For the past few years Mama has been diagnosed with cancer and it made all of us worried about her situation. The fact that her body is deteriorating made it more worst than ever and what's sad about it is that we don't have enough money to provide her medical needs and we even doesn't consistently bring her to the hospital for check up. I'm 22 years old now and I'm currently studying in College but I'm having two thoughts whether I continue studying or not because I have to sustain my mom's medical needs and our daily consumptions . Dennis stopped studying and he decided to work at a pizza place in the town next to us while Charlie is already in Junior High. Right now, Dennis is our main provider in the house and knowing that his salary is just enough to feed us makes me feel sad about it but I'm still thankful for his effort to sustain the needs of our family.
"Jelena, you should go to school now my dear, don't worry about me I'll be fine." Mama said while holding my hand. Honestly, I'm hesitating whether to go now because Mama will be left alone and she's getting weaker. I'm combing her hair right now while she's laying on her bed. I couldn't believe how cancer can easily spread in a person's body and make her weak. Every minute seeing my Mama in this kind of situation feels like my heart is crushed into pieces. “Ma it's fine, don't worry I can go there later. " I replied while wiping away the small tears that started to come out and I thought she didn't noticed it. “honey, don't worry about Mama too much everyone of us leaves but it doesn't mean that I don't love you all. You are my source of strength in this unfortunate situation. I feel weak but whenever I see you, Dennis and Charlie it brings me back to life. Always remember this Jelena, Mama will never leave you alone... maybe my physical presence will fade but my eternal love will always be with you and your siblings no matter what happens."she said and I couldn't take it anymore but to let my tears drop continuously. I'm not going to school now. I have to find a way to make money or else I cannot buy my mom's medicine. “Ma, I love you always remember that. "
After doing every chores and taking care of Mama, I had an opportunity to go to the city to find a job. Luckily, Dennis' shift ended early and that he can take care of Mama for the mean time. Holding the folder containing all of my credentials, I walked pass every establishments trying to find a job hiring posters and asking people if they do have a any vacant positions. While walking I can already feel that my stomach growled because I'm hungry.The thing is I forgot to eat breakfast before going here. As I continued walking I stopped in a bakery and I realized that my money is just enough for me to pay the bus on my way home. I noticed that they have a hiring poster there and I immediately approached the lady. “ Good afternoon Ma'am, I have read that you're hiring as a storekeeper here, is the position still available? " I asked. “are you a baker?" the lady replied which made me feel a little confused. "no Ma'am." I said. “do you have any experience handling a bakery before" she said with an irritation on her voice.“no Ma'am" I replied. “then why are you asking to apply? we don't hire inexperienced person here woman! " the lady said and continued arranging the breads inside the glass. I was left there dumbfounded. This is the fifth rejection that I got today but I still won't stop. I walked continuously while hugging the folder in my chest, I'm really so hungry already and this heat is making it more difficult for me to function. I saw a bench and I decided to sit there for a moment just to calm myself a little. There are food vendors near me but I couldn't afford to buy something to eat or else if I do so I will walk 20 kilometers just to reach home. I put my folder beside me and decided to fix my bun because I literally look so messy now. My feet feels so painful now too even though I only wear 2 inches heels. The thing is I wore this kind of attire because whenever you're looking for a job you have to look decent and formal in order to be pleasing infront of the potential employers. My phone beeped and I saw a message from my friend Amanda and she's asking me why I didn't went to school today. She told me all the details of our class and I wished to reply but I don't have a load so I just let her. I will just explain it to her tomorrow if I have time. I still wanna go to school but I have much bigger responsibility now and I have to work so that I can buy the medicines that my Mama needs. My stomach growled again as a signal that I'm already so hungry but I can't do anything about it since I don't have an extra money to buy foods good thing I bought a water bottle with me. I just drank a water and then I started to massage my feet because it's really painful. I honestly don't like wearing heels no matter how high or low it is. She noticed that some of the corners of her feet was swelling already because the heels that she's using isn't actually here's, it's her mom's heels and it's kinda small for her but she doesn't have any other choice but to wear it.
She continued massaging her feet when suddenly the wind blows up and all the credentials in her folder went out and scattered around. She hurriedly ran towards the papers and collected it. However, she realized that one paper is missing, her resumé. She looked around only to see that her resume is blown into the middle of the road and without thinking she ran towards it. Jelena was about to pick her resume when a loud horn of a car stopped her. She started panicking and the next thing she hear is a screeching sound of a car. The owner of the car blasted the door open and walked towards her while fuming with anger. “what the f*ck do you think you're doing Miss? If you're planning to kill yourself by being hit with a car then find somebody else to do it! he said angrily. Jelena picked her resume and she stood up and felt dizzy with what happened. The only thing she knew is that shes almost hit by a car and that she can feel that she's stepping into a very hot cement road without her heels on. She can still feel like the man is talking about her angrily but she can't clearly understand what exactly is it because her dizziness took over and that the next thing she knew is that everything went black around her.