I'm Inlove With A Gay

Chapter 4

I stopped just to stare at my parents talking silently to each other.

Does love fade? Where can I buy love that last? I surely spend all my money and my parent's in heritage just to have it for lifetime.

These are our normal days. We love to talk random things every night except Friday because I already own that day for my self. After spending my Friday, I would go rush my room and scream like crazy. The feelings are too much. Even though I only spend my limited time on the salon, for me it was the longest time I ever had to spend with him.

He doesn't talk to much and as for me...the one who always talk feel too delighted every time he tries to respond.

"When was the last time I asked you a date?" Dad asked softly but still I was able to hear it.

"Yesterday." Mom replied with a kiss and dad chuckles while whispering to mom. I don't what he whispere it seems a secret code that only them can understand. I guess that was soul mate... simple stares... simple smile... you already knew what's behind it.

I shook my head and continue to stares in the ceiling and smiled.

My parents always make sure to spend their quality time together with me. They would rush to go home to spend the night. We only have the same free time... and that is only for dinner after class and after their work. Mom owns a counseling firm. Her counseling name she built for almost six years..."We listen. You Talk. You Heal." It's located outside the Robles City... the bigger city... In Cessair City.

My mom graduated as a Psychologist while dad is a businessman that's why dad us a busy man but despite their conflict of schedule they don't forget to call each other.

It's funny how my parents are successful, they already of found what they want at the early age while I can't even think of mind. It's so envious that they end up where they supposed to be while me... I don't even know my plans... or even know what my passion.. what future should I want. I don't have a dream. You know that when people ask you what course you wanna take after four years... and you envy your classmates because they are seems to hype and eager to answer and give their specific courses and dream while me... looking at them, so lost and confused. Do we have to chose right now? How to know if this is what I want and still want after two years and so many years.

Why everyone already found their dream while I can't even glance mine?

That why when I met Rafael. I don't know why but it seems he attracts inspiration. I was caught off guard the way he is and when I watch him from afar... I realized that simple things is also a succes.

I want to marry a simple man. I don't want my future children to be intimated by their parents succes and achievements that they think they needed to go beyond or atleast to meet their expectations. My parents don't have any idea that I feel that and mostly they don't want me to feel that.. but...for me as their daughter I just want them to be proud.I want also to be successful. I want to work hard and earn for my name and that I'm not just a daughter of the business tycoon and a successful beauty queen.

"Mom... Dad... do you have any specific type of man that you want me to end up with?" I softly asked. Their attention went back to me. I chuckles to lessen the nervousness. "I mean... I know it's too early to ask but I just want to know..." Dad looks at me seriously and with gentleness.

"Hm... for me there is no low or average or more than average man that deserve you. No man would be able deserve you... except for your son." Daddy seriously said. "Even you don't have a title or you're just a simple woman but for me... no man deserve you." Dad added.

"Then should I adopt then?" I asked in distressed. "You said that no man deserves... then I probably be forever a daddy's girl and single." I said and pouted.

And it struck me... I was busy looking for a dream when I was a child I just wanted to build a family like ours.

"Yes no man deserves you... but I think someone will." Dad said and mom and I looked at him curiously.

"The man you will chose is the man who is deserving for you. You chose him then it means you see the future with him." Dad said and smiled. I looked at him very deeply with great affection. It means whoever I chose, he will accept it with embrace.

"You won't cry?" Mom teased and dad's give a heartily laugh.

"I won't cry... my eyes will just rain." He respond. I bet he would be depress about that one day.

"What about you Mom?" I asked. Mom is a little bit strict and sometimes... perfectionist. She wants the best for me and that's her purpose I think as a mother to give everything, all the best, to me.

"Every parents want their daughters to marry a successful man and also a good and kind man. For me as your mother I would be happy if you meet someone who finish his college degree and have a decent job. I want my daughter, you, to marry a honorable and successful man. You only spend your life with one man and I want that man to be the best partner to you. Who would treat you right, who would love you the best and always stick and remain faithful."

"Hmm. Does it really necessary that a man is a college degree? What about those deserving man wants to ask to my hands if ever they would ask my hand even though... they didn't finish schooling..." I asked solemnly.. because that's a little bit harsh there.

They were also a men who didn't finish their schooling, who didn't have their college degree also successful. Some even those who graduated with flying colors didn't have a job. It's a matter of hardwork and determination.

"It just my opinion. I don't want my future grandchildren to experience bullying that their father didn't finish their school or didn't even go to school. Education is very important. Education is the only succes we hold and take pride in our last breath and always be with us no matter where we go. That's why those young kids out there who wanted to marry you, they should work hard and study hard... they should not waste the chance where education is free. I don't mind what school he'd been with, how much money he earn, how many medals he got. I just want a man who take seriously with his education, who work hard and make his parents proud before going to you."

I looked at her proudly. So she doesn't mind what kind of person he is? As long as faithful, kind, hardworking and who take his education seriously.

