IKaWNaPaLa

KABANATA 13

I kissed on tita Cristel cheeks and said "Hi, tita".

"Waaa ba't ka nandito, nak!",sabi ni tita.

"Sabi po ni mommy kailangan daw kita imeet", I calmly said.

"Nak,may problema ba?",sabi ni tita

"Tita,I think I disappoint mommy",I sadly said.

Si tita Cristel yung pinakaclose ko na tita sa lahat ng kapatid ni dad.She has a daughter too but her daughter was only 5 years old.

"Ano bang nagyari?",saad ni tita.

Sinabi ko lahat yung card day and I was the 2nd honor.

"Candy,I know you did your best."she cupped my face and added "Infact ang swerte nga ng mom and dad mo sayo just because you studied well"

"Titaaaa.....but I failed them.",my tears started to fall.

"Candy,don't cry as long as you did your best.It was okay.",tita was trying to comfort me.

"But...ti----ta I think my best wasn't enough.Am I a failure coz I don't achieve what they are expecting to me?",I cried.

Tita hugged me."Candy,your best is enough and no you'rr not a failure yes maybe you think you failed but nak, failing is different from failure.Failing is a process while failure is an outcome.You will not be a true winner if you doesn't fail.Tahan na hija.Order ako ng pizza and kuhanan lang kita ng juice."

I just want to escape the reality and I want to stay in tita's house 'till afternoon.Ayoko munang umuwi.Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin ang salitang sorry kila mommy and daddy.Yes,gumaan yung pakiramdam ko sa mga sinabi ni tita pero feeling ko pag-uwi ko sa bahay sisisihin ko nanaman yung sarili ko.Buti nalang it's friday hindi nila ko matatanong and sigurado na makakalimutan nila yung nagngyari ngayon.

Inabutan ako ni tita ng apple juice."Inom ka muna or sindihan mo muna yung tv,para marelax ka habang hinhintay natin yung pizza."

I sio a little bit and asked "tita, where is Amari?"

"Oh, she playing on her room puntahan mo sa taas para masurprise",sabi ni tita.

I went upstairs and I knock 3 times on her door.I opened it and she's so quick went with me.

"Ate....I miss you,Are you here to play with me?",she asked me right away.

"Of course baby,Ate was here to play with you!"

When I said those word I saw how happy she was.Sana bata nalang din ako walang problema at laruan lang masaya na.How I wish I can go back in my childhood days.

So I played with her and after 15 minutes pizza was there tita Cristel called us.

We are happy eating the pizza.

"Ate your phone was ringing.",sabi ni Amari.

I saw it was Brent calling.Ayoko sana sagutin pero sabi ni tita sagutin ko na daw.

"Hello gurl!",sabi ko

"Sis, punta kami ng arcade wanna join,kulang ang tropa kung wala ka",Brent said.

"Sorry sis,next time nalang ako sasama.Promise",sagot ko.

"Gurl alam ko di ka okay,alam ko yon nasa bahay ka naba ninyo?sunduin ka namin para di ka mapagalitan,ano gusto mo?",Brent said while she was on the line.

"Thank you sis.Pero okay lang ako,don't worry",I speak with a low tone.

"Basta if ever text mo lang ako puntahan kita promise!" Sabi niya and the call ended.

Having a friend like them was so heart melting.Kahit na may problema ka they are always there to cheer you up.

"Tita...pwe---de po bang dito nalang ako matulog?", I asked tita Cristel.

Tita Cristel smirks and said "Hija, I want too but ayoko na sabihin ng mommy mo na tumatakas ka."

I just grimace and tita speak again "before 4 o'clock dapat nakauwi ka na para di ka pagalitan okay?"

I just nodded.After eating pizza, me and Amari went on their backyard.We are playing so long but I enjoyed it I speak up "Amari, pahinga muna si ate a pagod na ko ei"

I just sit down in a Bermuda grass when Amari speaks "Bakit ate napapagod ka din?"

I was so shocked but I smiled kung alam mo lang Amari kung gaano na kapagod 'tong ate mo.Pero sana nga baby hindi,pero di naman ako makina.Mga makina nga napapagod at umiinit din, tao lang ako napapagod,nahihirapan at nasasaktan din.

I answered "Hindi naman super hero and ate mo baby,syempre napapagod din ako."

She was so amazed and said "Ah, akala ko hindi".

I just smile "sige na tuloy mo na yang ginagawa mo."

It was already 4:00 pm. Magpapaalam na ko kila tita andito na din si tito but kadarating niya lang."Tita,tito I have to go".

"Kadadating ko lang aalis ka naaa agad",tito utter.

Tita smiled and said "Sure hija just call or text me pagnagkaproblema ako na bahala magkwento sa tito mo"

Amari hugged at me and said "ate hope you will be okay.Ingat kaa."

"Thank you baby",sabi ko.

"Thank you po ulit,uwi na po ako!",sabi ko ulit.

"Dahan-dahan sa pagdradrive ah",sabi ni tita tsaka ni tito.

I just wave my hands and started to drive my dad's motor.

May nakita akong nagtitinda ng barbecue I decided to buy some of it.Going home I saw a shake stall dumaan ulit ako and bumili ng mango shake.And lastly I bought burger because I'm craving on it.

