Shackles of dignity

My worst nightmare

I had a bad day yesterday, it's been a month since brad left my apartment promising to be back 3days after, have not heard from him either.

I woke up at the wrong side of the bed this morning, have been feeling depressed and so emotional lately, i really don't know why i cry alot,i can't even eat my favourite food . i know am still sulking and not able to get my s**t together because he left but i think it's time I do that .

Going to the kitchen to make my coffee,i felt so dizzy and nauseous, i had to take slow steady breath, suddenly i heard movements in my kitchen, only two people can do that,my mum or My Angel.

Well look who just woke up, seriously Kasey you becoming so lazy

Stop it am kaylie not Kasey i snapped

She looked horrified and hurt that i felt bad instantly, i was trying to say sorry when i felt everything go black.

I opened my eyes feeling so weak,i couldn't understand were i am,i tried sitting up but i fell back,i am drained of energy.

Kay don't you dare try to move, you're so irresponsible, i can't believe you knew your condition and you refused to eat or takecare of yourself, why?

What condition?what are you talking about?

Wait are trying to say you don't know that you're pregnant?

I felt blood drain from my body, pregnant? no no i can't be, oh now i know the reason for my mood swings and loss of appetite, i thought i had my--- oh s**t i missed it.

What will i do? He didn't come back like he promised and am here stuck with this pregnancy that i don't even want, i was crying so hard until i felt my friend hug me, i couldn't stop crying.

she's truly my Angel,i felt so relieved after crying to my heart's contents,where do i start from crystal, am so scared, am all alone .

Shuush don't be, am always here and am never going to leave you

Everyone will mock me for been pregnant and unweded you know how this works

I do and that's why i think you should get an Abortion right now

What!instantly i used my free hand to cover my belly, i can't do that ,why will I? it's not this child's fault that am careless and unlucky.

Wow easy Kasey, i thought you didn't want to keep it

Don't call me kasey i snapped, and don't you dare use ' It'for my baby,am keeping this baby and no one can stop me,not even the society.

Now that's more like my Kasey, i just wanted you to realise this yourself

Am going to break your neck one day if you don't stop calling me kasey

Okay so the doctor said you will be on bedrest althrough your pregnancy period kay

But--- why? is something wrong?

Uhm your pregnancy is high risk and you can lose your life as well as miscarry the pregnancy if you're careless, the doctor advised complete bedrest but she said she needs to run some test, if it comes out positive then you have no choice but to live here for nine months.

Crystal but why can't my pregnancy be normal for christ sake, i don't think i can afford the expenses if i have to stay here .

Don't worry kay, virgin Mary will lead us through.

Crystal stayed with me all day, i am glad i have a friend like her otherwise i would have died by now on my cold apartment floor. We were talking and being happy until i saw the doctor with another lady come in.

I panicked praying to a miracle and that my child is safe

Miss kaylie how are you feeling now she asked politely, smiling at me

Am fine doctor,Goodnews?

She smiled,i will like to explain in details,here is your gynecologist, she will examine you further but before that i will like to ask you a question.

Your pregnancy is high risk and it might take your life,so am asking if you prefer to terminate your pregnancy or risk your life and proceed

Without second thoughts,i prefer to proceed doctor

Then you need to go through some tests after that we can decide to either let you go or stay here .