

I check my phone and notice a text from Alexis, asking why I ditched first hour, I had forgotten I had it with her in all honesty... I sent a quick text telling her I needed coffee to make it through the day, and that seemed to satisfy her.