The true mate

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

Matthew's POV

„Did you kill him?“

Liz and I woke up only 4 hours after we went back to bed. For the rest of the night I couldn't stop thinking about the whole incident. I've been awake most of the night, just looking at her sleeping figure. Liz got somehow to Jacob, but it looked like she was sleeping. Maybe it was just a dream? But she has a light bruise in her throat. Is it really possible for her to be at two places at the same time? I heard stories about witches able to manifest in two places, but that's very advanced magic. Laila will tell us more, she's arriving tomorrow and staying in the same hotel with me. I plan to take Liz every evening with me if possible to practice magic with Laila, even if it's just for a few minutes.

„Matthew? Are you listening to me?“

„Hm?“ I look at Liz who is already standing next to me holding my shoulder.

„Are you ok?“ I take her hand in mine and pull her to sit on my lab. She pulls away for a bit to take her coffee and sits on my lap. „You're inside your head.“

„Yea, I know. Sorry, what were you saying?“

Liz signs and looks me in the eye. „Did you kill him? The werewolf from earlier?“

I look at her surprised, but shake my head. „He probably has some major injuries, but he was able to run away.“ I look at my mate, who is looking at me worried. „Don't think about it. Let's just enjoy the rest of the day, before we leave.“ I stand up and go to sit in the living room and turn on the TV. Liz is still in the kitchen putting the dishes away. I can feel that she's really worried. I contacted my brother to give him more information from Liz, about Jacob's possible position and the witch. He and Alphas from the surrounding area sent their warriors for search.

„Will he survive? Matt?“

Liz comes to the living room and sits beside me, putting her legs under her and covering herself with a blanket.

„The rogue?“

After she nods and thinks about the whole fight. „If he has a healer he will survive for sure, but if he's alone, who knows. Werewolves heal quickly by themselves, but I cut his throat open and all my attacks caused a heavy blood loss, so it's hard to tell.“ Liz lays her head on my shoulder and breathes in deeply. „Liz. Can you come with me tomorrow evening after dinner?“

„I think so. Why?“

I stay quiet and I wait for her to notice that I want her to look at me. She understands quickly and lifts her head and looks at me with tired eyes.

„Laila is coming here. William, our old ally, and family friend, allowed her to come here and help you. She's a witch and I think it would be good for you to learn how to control your power, especially now, when we know that Jacob is working with a witch, a powerful one.“

Liz blinks a few times and nods. I hug her around her shoulders and kiss her head. „Don't worry, we'll deal with it and then we'll have all the time for ourselves.“ I like to think about the time we have ahead of us. True, this is not what I imagined. I always thought that my mate would be a werewolf, just like in almost any other case. But I love Liz the way she is. She's perfect.

„She will be even more perfect when she has our pups.“

„We don't even know if she wants babies.“ It's true that she's working with babies, but that doesn't necessarily mean she wants them.

„Ask her. We've always wanted pups, we've always thought that the day we find our mate, we'll have pups right away.“

„I know, and I still want that. If she was a werewolf it would be easier.“ Werewolves have a strong desire to have a family. It is in our nature, we live in packs. But with human mates there can be a problem, if the mate doesn't want to have children. The werewolf is divided between their desire to be part of the pack and have a family and love for their mate and what they want.

„Just ask her, or all do it myself.“

„This is something we both should discuss with her together.“

I focus on my wolf and allow him to take some control until we're in sync. I look at Liz again, who is almost asleep at this point. She must be really tired, all the adrenalin from this weekend, meeting my family. And the s*x, lots of s*x must have tired her out. I slightly shake with her and she shoots her head up in shock.

„Yeah?!“ She's looking around her like a lost puppy. I have to chuckle for myself, it's so cute that I have to kiss her on her head again and smile in her hair.

„If you woke me up only to kiss me, then screw you.“

I chuckle again and look at her pouty face. „We could do that, but there is something more I want to talk to you about.“

Liz sits up straight and gives me all her attention. But before I can start the conversation she stops me by putting her hand in front of her like a sign to stop. „I didn't mean it in that way, but maybe later if you give me some food. Now, please, continue.“

I can hear my wolf growling in delight, but after I shush him I start talking.

„Do you remember our date at the park? When I asked you to choose between two things? When I asked a vampire or werewolf, you said werewolf because of the way you thought they lived. Like wolves, in packs. You were right. Our pack is very important to us. And with that comes also our family. You know, werewolves have a deep desire for a family and to be part of one. When a werewolf finds their mate, they go through a marking and mating ritual, just like we did. But for werewolves it's more than that. It's for the purpose of conceiving a pup. A baby.“

„What?!“ Liz cried out those words immediately after I said them. „Are you trying to say, that there is a high chance of me getting pregnant?!“

„Honey, no. You are not a werewolf. That's not why I'm having this conversation with you. I just wanted to ask-“

„I can't get pregnant! I don't...“ Liz just stares at me and then puts her head in her hands and looks on the floor.

