POSSESSIVE DADDY

CHAPTER 19: I AM TOO LATE

"Valerie by Weeknd"

There comes a time in a man's life

When he must take responsibility

For the choices, he has made

There are certain things that he must do

Things that he must say

Like "I love you"

And "I need you"

"I only want you"

And nobody's going to know

If it's true (ooh)

I never thought I'd feel this kind of hesitation (tonight)

My hand on another girl (ooh)

I wish I didn't have to lie

I wish I could let you know

Cause I love you

And I need you

I only want you

And nobody's going to know if it's true

Valerie

I know you can see through me

(I know you can see through my lies, oh oh)

Valerie (oh Valerie)

You just choose to never know

(No you just don't know, what I do, what I do)

Valerie (Valerie)

Why pretend to trust in me?

(I don't know why you try to trust in me baby, but I think I might know)

Valerie

You'd rather this than be alone

(Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh)

I rush my car to his house and go inside his house without knowing or wonder why his house is open, the maid is asking me who I am, but I never entertain her instead I go upstairs and calling his name, but no Michael wants to rush to kiss me! I worried so much, maybe I am so late, it 8:30 now as I check my watch. I call his name but I never see him, and the maid calls me again at this time he grabs my arm and lets me calm down. 

" Maam who are you, Mr. Ledford is not here"

" I am his woman, where is he right now please tell me where is he?"

" You did not know Ms.? He is already going back to the USA this night"

I did not finish her sentence and I need to go to the airport, right away. I don't waste my time anymore. Maybe I can reach him back and tell him I choose him and how much I love him, it's now traffic on the road makes me pissed off so much I go in the other way more shortcuts! 

My phone is ringing it's Sebastian! not now please, as I get the phone and reach him, he talked and ask me where am I, I cant resists anymore I need to tell him honestly that I will go with Michael. 

" Sebastian I am sorry but I need to do this, I love him so much and I can't lie to myself"

" Where are you now? Jenna?"

I go off my phone and rushing focus on my way, I am totally out of tears out what if I cant see him again? what if he will close his heart for me and while I still have feelings for him? I finally reach the airport and trying to get inside but I am not allowed because I do not have a passport! and even I have he is using his private plane! what should I do?

I am losing hope, as I just cry into tears and trying to give a chance to the guard to let me inside. But they never let me in, as I try to call him out of coverage, I will never leave here until he will not come back, I will stay here in this area and I just can't help to cry, don't even care about people will say. The guard told me to go home its already 2 a.m but I never move and listen to them. My phone is already low battery and needs to recharge, my eyes are puffy because I can't even have a chance to see him and tell him that I love him still. 

It is all my fault, It's my fault for being a woman so dumb trying to be strong and pretending that I don't love him but now it is too late I can't even see him, I don't know where I can see him and when I go to states I don't even know if he wants to see me. Because I miss his chance for being with him, I just crying again and again right now to feel free how to hurt it is. 

Someone lends me a towel to wipe my tears and when I look at this person I saw Sebastian Salvacion I feel so ashamed and hopeless, he doesn't have words to say to me, and instead to be mad at me he just hugs me and can't ever forget how painful it was. 

" I am so late Sebastian he does not love me anymore"

" Shhh.... it is okay we need to go home okay we can talk about this"

I just go with him, even the way I acted to him still Sebastian is being nice to me, that's the reason why I am not for him in his life. I can't handle how shame to do with him, but he is still nice to me, he is the one who makes me feel okay when I have broken again because of Michael, why does Michael make me cry over and over again, why?

Is this love to call about to cry for your loved one? is it love to get depressed? is it love not to eat almost in the meal? is it love to hurt so bad? or I am just a masochist for being with a man that is so complicated to deal with because maybe of our past, it's my fault for being the focus in my past, and now I regret why I did not go straight forward to him. 

" I am sorry Sebastian, I am so sorry"

I cried on his shoulder again he is stroking my hair, I can see Sebastian is in his tears but he holds it, he can feel what I feel.

" Why is this Sebastian! why I hate myself for being not true?"

"It is not your fault might be because you really love Michael, and I understand that whatever makes you happy Jenna I am here for you, it is okay to cry but never give up"