When I was on our home mom and dad isn't there.

Ate Flor greeted me "Hi ma'am,ano pong gusto niyo pagluluto ko po kayo"

"Hindi na po ate, ako nalang po mamaya tsaka may dala po ako magmeryenda at magpahinga po muna kayo.",sabi ko sabay abot ng isang milktea,barbecue and isang burger.

2 milkteas, 2 burgers and 10 barbecues kasi yung binili ko.

I want to go to my room sana pero I decided na sabayan nalang si ate Flor.

We are eating together when ate Flor asked me a question,"Kumusta yung card day mo hija?"

"Di naman po masyadong maganda yung result but I'll be okay den po",sagot ko.

We treated them kasi as a family kaya okay lang na makisabay ako sa kanila.

"Anong nangyari?",she added.

"I didn't maintain my ranking po.I'm now the 2nd honor.",I said sadly.

"Wow ang galing pa den!Proud ako sayo hija",sabi ni ate Flor.

"Thank you po!",sabi ko.

Sana ganon din si mommy.After we eat that meryenda I went to my room and rest.

I was listening to music,looking at the stars on my ceiling asking my self am I not enough?I did all of my best but it wasn't enough.I failed.My tears was falling into my pillows as I remember what happened in school recently.I don't want to eat dinner ayoko sumabay kila mommy and daddy just because I don't want to hear their sermons.Infact I'm afraid to hear someone disappointed in me.Hindi ko din alam kung paano papasok sa school sa monday because for sure isa ko sa usapan dito.

Suddenly my phone rings it was Reese calling on messenger.I answered it."Hello bestie",it was obviously that I cried.

"Woiiii, umiyak ka no!",sabi niya.

"Shhhhhhh please just keep quiet, wag kang maingay baka kasama mo pa mga kaibigan natin",I said while I wiping my tears.

"Nakauwi na ko, tsaka boring naman pagwala ka.By the way kasama pala namin si Harvey kanina yung crush ni Brent sa kabilang section.Sila na ba?ang cute nila tignann..",as usual he's so naughty and observant.

"Waaaa ewan ko don, ang alam ko nanliligaw yata.Gaga talaga yonn!Ayy nakilala ba ni tita si Harvey?",I said excitedly

"Waaaa, parang di umiyak ah.Open you camera para ikwekwento ko.",he calmly said.

I open my camera and he opened his camera too.

"Oo nakilala ni tita, hinahanap ka niya nga pero nakaalis ka naaa!",he grimace when he said that."By the way why did you cry?Sapakin ko nagpaiyak sa best friend ko.",he added.

"Baliw wala!okay lang ako.Don't worry.",sabi ko.

"Bestie, best friend kita kaya you can tell me everything.Woi san ka pupunta.",pagtatakang tanong niya.

"Wait,I want to drink yakult",he cutted me and said "for you to be okay?I knew it! It's about yoir grades,right?Don't worry para sa akin your the no.1,heart heart"The he laughed so hard.

"Gusto mo",sabay alok ko sa yakult na iniinom ko."Bestie, what if I failed?Ayy hindi,Did I disappoint you?",our conversation turn in serious mode.

"Gusto ko. pahingi,bigyan mo ko niyan sa monday. No, it's okay to failed at least you try diba.Mahirap naman kung nanonood ka lang at hindi nagtry.No you didn't disappoint me because I am your bestfriend and everyday you amazes us.Woaaaa english yonnn",sabay turo ng daliri niya sa akin.

Waaa alam talaga niya kung paano ko patatawanin."Oh, napangiti kita.Woi maiba ko nanliligaw ba si Harith sayo?"

What?paano kami napunta sa ganiyang usapan."Di ko alam,nagpapakita ng motibo but I don't know if it's courting.",sagot ko.

"Okay pagniligawan ka niya at nasaktan sabihin mo sa akin.Kami na ng tropa bahala.",pagbabanta niya.

"Woi,baliw kaaa.Bababa ko na 'to.Bye thank you!"

"You're welcome I'm always here for you.",and ended the call.

I heard 3 loud knocks on my door.Usual it's mom."Candy,kakain na tayo bumaba ka na jan.",I answered,"Mommy di pa ko gutom,mamaya nalang ako kakain."I think her tone was mad,"Bumaba ka na may pag-uusapan tayo!"

Bumaba ako because she stared at me.

At the dinning area mom starts the topic "Candy, magtatanong ako about what happen to your grades!",I looked at mommy and said "mie please wag na,tanggapin nalang muna natin baka di para sa akin yon."

Mom raised his tone while dad was just observing,"Candy, hindi ganon ganon lang yon!Hindi ganon kabilis tanggapin!",dad holds my moms arm "Honey stop."

Tears falling into my eyes I am sobbing "Da----d, mo----m, I---m so--ry if I dis-----appointed youuu.",my voice was trembling."I am so--rry if I didn't achie----ve the top student,I'm so---rry mommy,I'm so so---rry daddy."My tears are continusosly falling.I stand up and runaway into my room.

"Candy!",mommy shouted.

"Honey,hayaan muna natin siya.Kung masakit sayo what more sa kaniya",I heard dad said to my mom.

I wear my earphones and play a music because I don't want to heard mom and dad fighting because of me.