I WAS JUST SIX

Episode # 4

Esme entered the door and ran towards her mother. Mama, how are you my little angel. Mama, how are you? Why did you get so sick suddenly? My little princess mama is alright, don’t worry. She stared at her mother. She took her hand in her hands, then she kissed Esme`s forehead. It's too late, Esme. You should go back with your aunt. We will take you in the morning. No mama, I am here. We will go home together. Esme, please understand what mama is saying. Promise she will come to take you. Esme, let's go to my home, have some sleep, then you will be in your home soon. You are a little kid beta. They don’t allow kids to stay here. Let's go to my home. Her aunt took her hand, and they went back to her aunt's house.

Esme just went back with her aunt. Now I am hoping that Star will go back home with me. The doctor said that we are shifting the room of your wife, Star. She will be fine. You should stop worrying.

Can you please tell me what happened ? Is she ok? Kindly tell me the truth, my wife Star. Is she okay????

There is a very strange feeling in my heart. The doctors are telling me to stop worrying, but I'm feeling something weird. I'm even more worried and scared. I know she will be fine, but this feeling of losing her is killing me and making me feel worse.

They took her to the other room and shifted her there. I went behind them. They were not allowing me to see her, just telling lies and making me helpless. I was waiting outside. I hope she will be fine with the grace of the Almighty. I am praying to My Almighty for her healthy life.

” Please make my love star healthy and strong. My children are waiting for us. I hope that my prayers will be answered and she will be okay. My star will shine brighter soon. No one can love her more than me. She is my life. My Lord, please make her mine forever. She is mine in her heart and soul. It just makes her fine for me. She is in pain and I can’t bear that my love is in pain. Please, My Lord, kindly make her healthy.”

There is a very strange feeling in my heart. Felt like life was going to fall apart. Something is very strange. There is a burden in my heart like I am carrying something very heavy which is causing me weakness and making me more afraid. Is my Star fine? Will she go back home with me?

3 March 1999

He is our first child. Our son Moon, will you love me the same way even after our child? I remember when we got married, and you said that I am a perfect lady for you to spend a lifetime with. So will you keep your promise and love me forever? Because, in our society, men usually decrease their love and efforts after they have children because their child will continue his heritage. My Amma used to say that men only want a child or a son who will continue their heritage. He would stop loving his wife, and she just stayed there with her husband for protection. There is no more love and care left between the couple after they had children.

Today we had our first child, our son, who will continue our bloodline. Will our bond remain the same after him? I know I am asking strange questions on this day. Today is a very happy day for you as a father, the same as for me. But I was just scared and had this feeling, so I just asked.

Moon was listening to his wife Star very carefully. When she stopped talking, he gave a smile that was so strange for Star. Moon said: My love, Star, you are the woman who came into my life when I was at my lowest. You accepted me the way I was. We are not living in a movie or a character that I will be your hero and I will always say that I will die for you or for your love. This is the real world. We are husband and wife. We had our first child, and we will both make sure to be there for each other. And as I promised you the day you said yes to me that I would be by your side in any case, then what made you think this? “ Just remember that the sky is incomplete without the moon and the stars as well. When both the moon and stars shine, the sky is being loved, adored and praised by the world, so we will both do our life as we wanted. We will make this house feel like home for our children and don’t you ever think about such things again.”

And today we have just had our first child. We will have many more children in the future and my love for you will increase every time. So will you stop loving me after we have had all of our children? Moon started laughing loudly. Don’t worry, we will have so many children, so I will not stop loving you. WHATTT????

I am just kidding. No, I will love you forever. Don’t worry, I am so good at keeping my promises and what about you, Star? Will you stay in my sky with me forever? Of course, who can leave a man like you, my Moon, who brings light to my life and loves me more than anyone else and will love me more than his own children? Am I right? Yes, yes, when our children grow up we will get a separate home and will start living like teenagers again, okay!!

Mr. Moon, you are smiling. Yes, I just had a flashback of a memory with my wife. Oh! Doctor, how is she? What about her fever? Is she okay? Can I take her home? You were about to discharge her.

“Sorry to say, Mr. Moon, now you are left only with her memories. She is no more. Your wife left this world. She can't survive the dengue fever. I am so sorry for your loss.”

Are you a mad doctor? She made me promise that’s not possible. How can this be possible? She is my wife, and she is alive. How can you easily say that she left me? No, she can't leave me. She always kept her promises and she will keep this one also.

And she did not even say goodbye. Mr. Moon, control yourself. I know you love your wife, but this is reality. You have to face the fact that your wife left this world. She died. She is no longer with you with your children. Be strong. You are a brave man. Call your family to complete all the procedure and take the dead body.

This is insane. How can you say this? I have no control over myself. My children, how can they bear this? How can I tell them about their mother? My Esme, no, that is not true. My daughter is too small to bear the loss of her mother's death. No, No, No!!!

It was almost 11 o clock at night when they reached home. Esme was so sleepy, her aunt put her to sleep and sat beside her on bed. Esme was sleeping, her aunt and her cousin's sister were sitting beside her talking about different things like they normally used to do before going to bed. Suddenly, the phone rang. That was Mr Moon's call. Esme`s baba jan. Her aunt picked up the call, her hands started shivering, and the phone fell down from her hand. Her daughter, Esme`s cousin, started asking about what happened or what her uncle, Mr. Moon, said that made her cry and shiver. Esme woke up from this noise.