Am I Enough

The Kiss

Chapter 4

Saint

We'd been driving for about 30 minutes and all I did during the drive was steal glances at Dahlia while she had her eyes closed and head out the window, taking in the sun that had now decided to show itself. Every time I looked at her I couldnt stop thinking about those pictures and how she would look without that baggy jumper on, and what she was wearing underneath. God… I need to stop. I had only just met the girl and not even that she had been inconsolable when we did meet. We had driven out of town and now onto a backroad that took us into a forest another five minutes and we were driving round a bend and into a clearing. The scene was like something out of a fantasy movie. There was a small waterfall dropping down into a lake with wild flowers surrounding it and massive trees framing it. It was perfect, a perfect place to be care free and forget about s**t that had been going on for both of us. Saint: “ We’re here” I said, gently tapping her shoulder to wake her. Her eyes opened and I was met with a dangerously beautiful smile that reached up to her eyes; I seriously could get lost in those eyes Dahlia: “ Where is here Saint?”

Saint: “ It’s my happy place. I've been here over a week and I couldn't be shut in the house so i went out exploring and i stumbled along this beauty” she beambed at me and then turned her head gasping in awe Dahlia: “God, its amazing! So peaceful”. We walked side by side towards the water and she threw herself down on the grass. She then started to remove her boots and her tights. Saint: “ Urrrrr… What's happening” I said in confusion, not stopping her as she slowly pulled her jumper over her head, revealing the skimpiest set of lingerie. Those pictures didn't do her justice, I thought to myself. God her body, slightly tanned and curvy; her hips looked ready for me to grasp upon. I could already tell this girl was gonna be trouble (giggling internally). As I was looking her up and down, she removed the hair tie that was barely holding her hair up and her long waving brown hair fell down so effortlessly and sat just above her perky, round ass.

She started running. Dahlia: “ GOING FOR A SWIM! YOU COMING OR YOU JUST GONNA STARE!” screaming as she dived into the crystal clear water. I stood frozen for a second before I started tearing my clothes off right down to my boxers and running into the water. I dived in and swam to her and wrapped my arm around her waist from behind Saint: “ Caught you” I said, turning her round to her face me. She inches away from my face; I could feel her hot breath against my skin. She slowly places her hands on my bare chest and looks into my eyes. We were stuck in that moment for what felt like hours. I couldnt stop myself from looking at her lips. They were ready for the taking and I was inches away from them. She noticed me looking at her lips and made a move to bite them and I stopped her by saying Saint “Don't do that if you're not prepared for what will happen if you do". She smiles and bites it anyway and looks into my eyes. Dahlia: “ Show me what will happen” she whispered, all while pressing herself closer. What was she doing to me? I couldnt stop myself. It's like my hormones took over and I smashed my lips against hers.

The kiss started out as hard, rough and passionate, her hands rushing to my hair tugging on it, making me groan and me lifting her up in the water, wrapping her legs around my waist. It then started to calm down and become slow, intimate and soft; one of my hands moved to her cheek and she leaned her face into my palm. I was falling into this kiss and couldnt stop. As I fall deeper and deeper, I realise I cant do this, I cant involve her in my s**t; if I do this she will become attached and, especially with what has just happened to her, she doesnt need this. I tore myself from her lips and pushed her away, Saint: “ Thi…This can't happen, it was a mistake. I'm sorry” I frowned as I said this. Her lips tremble and she starts to shiver. I go to pull her into a hug and then without warning she splashes a wave of water at me and swims away. I f****d up, royally, but I hope she comes to understand I did this for her.