It is almost midnight and he hasn't come yet.
He... the only man I ever loved...
He... the man whose name is engraved in my heart...
He ... the man who is giving me enormous pain, both physical and emotional.
I trusted him to love me and protect me. In his arms, I felt cherished, safe and secure. I dreamed nothing more than a family and a simple happy life. Why is it that for me anything that others take for granted, I can't have? Am I really that hard to love? Am I really unworthy?
I believed him when he told me that he loved me, in my eyes he became my hero. How pathetic of me, but the time I was in a relationship with him was the happiest of my life. Now I am married to him and I am experiencing hell once again, only this time everything is worse.
I wanted to tell him all my tr