I'm looking at her with hurt evident in my face and I can hear my wolf whining out loud, that even Liz can hear it. „You don't want to have children?“

Liz looks at me slowly and gets up. Now it's my turn to look at the floor, but she takes my hands and puts them on her hips, while she's sitting on my lap facing me with her legs beside my thighs. She puts her hands on my shoulders and gives me a sad smile. I've always thought that she will be the mother of my children, that we will have a beautiful family. I don't care how many children we would have, for as long as it's with her. She is getting ready to speak, but I don't know if I want to hear it.

„No, I don't.“

Liz' POV

„What?! Are you trying to say that there is a high chance for me to get pregnant?!“ No, no, no. I can't have kids, not now. I hear Matthew trying to calm me down, but the only thing in my head is that I might get pregnant. I mean, I want babies, yes, but...

„I can't get pregnant! I don't...“ that's not how it's supposed to be. I take my head in my hands and look at the floor, trying to think. Yes, we had s*x and s*x leads to pregnancy. I didn't think about it while it was happening, because of the feelings I had after Matthew gave me the mark and after we mated for the first time. s**t! What if I get pregnant? Will Matthew want it? Or is he trying to say that if I get pregnant I should get rid of it? Or...

I can hear Matthew's wolf whining and Matthew looking at the floor with melancholy in his face. I think I only saw him like this when he thought I was gonna reject him.

„You don't want to have children?“

Hm? Is he sad because he thinks I don't want kids? Well, I didn't give him a good impression with me freaking out immediately. Oh, Matthew. I get up and take his hands in mine. There are the sparks I love so much, his touch. I put his hands on my hips and lower myself on his lap and support myself by holding onto his shoulders.

I should explain how I see the future and family. I hope he'll understand, I know werewolves take these things differently.

I look him in the eye with a sad smile and take a deep breath to buy some time and form words in my head.

„No, I don't.“ I can feel Matthew's shoulder fall and his expression is full of pain. When I look him in the eye, I can see the black in his left eye disappearing. No, that's not all I want to say. I cup his left cheek and look at him with a smile again.

„Wait. I'm not done.“ I wait for a few moments for Matthew's wolf to come back and after I'm sure I have his attention I keep talking. „I don't want to have children. For now.“ I can see that Matthew and his wolf are both paying all their attention to me and waiting to hear every single word I say. „I've always wanted to have kids and I still do. But I think that it's a good idea to spend some time just with you. I want this to be just the two of us for some time and enjoy our time together, because when the babies come, there won't be much of our alone time left. I want to travel with you, watch movies until 2 a.m, go to visit your family and have a drink, go out without thinking about our children and if their babysitter is nice and have s*x with you whenever I want without waking up a baby or them walking up on us. Please don't think that I don't want children, because I do. I want to have children with you. You are the only one I've ever seen myself having children with.“

„Even though you know me for 8 days?“

I have to laugh. It's crazy what magical bonds can do with people. „It's strange I know. Considering the fact that I know you for little over a week and we're already having a baby talk. But yeah, even though I know you only for 8 days, you are the one I want to have my children with. I just need some time, that's all.“

Matthew smiles happily and hugs me closer to him. Our noses are almost touching when he connects our foreheads. „But what if you end up pregnant after this weekend?“

„I don't know. I haven't think about that.“ What would I do? By Matthew's reaction abortion is not exaptable and I'm not comfortable with that thought either. I know he wants children and would take care of us. He wants to have a family with me and so do I. „I would keep it. It's our baby after all.“

„You know if it happens I will love you and the baby no matter what.“

„I'm sure you're pleading with the moon goddess right now to make it happen.“

Matthew's POV

She knows me so well. „Yes, I want you to get pregnant, even if it happened now, I would be extremely happy, but I want you to be happy too. We'll do it the way you want it. I can wait for a bit. How long are we talking about? A month or two?“

Her laugh is music to my ears, I can wait as long as she wants, if it means she'll have my children.

„I was thinking about a year, maybe a year and half. That should be enough. Yeah, one year starting the moment I start living with you and your pack.“

„Well, it's not what we hoped for, but it's good enough.“

„Stop it. It's perfect. And I know you are trying to pretend, but you're actually happy.“

„I can wait one year or so. You know me well.“

„Yeah.. I know us.“ Even though he has my impatience and hot head, he's part of me, I respect him and he means a lot to me.

