The lost love

Love Find Its Own Way To Heart

Jack POV:

According to Plato, "At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet." But sometimes it's hard to find the words to describe that feeling of love. Whether you're in the throes of a blossoming romance, or trying to let your spouse know how much they mean to you. And yes this may sound cheesy but love can truly hurt,People always say what comes easy won't be worth it and what's worth it don't come easy that is why I believe in us.

I had been following Michael since we were kids the first day of junior high we become friends He was the first one to talk to me then we become the best of friends we live in the same neighborhood he always drag me to play outside i am more of an introvert since I was a kid no but he is the only one make me do things out of my comfort zone.

Then after the junior high we go to the high school together I never have friends its only Michael who I call my friend he while he have many friends he is a confident one so he always got him self surrounded with friends beside this he never leave me, sometime I feel like he gets bored with me but whenever i tried to stay put wanted to give him all his space he drag me in his space never leave me.

There was a time when I suggested him that he don't have to be my friend as I am not as cool as him I am more like a book worm and I am being a burden on him since the junior high and he reacted very angrily with me he told me my importance in his life but still get angry and didn't talk to any of his friend including me for days till I accept that I was wrong.After this incident I never tried to leave him.

But the time at high school was not a good time for me as he always makes new friends his high school mates are all trouble maker they bully students in school and I always tried to stop him to be like them they always scolded by the teachers for not completing their assignments and having bad marks but I won't let them ruin his studies he sometimes get irritated and angry with me to always nagging at him for studies sometimes I fight with his friends when they try to drag him away from his studies and that make me their enemy somehow Michael always have a handful of money as his parents don't care how and where he spend his money for they are too busy to care and ask, so whenever he ask them for money they give him and that's what make him surrounded by those jerks.

I always tried to be the best of a friend he has but I never knew when I started to like him then he will be everything for me I like to be with him every time when he smiles its like heaven calling my name his touches sometimes send shivers to my whole body when he flirts with the girls it hurts me deep down but I never said anything to him in the middle  school i found out that I am not a straight guy I am a gay but I never felt attracted towards anyone neither a man nor a woman other than Michael. 

My parents are never the supportive parents I am afraid of telling them anything especially my father, they always fight each other, after getting drunk my father used to beat my mom and sometimes he beats me as well he was a abusive father and husband then he leave us my mom never complains him when he beats her sometimes i got angry but she never complain she loved him too much to endure anything but when he leaves my mom didn't endure it she passed away after few months and since then I promised myself to never meet my father ever again. Michael always gets angry whenever my father beats I always remember that night when he literally knocked out my father.

I was sick for days during exams unknown to my family I was passed out during an exam which mad me score below average and this made my father angry on me he was in a very bad mood that day he beats me till I passed out I got belt marks on my body and got bruises on my face I was getting ready for the school when Michael came to pick me up he always did pick me up and after looking at my face he got angry as hell and punched my father and warn him to never touch me again after that my father never ever lay even a finger on me.

His small deeds make me fell in love with him but i never tell him but somehow two of hi friend figure my feelings for him and first they try to blackmail me they always bully me when he is not around sometimes they make fun of me even when jack is around he joins them its hurt me but I always smile to him to show that I am okay but he never let them exceed limits but when he is not around they don't joke around me they purely bully me and when they know my feeling they started to get violent blackmailing me for everything they want me to do for them at first I was afraid of them but somehow Michael sort that we have some kind of problem between us so he ask me and told me that I will always have him by his side no matter what so i don't have to be afraid of anyone. This gives me some courage and i confronted them and I told them that if they try  to bully me again I will tell everything to Michael and they better know how he will react.

They stop bullying me but as a revenge they make some plan instead and tell Michael that I am a gay He was shocked at first he asked me and I don't lie I tell him I am a gay and everything but didn't tell him that I like him he didn't give a s**t and everything remains s same as before I was very happy  then they make him prank me which was quite fun for Michael so he joined first he make me feel special like he always do but this time something is different he was suddenly start acting caring and I kinda like it then all of a sudden one day he proposed me to be his boyfriend I was shocked and was happy inside I always wanted a moment like this with him but never imagines that this will ever happen as I was about to answer him he burst into laughter and they all come out of their hiding laughing and this breaks my heart in pieces and it my feelings and I don't know when my tears come running out of my eyes but when Michael saw my turns his laughter converted into a guilt expression I run from there come to my home locked myself and cried all I till exhaustion invade in my body and I passed out after that event may have come to my house he texted me called me for hours but I didn't answer any and this was the first time I was angry with him not wanting to even hear his voice. 

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Yes You hurt me Yes you left me Yes I cared Yes I cried but No I can't stop Loving You...