LOVE????
1794 Words
Anna was approaching us, Moli changed the subject on time, She’s indeed a lifesaver. I didn’t want Anna to get the wrong intention about me.
“Like you are using her friendship to get under her brother's pant?” My inner self mocked me.
“Hey… hey, watch your tongue” I attacked back catching both of my best friends attention. They were staring at me as if I was acting weird. Maybe I am weird, feeling unusual sensation after a long period.
“Yeah sure. You forgot the sensation and orgasms which you get with the company of tall Brown-haired model while breaking the bed of his apartment” my inner self poked fun at me.
“Shut the f**k up. That was just for Ummm… exercise. But this, this feels real.” I snapped back in frustration.
God, he didn’t even spare time to look at me and I was going crazy for him. That’s not like me. But my hormones were making me insane without any reason. His Cologne, his Aura was enchanting. Wanting me to kneel and beg for his attention, for his hands to explore every inch of me.
“You are going to far..” My inner self stopped me from stripping him naked in my thoughts.
I was mortified of rebelling myself. It is unprofessional of me fantasizing about my big boss at an official event in front of his sister.
I was shocked when I felt someone's hand on my forehead. I snapped back to reality, the owner nervous voice grabbed my attention, who was asking me in concern as if I was feeling well or not and that was Moli. Anna’s face also laced in worry with a deep frown. She tapped on my shoulder as gently as she could just to assure that I was Ok.
I clumsily wobbled and smiled towards them pressing my lips tight not to get into there radar of suspicion.
“It’s, it’s nothing. Just feeling a little overwhelmed and anxious, look around, this hall is filled with topmost perfectionist of their fields.” I shuttered in an anxious voice, trying to come up with an excuse to hide my concern.
Anna buys it, She nodded in my direction giving me a small smile. “ Don’t you worry girl? I got your back and you are naturally talented.”
I was feeling sorry for not spitting out the real reason in front of her but I don’t want her to think of me as a gold digger because I am not. On the other hand, Moli knew that I was lying on their faces, she raised her eyebrow in the same manner whenever she catches me lying or either don’t believe me.
“By the way Moli my brother is here, I would like to introduce you to him.”Anna chirped heartily, In response Moli smiled clumsily, shaking her head in no but saying “Yes, Ok but not now, I want some US TIME.”
I choked on my drink feeling the lump in my throat unable to swell down the white liquid of glass, I felt strange the way Anna specially asked Moli to meet her brother.
“Are you okay” Anna rubbed my back with concern, and Moli gave me a worried look.
“No no... I am fine.” I gave them an extra toothy smile. Somehow Anna let go of the topic and I was behaving edgy since I saw him a few minutes ago. All I can think was, what if he never noticed me? What if Anna doesn’t want me to date her brother?
I kept on overthinking, over dreaming even after knowing that he doesn’t spare a second glance at me. But what else I can expect from a man as sexy and hot as him.
He was like walking fire, ready to burn me with desires. I can bet every woman here is trying there best to win him just for a night or for a lifetime.
“Come on, let’s have fun Girls, let's move our ass to the centre where we can observe everyone and give our opinion about anything we want.” I try my best to turn on my peppy side to make sure, we enjoy ourselves to the fullest.
“You mean, to be mean and criticise everyone here,” Moli asked frowning as if she doesn’t like the idea, I understand she doesn’t like to be judged, so what she doesn’t like for herself doesn’t do it for others.
“No you are wrong, You can also share what you like about them,” I told her, this rule is only for her as I was planning to roast others with Anna, She was frustrated by the way men were lusting over her.
“Sounds great to me, but I am not going to play nice,” Anna said clapping her hands with excitement.
We had two glasses of wine to set our mood and the third one in our hand just to raise a glass if someone notices us staring at them. We didn’t want to look like a creep after all.
