The lost love

Happiness

SOMETIMES IT FELT LIKE THAT LOVE IS DEAF.......YOU CAN'T JUST TELL SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM BUT YOU HAVE TO SHOW IT.

I told Jack I love him seeing him with someone and maybe going distant from me gives me the courage to speak of my heart. He was shocked at first but then his expression changes a little "are you drunk"..He asked he is afraid I can see it in his eyes maybe it was the result of the same prank I pulled on him before but he seems frightened "I am not Jack and I am not even kidding I swear I liked you it's being long since I felt this towards you like this Your smile ... I want to see it every moment when you are stressed I want to be the reason you smile When you are sad I want to be the one that cries and when you are hurt I want to feel your pain ..... I ....I ..had never felt something like that before .... to anyone .... I didn't tell you any of it before because I was afraid that maybe it's not the love..... maybe these feelings are because I care for you I .... I don't know what is it ?? but seeing you with Ian makes me realize its something more than friendship its something more than just care and responsibility ..." he listened to me in silence then said, "are you still confused".... I looked into his eyes its seems like he wants me too but resisting himself "I have never been attracted towards any boy like this Jack and right now it's just you, I feel this towards..... I just left a girl wanted to kiss me on the dance floor for you man." I joked he smiled a little "I don't know if I am still confused or not but I know that I like you I can't see you with anyone I can't ... live without you ... will you give me chance please"... I looked to him, he didn't answer I felt like he didn't want to and it hurts, it hurts a lot but I just don't want to force him .... "It's okay Jack... if you can't give me the chance ... we can still be friends .... the best friends we are and we were... I was about to stand up and go he hold my hand and kiss me on the lips ... it was a small kiss but I felt so much good ....... I felt happy, the happiness I never felt before ..."I can give you the chance .." he said and I felt like out of the world ... "but can we keep it our little secret .. " he said " you have never experienced something like this before being with the same s*x partner is never easy so we will keep it a secret till you feel comfortable will it be okay?" he was concerned for me but I too don't want him to be worried, sad or afraid " Will it not hurt you if we keep it a secret "... "not until I know you are for me ... even if its a secret it will not hurt me .... but you have to be loyal to me and I will be loyal to you... can you do it ..." "I... yes ..I promise I will never hurt you I will never leave you I will never cheat on you...."....."so I am more than okay to keep it our little secret and take it slow"... he smiled and i hugged him "thank you thank you ...so much Jack... " ..... he hugged me back and it felt like I can explode with happiness...

We passed the testing phase with good grades.

We enjoyed our life like never before .... we waited for each other at dinners at lunches we celebrate our achievements.... after that day no one ever come between us no one hurt me no one goes near Jack... our life was not the fairy tale .... we do fight at some points we argue but in the end, we always sort that out .... I being Michael the furious and cool dude gets furious on some small matters but Jack being Jack he never left me always support me and always cared for me....

We had obstacle I life but we had each other ... when we become tired we lean on each other ... when one needs support ... the other become his pillar to lean on his support ...

We passed five years together like this and was always there for each other...

"IF YOU LOVE ME LIKE YOU TOLD ME PLEASE BE CAREFUL WITH MY HEART YOU CAN TAKE IT JUST DONT BREAKE IT OR MY WHOLE WORLD WILL FALL APART"