„Do you want a coffee? And we could order some food. A&W? And we can practice before they deliver it.“

„Practice?“ Liz looks at me with suspicion and maybe even a fear in her eyes.

„Well, if we want a baby one day, we should practice the process of making one.“

Liz gives me a pointed look with her left eyebrow lifted up and then smirks. „Alright. But nothing as energetic as last time. I'm really tired. How about this... Matthew, please make love to me.“ With the cute and almost vulnerable look she's giving me, I would do anything for her.

I take my hands away from her hips and cup her cheeks. She's looking at me with all the love she has and puts her hands on mine. I start kissing her and lower us on the couch. I kiss her deeply and wrap my arms around her waist. With every second she's pulling me closer to her and deepening the kiss. I start to caress her sides and pull away for a moment. When I look at her, she's already smiling and tressing my little scar on my left eyebrow with her fingers.

„You know I love you, right? The both of you.“

„We know.“ I connect our forehead and take a deep breath of her scent. It's sweet and fresh. I don't know what I'll do once she goes home. I got so used to being with her, sleeping in one bed with her, holding her and taking care of her. Just the thought wakes something in me. I kiss her mouth, nose, cheeks and travel my lips down her neck to her mark. When I reach it I lick lightly. Even that light touch made Liz arch her back and moan in my ear. I want to make love to her, but the realization that I wouldn't be able to be with her like this for day makes me want to f**k her so she doesn't forget it. I bite her mark and kiss it and lick it repeatedly. At this point she's just a moaning mess and I can feel myself getting harder with every second. I kiss her mark again and then feel a sharp pain in my own neck. The pain changes into a pleasure and sparks.

Liz's POV

This is so good. I want to hold Matthew as close as possible and never let him go. If he keeps biting my mark I'm gonna lose it. I can feel an amazing feeling. It feels like I'm boiling inside with passion. My head is spinning, my muscles are so tense, that I don't know what to do to make it stop, but also I don't want it to stop. Now, I only have a strong urge to make Matthew feel the same way. I'm not even able to think at this point. I'm hugging him with all the strength I have, but it's just not enough. And then it comes. Without even thinking I bite Matthew's right side on his neck. I can taste a little bit of his blood on my tongue and then his magical stream. I feel his power inside my body. It's like all the energy I'm missing this morning is coming back. And the sparks are stronger than ever before. I take my mouth off of Matthew's neck and look at him.

He's looking at me very surprised and breathing heavily.

„Babe...“ I watch him as he's trying to find the right words. His left hand is cupping my cheek when he speaks again. „I think you just marked me.“

Jacob's POV

„Moira!“

Where is she? When I need her she's not around. „Moira!“ I scream into the space of my room. I know she can hear me. I need some answers. I met my mate last night, but she's mated already. If I'm her mate as well there must be a way, how to make her mine. „Moira! For f**k's sake!“

„Oh my, why so much screaming, love?“

I turn around to find hew already sitting on my bed with her legs crossed. Sometimes she looks like someone from the old days. Like she was raised as a royalty. She has truly strange manners sometimes. She looks like a lady, sitting perfectly straight, always perfectly dressed, even the way she walks says I am superior, but there is a different side of her. She is a monster. Cold, bloodthirsty monster. I saw her eating other people's magic. The look in their eyes when they realize their life is fading away. They can't even fight, they just lay there, the light of life leaving their eyes. She's a disease.

„Shut up. I met my mate last night. Looks like she's the little witch you told me about. The mate of Blackwood, she is my mate too.“

Moira shoots her head up, looks me in the eye. I've seen her in different moods, when she throws a tantrum, when she's having s*x with me all flushed enjoing herself, or just being a snake. But this is new. She looks curious, genuinely curious. „I touched her, the sparks were strong, but looks like she felt almost nothing. She mated with Blackwood already. I need you to renew our bond, to strengthen it. Also I need her to see me, to feel me, to feel it.“

Moira looks at me with a frown on her face. She stands up from the bed and walks to me. She is searching my face. After a while she smiles, but there is no warmth in her eyes. „Of course I will help you, love. But you know my price. A piece of your magic, or one of your pack members.“

I scoff at her, but there is no other way. I need her to help me. The price is always the same, magical power. I hate it when I have to give myself to her, it was meant for my mate, but I would never give her one of my pack members. I look her in her eyes, she's already looking at me, smiling knowing my answer. My answer never changes. „Come here later tonight. You'll get what you want.“