Split Mind

to abondon ship

As i approach i notice im not the only one who notices this golden opportunity. It seems someone thought it would be a good idea to abondon ship during a earthquake, you can see that they clearly were panicking since the engine is still running and the door is open to this beautiful silver 2021 Renault Kiger.

I think they might have temporarily madness, who abondons transportation to run on their own two feet hope they're fast because finders keepers thats if i reach it first and the odds aren't exactly on my side with my aching feet and caring two other human beings other than myself. As i increase my speed and turn my fast walking into a jog forgetting about the daggers i feel in my feet i see the stranger start to sprint. I can't sprint not with all this extra weight on me even without the weight my feet won't allow. My heart or whatever is left of it breaks into two pieces as i watch the stranger get into the car and lock the doors. I wanted to cry, to beg ask the stranger to please understand that i have two children with me and i cant walk anymore. i look into his eyes and i see him smirk and my pride gets the better of me and i walk away. Maggie looks up at me as the tears are clouding my view of her and i give her my best smile.

I watch the only chance of survival we had drive off. It just hurts to watch so i turn and start walking aimlessly.

i honestly didn't know how we were gonna make it and i was just about to call my dad to say goodbye as we wait for the big one to come and finish us off. I look over to my kids who asleep now. I always think no matter how deep i dig my grave someone will eventually show up and get me out being the spoilt mamas baby i am, honestly im kind of used to scraping through life. Right now it wasn't looking like it was going to happen noone was coming.

Feeling like all this time and energy was a waste. I say a silent prayer to my mother and wished she was still alive. i wish i was more prepared ,actually if we are making wishes i wish this whole earthquake thing wasn't happening.I take a few calming breath I start walking again after a little pep talk to myself telling myself thst im the only one who can save this time. Heading for clear field behind all the houses it was a slow walk but i finally made it. i look around deciding which part would be the middle and walk to it. i put my bag down and slowly put my kids down which wakes them up. great. i crouch down to take off my shoes and let my feet breath. Despite today being horrible i gotta admit the weather was lovely, it wasn't too hot or too cold it was just right. The grass felt great on my bare feet. i sit in the middle with Sasha on my left and Maggie on my right. Sasha and Maggie are snuggled up close to me and start telling them about Cinderella. Today has been quite the day, incredibly difficult day.

As i retell the story i catch a glimpse of the time on my phone and i cant help but think of what we would be doing if not for this earthquakes. My kids are both wide awake listening attentively thanks to the long nap they took on our way here.

I was just at the slipper falling off part when i notice the same silver car coming our way. I was shocked to see the stranger park it a few feet away from us and go and sit on the other side i had debted with myself was also the middle.