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CONNOR
I had doubts.
I wanted to give Lynne the one thing she had always wanted. I wanted to have children with her. But I now found myself wondering if I was ready to be a father, if I was ready to share my wife with anyone, even my own child.
I’d been a loner for most of my life, unwilling to love for fear of being hurt, of losing that person as I’d lost my mother. Now that I had Lynne, I wanted to keep her to myself, at least for a while. I hadn’t expected her to get pregnant so quickly, and now that she was, I didn’t know how I really felt about it.
I lay beside her, watching her sleep, feeling emotions so powerful I couldn’t put it into words if I had to. And something else, something that made no sense—fear, a deep, bone-chilling fear.
“Take your child’s mother and go to Chr
