WESLEY
I parked the car at the hotel and sat there for a long time before going inside. The engine was off, but my mind was still running. Why did seeing her again hurt this much? I had built a life in China. I had work that challenged me. I had a team that respected me. I had started to feel like I was in control again. Then one phone call and one visit had brought everything back. The love I still felt for her. The anger that had not gone away. The confusion about the baby that was now real. I rubbed my face with both hands and let out a long breath. I could not let her presence in my life hurt and distract me like this. I had come too far to fall back into the same pain.
The hotel room was quiet when I walked in. I took off my jacket and sat on the edge of the bed. My phone was in my
