"To keep you safe," Nicola calmly countered, but his eyes became tense and anxious as he spoke those words. "I'm sorry to bother you, Emily. I am to blame for this." His grip became increasingly firm on me. "But I can't leave you by yourself because you're in danger. I tried, and it didn't work"
My brain whirled as I tried to make sense of what he was saying. That night, when he left me, my heart broke. Now he was attempting to explain the reason, but I didn't understand.
"What do you mean by that? Tell me why you abandoned me. "My voice shook as the old ache of his death stabbed into my chest, and I could hardly get a word out. Even if he is embracing me now, the pain he caused me while he was gone remains.
"I'm not...good for you."
"I am not worthy of your love. From the start, I sus
