My Sugar Daddy's

How James take my heart

Rose was crazy about her older brother and loved to talk about him nearly as much as I loved to hear about him. According to Rose. James had graduated last year but was dating a senior named Amanda Tatum. He'd had girls throwing themselves at him since the age of twelve. James spent his days building and repairing barbed-wire fencing for local ranchers, and had made the down payment on his mama's pickup. He'd been a fullback on the football team before he'd torn some ligaments in his knee, and he had run the forty-yard dash in 4.5 seconds. He could imitate the song of nearly any Texas bird you could name, from a chickadee to a wild turkey. And he was kind to Rose and their two young brothers, Rick and Kevin.

I thought Rose was the luckiest girl in the world to have James for a brother. As poor as her family was, I envied her. I'd never liked being an only child. Whenever I was invited to a friend's house for dinner, I felt like a visitor to a foreign land, absorbing how things were done, what was said. I especially liked families that made a lot of commotion. Mama and I were quiet-living, and even though she assured me two people could be a family, ours didn't seem complete.

I had always hungered for family. Everyone else I knew was familiar with their grandparents and great-uncles and second and third cousins and all the distant relations that met up for reunions once every year or two. I never knew my relatives. Daddy had been an only child like me, and his parents were dead. The rest of his people were scattered around the state. His family, the Jimenezes, had lived for generations in Lisa County. That was how I got my name, actually. I was born in the town of Lisa, a little northeast of Houston. The Jimenezes had settled there way back in the eighteen hundreds, when Mexico opened the area to colonists. Eventually the Jimenezes had renamed themselves the Joneses, and they either died off or sold their land and moved away.

That left only Mama's side of the family. Whenever I asked her about them, she turned cold and quiet, or snapped at me to go play outside. One time I saw her crying afterward, sitting on the bed with her shoulders hunched over as if they were laden with invisible weights. After that I never asked her about her family again. But I knew her maiden name. Truitt. I wondered if the Truitts even knew I existed.

But most of all I wondered, what had Mama done that was so bad her own family didn't want her anymore?

Despite my worries Rose insisted on taking me to meet Miss Maria and her pit bulls even after I protested they'd scared the wits out of me.

'"You better go make friends with 'em," Rose had warned. '"Someday they'll get past the gate and run loose again, but they won't bother you if they know you."

"You mean they just eat strangers?"

I didn't think my cowardice was unreasonable under the circumstances, but Rose rolled her eyes. "Don't be a scaredy-cat, Lisa."

"Do you know what happens to people who get dog-bitten?" I asked indignantly.

"No."

"Blood loss, nerve damage, tetanus, rabies, infection, amputation..."

"Gross," Rose said admiringly.

We were walking along the main drive of the trailer park, our sneakers kicking up pebbles and dust clouds. The sunlight bore down on our uncovered heads and burned the thin lines of our parted hair. As we neared the Cateses' lot I saw James washing his old blue truck, his bare back and shoulders gleaming like a new-minted penny. He wore denim shorts, flip-flops, and a pair of aviator sunglasses. His teeth flashed white in his tanned face as he smiled, and something pleasurable caught in my midsection.

"Hey, there," he said, rinsing swirls of foam from the pickup, his thumb partially capping the end of the hose to increase the pressure of the spray. "What are you up to?"

Rose answered for both of us. "I want Lisa to make friends with Miss Maria's pit bulls, but she's scared."

"I'm not," I said, which was not at all true, but I didn't want James thinking I was a coward.

"You were just telling me all the stuff that could happen if you get bitten," Rose pointed out.

"That doesn't mean I'm scared," I said defensively. "It means I'm well informed."

James gave his sister a warning glance. "Rose, you can't push someone to do something like that before they're ready. You let Lisa deal with it in her own time."

"I want to," I insisted, abandoning all common sense in favor of pride.

James went to turn off the hose, pulled a white T-shirt from a nearby umbrella-shaped laundry rack, and tugged it over his lean torso. "I'll come with you. Miss Maria has been after me to carry some of her paintings to the art gallery."

"She's an artist?" I asked.

"Oh, yes," Rose said. "Miss Maria does bluebonnet paintings. Her stuff is real pretty. isn't it, James?"

"It is," he said, coming to tug gently on one of his sister's braids.

As I watched James, I felt the same puzzling yearning I had before. I wanted to draw closer to him, to investigate the scent of his skin beneath the layer of bleached cotton.

James's voice seemed to change a little when he spoke to me. "How your knees doing, Lisa? Are they still sore?"

I shook my head mutely, nearly quivering like a plucked guitar string at his interest.

He began to reach out to me, hesitated, then gently pulled the brown-framed glasses from my upturned face. As usual, the lenses were covered with smears and fingerprints.

"How do you see out of these?" he asked.

I shrugged and smiled at the intriguing blur of his face above mine.

James polished the glasses on the hem of his shirt and viewed them critically before handing them back. "Come on, you two, I'll walk you to Miss Maria's. I'll be interested to see what she makes of Lisa."

"Is she nice?" I fell into step by his right side, while Rose walked on his left.

"She's nice if she likes you." he said.