We take a private jet to Bali. Damien's private jet. When we board on the plane, I can't imagine that this is my life. My new life. Taking private jets and people treating you like the most important person on the planet. I know I should be happy about it. But it scares me. The contract will only last for two years only. I don't want to get used to a life that's not mine. A life that's a lie. A life that will be over after two years. It's scary to enjoy something that you know you're going to lose in the end. I'll go from private jets to buses. From mansions to small apartments. I don't want to get used to a life that I know I can't sustain. And none of this feels real. Just two weeks ago, I broke up with my boyfriend and now I'm married to his boss. And now, we are on our way to ou