We had fun. Even Moli exploded when she saw a guy who was the named swine and jack ass of the party, trying to flirt with every girl just to get laid. He deserves punishment for being such a d**k and guesses what I threw a glass of wine on him. God my acting skills were really good if I wasn’t a fashion designer, So maybe I would be an actor.
We were enjoying our first meeting together the three of us were perfection, I can feel other women’s burring with jealousy. Everyone's eyes on us, some had lust, some envy and some admiration.
But one pair of captivating eyes were enough to melt me down, Those deep green eyes with slight grey tint and black bright pupil. Yes, I remember those charismatic eyes which belong to one and only Steve Milker. It was quick to fall for him but I can’t help it, I was under his spell.
All I can concentrate on was him, I never noticed someone keenly. But his presence in the same hall making me lost all I can see was him and me wanting each other as if everyone just vanished, leaving us alone.
I was peeking at him most of my time, I even forgot what I was gossiping about which is new for a girl like me. All I can behold is those magnetic green eyes drawing my interest, making my heart beating rapidly like a teenage girl, who first time fall in love.
“Did you just say LOVE???” my inner self asked in an accusing tone.
“Shut up. Stop commenting..” I tried to defend my self, but it was not effective at all. I remember when I met Yash for the first time, I felt the same way which I am feeling right now, his presence in my life made everything horrible for me, I ended up alone fighting with my parents, dealing with my alcohol and drug addiction. I completely lost my life once but my bestie Moli saved me.
“Yeah, you remember every detail of self-destruction, But still imaging him underneath you.” My inner self insulted me again ”You always think with open legs huh”.
I was too much exhausted in arguing with my self that I didn’t notice him approaching us. His black hair neatly combed giving him a more dominant and sexy appearance. His black leather eye mask with little black feathers giving his feature a gentle touch but at the same time, his chiselled jawline screams how manly he is. His natural pink luscious lips luring me to crave, and the bridge of his nose showing his pride but at the same time wanting me to kiss on the top of it for admiration.
Gosh, I never appreciated anyone’s charm before. He’s just the definition of excellence.
When he greeted me formally, then the realisation hit me, I was so caught up in his sight, as I stopped breathing until I feel suffocated and gasp for air. I was disappointed at his response and my ludicrous behaviour but what hurts extensively was his eyes stuck only on Moli.
All I can see was him, All he was seeing is Moli. I was feeling this scorching sensation in my chest as if I was being stabbed in my heart. I know, I should not be feeling jealous of Moli, but all I can feel is deceived by her. it’s not her fault though, I can’t just force him to love or even start liking me neither can I explain my heart to stop falling for him.
My hope was completely crushed and my eyes turned glassy when he shook Moli's hand instead of mine. His eyes were shining as if he saw the best treasure so far and it hurts like hell, that glow on his face was not my effect, it was Moli's charisma. I noticed the chemistry between them. How can she did this to him, in just one meeting and snatch my chances? I was waiting to know him since the day Anna told me about him. And now my bestie seduced him or maybe I am just being paranoid.
I don’t see this coming, See was not interested a moment ago when I was talking about him and now she’s ogling at him. Thank god Anna brought back Steve's attention and we all seated together at the round table. I was on the second chair from right, Moli next to me, then Anna and after her Steve.
Everything was over the moon except the way he was glancing at her with fondness and passion.
Why it can’t be me...? I was repeating this question over and over again in my head but wasn’t able to get a valid answer. I was so furious at Moli, I don’t even know how to express it in front of my best friend who was there in my odds.
The way she was holding my hand and focused on cheering for me, making me feel guilty to think of her as a rival. She was always my partner, I was on the stage all I can see is her clapping for me. No one else but she was there, to support me, to applaud for me. I don’t even know what I want to feel at this instant, I am blessed to have a sister like her but at the same time, I was burning with enviousness.
"let him go....” My inner self said knocking some sense in me. Shutting my eyes, I started counting to ease my mind, I was breathing heavily, promising myself to
work hard for letting him go, to try best not to imagine or to feel anything about him.
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