It’s been a while I felt this way, I was so drained and almost numb to go on, so I soak in the tub for my thinking ritual, Zee won’t let me be so I had to humour her, she practically moved my essentials to her house after Frank’s party. Dad wanted to see me and I really don’t know what we have to say to each other, I just wanted to shut my eyes to the world but I have tons of commitment, I would give anything for a vacation right now but that will not solve the problems because they will all be waiting for me when I get back. Ade was teasing me about getting married earlier today, saying he wants a niece or nephew, whew big child you might have to wait forever or have yours. All my emotions are muddled up but at least I have ruled out Jared has been a potential member of my really close ci
