I woke up with a start, I refused to leave Ryan’s side all day, I think I dozed off around 10 pm, I slowly looked at the wall clock and it was 1 am. I feel so sad, alone and miserable, why can’t he just wake up? Is this how it feels? It hurts so much, now I know what it felt like for Samuel to be at mum’s side for days and she was awake but Ryan is not, if this was half of what mum felt when Alexandre died how did she ever move on? We decided not to tell the girls and his mum yet, we thought he was going to be up by now, Cara was already asking Josh 1001 questions, she was used to him calling a minimum of two times daily.
Frank brought my laptop and a sandal earlier, I was suppose to attend to some emails and work on the finalising the cyber security at the office, I decided to start wo
