I'm Not What You Think

The Power of Tears

I looked around as I didn't want Kit walking in and catching me in tears but I felt bad. I needed to get Kit to join me but I didn’t have any more excuses to give her.

I had hoped staying here was an option but Leif wasn’t having it. Hearing the door open and knowing Kit had returned, I did my best to wipe the tears from my eyes before turning around to face her. "You’re back Kit., Did you find a job? "

You were crying! What’s wrong? Kit asked me as she looked at me concerned.

I wiped my eyes again and looked at her. “I'm fine , I just got off the phone with my brother, he's such an a*shole." I stated in between tears. "He refuses to let me stay here for the summer and says I’m to be on the plane tomorrow", I stated sadly.

Kit hugged me as she asked. “Is he really that bad Selena? Maybe he just really misses you and wants to see you , what about your boyfriend Jamie? Don’t you want to see him?".

“They don’t want to see me, all they care about is their reputations and family business." I said bitterly.

"Selena , it's only for the summer so just avoid them while you’re there ." Kit suggested.

"It’s different this time" I looked at her because I knew it would be the truth if I went there without her. I couldn’t stay away from my mate for so long and I knew there was a chance that I wouldn’t be allowed to come back unless I ran away which would be difficult with the men that surrounded my life back home.

" What do you mean? How is it different this time Selena? " Kit asked concerned.

I looked at Kit and finally knew I had to tell her a little bit of the truth even if it was stretched a little bit." I can’t come back this time Kit, " I spoke sadly as I bowed my head to look at the floor to avoid her seeing my eyes before I heard her scream "WHAT " so loud the whole apartment complex could hear her.

Kit's POV

"WHAT! " I asked shockingly . "What do you mean you can’t come back Selena? I thought we were in this together?"

"My brother just informed me that I was to return home and that I would not be returning" Selena stated angrily. " It’s not fair Kit, I know they are my family but why doesn’t it matter to them what I want in life? Why does it always revolve around their needs and wants? "

Seeing my best friend break down like this because of her jacka*s of a brother really pissed me off. I knew they were her family but Selena was right, she should be able to choose where she wanted to go in life and with whom.

Her brothers should respect that. “Who the hell does he think he is Selena? Just tell him no", I yelled furiously.

"It doesn’t work that way Kit, I can’t refuse," she yelled back at me. "It’s different back home and things aren’t like they are here or what you’re use to! Back home everyone in the family listens to the head and the head of the family, to refuse would mean I’m disowned."

I watched as Selena began pacing the floor back and forth as tears fell, her next words shocking the hell out of me. "I have to marry Jamie"

Selena was so upset that she was shaking , I knew I didn’t want to lose the closest person to me right now or ever but I wasn’t used to this kind of emotional sh*t.I felt so helpless right now and wanted to comfort her but I didn’t know how, I wasn’t good with feelings or expressing them .

Seeing Selena upset was a side of her I’ve never seen so it kinda threw me off . Hugging her again, I spoke." I’m not good with feelings or comfort Selena, tell me what you want me to do to help you."

"You’re doing enough now, You’re the only one who has ever been there for me or listened to me, I will surely miss you!" .Selena cried.

Her words got to me. It dawned on me that I knew how to help her , how to make her feel better even if it was just for a little while but did I dare? When I left my home years ago, it was impossible to get away and so hard to leave the life I was trained for.

I still wasn’t able to adjust to this place, now Selena was being taken away from me and I’d miss her as well. Why was life so unfair?

She needed me and I was scared of the unknown, of another place , and new people but if I could for Selena, I’d d*mn well try because She needed me for once and I didn’t need money for this. “Selena, does the offer still stand?” I asked.

I heard her sniffle before asking. “What offer Kit?”

"The one where I come with you?” I asked and smiled as she stepped back and looked at me then jumped on me hugging me as she wiped her tears.