It’s 8:22 am, Ryan is not beside me and I guess he is with his daughter, I had to ask Frank who Cara was because I did not want to get personal with him and now Frank is all nosy about why I asked and how I know Cara given that I hardly spoke to Ryan when we met at Annie’s Ace. I can’t believe he is a single dad who lost his fiancée during child birth but I admire his outlook to life and he is a great father. I think I sleep like a log anytime I am with him, we had s*x just once last night and it was definitely initiated by me, left to him he just wanted to hold me and ensure I was fine-I smile at the memory of him carrying me to bed and massaging me till I slept. He makes me feel so comfortable, yesterday was a nightmare but I think I can get through it, I just need to take it a day at a