"And...it just lucky that I met your father. Even if he have nothing... I will still chose him no matter what happens and will live with him." Mom said that made my father chuckles and hug her tight.

"Then you don't mind if someone would take me in a date in a small shop or... in a street?"

"Why do you ask us? Woud you still bring us to your future dates is that so?" Mom asked and I shake my head and chuckles.

"Just what if's Mom. Ofcourse your opinion always matter to me."

"Honey... If you're comfortable with that dates then you can go with it. You can spend with him in the street or wherever you think that makes you happy. If you're happy then don't ask us." Mom said. She even stares to dad and dad just lovingly nodded.

"Gabriella... honey...whatever the man you choses I will never argue with it... but I have to check and interrogate that man first."

"You mean? Killing him with your questions dad?" I said jokingly.

"Kind of. Let's see if he will willing to die for you." Dad whispered.

"That would be stupid that. No. man would ever sacrifice himself just for me." I whispered while I went to my parents and hug them. I mean I am? I'm just a simple woman who happens born with a silver spoon. If that man would willing to die for me then that love would be the most fiercest love at all.

It's too late in the evening but I sacrifices my sleep to spend my time with them. I mean it's not sacrifices... only sleep is our enemy here.

"Honey... date who ever you want. You don't need to date a man that richer than us or rich. We have money, you are a woman, you are independent we can eat with our own hardwork. We don't need man's money. Date who ever you want and don't

look to their assets, treasure or what material they offer to you. Date who makes you happy... date who loves you... date who always chose you and date a man who is deserving to waste the day." Mom said while hugging me.

I cried in their arms. I don't know why. I don't want to last this day. Sometimes my night is lonely. There are insecurities I felt that stuck randomly at nights. There are confusion, lost hours, depressing seconds and I'm glad I have them today.

"Why are you crying? We are just talking about your future someone... and it makes me don't want to meet him. Did he makes you cry, ha?" Dad asked as he hugges us both.

I shake my head.

"I just miss you." I whispered and broke in tears.

"Sweetie... we are just always here..." Mom whispered whole caressing my back. I don't know but I'm just being too emotional. The fact they here, hugging me, comforting me... making me cry.

"Daddy miss my two queens also... work is really our enemy. Should we go to your Mamu and spend the week and have our quality time there?" Dad asked.

"That's perfect. I can leave my work anytime... and if there is a consultation or counseling I can have it in video conference. What about your work, hon?" Mom asked.

"I can leave my work anytime but I will never let leave my daughter." Dad said. It made me smile. This is forever. I rather spend my time with them than go waste it in shopping.

I moved away and looked at them. I wiped the tears that linger on my eyes. Mom's hand went to my hair while she put it beside my ears. She is also pouting while looking on me. Dad also looking at me sweetly. This is the very first time they saw me crying. It's been so long that I cried in front of them.

"Our baby no more..." Dad whispered.

"I'm sorry if we are busy sometimes.." Mom whispered. " I hope you're not mad to us. I know sometimes you'll get tired of understanding... and I was praying that you won't get tired of us."

I shake my head and smile. "I just feel emotional because I can't take it not because it is heavy but because I'm feeling extremely happy." I said sweetly. They smiled while looking at me peacefully.

They sleeped beside me. They sing a song while I was in the middle and they were both on my side hugging me. I treasure my family more than anyone. I loved my family more than myself. I'm so happy and thankful that they were my parents. I have a loving, sweet and kind father while I have a supportive, sweet and caring mother and I have my grandparents both side who loves me very well. I have the best support system from my bestfriends. And... I have someone I am. excited to spend the Friday with.

I woke up in the middle of the night because of very cold. I freeze up. And it's too cold. And I stopped when I looked down that my parents intertwined hands lock and their both hands were hugging at me. So they stayed with me until I feel asleep.

I loved them very much. My love for them is quite fierce and balance. I don't need to choose one when I can have them both. I need this kid of love. Even temptations are in just outside the door and I'm so happy that they stays remain faithful and they still love each other so bad.

My parents would are a bit dangerous and scary like a glass. There are a lot of temptation and problem to cause taint in the relationship... my dad is looking young and handsome and they were still older and younger women who expresses their affection to dad and I'm so proud that my dad didn't even look at them. Mom... especially mom. She's very pretty, and looking so young and there are lot of international model, phenomenal actors, famous entrepreneurs who expresses their desire to my mother and I'm so proud that after a long years of being together they still remain fiercely and crazy in love to each other.

"Please... don't break my heart... please don't love someone else."

I whispered to them even though they didn't heard me. It would really broke my heart and shattered my heart if they would hurt each other. One of my classmates said that both of her parents broke up because the love fades and the spark and the excitement is already gone... because they spend two decades of each other and got tired. But... not all love story always end up the same.

My grandparents already been together for three decades. And right now... they are still together. Their love won't fail me.

I went back to sleep peacefully with a smile. Trust them. And I'm already here they don't need somebody anymore.