Chapter One-1

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Chapter One She wasn’t used to the attentions of men, having insulated herself from the gender for several years after a bad breakup with Jose. The poor man didn’t understand the deviant thoughts that her mind creatively nurtured into remarkably dark fantasies. Their lovemaking began in exhilarating fashion, passionate and almost savage the way they clawed each other’s bodies when they first began to copulate. Frenetic and wild when they first clashed, though the passion faded over time. Could s*x like horny teenagers be enough for her, when for so many years of celibacy she played the masochist in her raunchy daydreams? About five months in to their affair, boredom struck, and she let the sexy Venezuelan peek into her mysterious realms. A slap of his hand and her ass undulated, on her lips the sensuous, Oh, yes, Jose, more! A refrain repeating, though her boyfriend for the last five months wasn’t getting the message. He thought she meant ‘f**k me harder!’ a skill at which he was most adept. All she got was banged hard. Considering the size of his erection, her p***y needed days to recover from the ache. This was not the kind of pain that fed her soul. To find that, she’d need someone other than Jose. Jose didn’t understand; he wanted to marry her; bring her home to Mama in Venezuela; make her a housewife with a picket fence locked tight around her s*x, the apron strings tied in a grand show of conventional female submission. She walked away, swore him off, even slapped Jose’s face when he came after her, aggressively pursuing a woman he refused to know. This was something daring for a woman who made submission to men her goal. It was a bad break-up. Enough to leave her mind reeling and her psyche scarred. The Deviant, Marilyn Hayworth, 2005 *** Jackson Brandt… I admit, I didn’t pay much attention to her at first. I was merely interested in getting a break from the small talk, and the endless handshaking and congratulations that seemed a little bizarre. What kind of honor is it to be feted for doing my job well and making millions in the process? Do I score points with Jefferson College because being a greedy bastard is the pinnacle of worldly success? Or because I’m willing to part with a mil or two when they need seed money for their latest building project? I know what they’re after with the tributes and awards, and I can’t let it bother me. I take my accolades, smile, shake hands and go out to the terrace for a smoke when the air gets too thick with admiration I hardly deserve. So there I found her, looking as though she was as bored with the champagne reception as I was. Instead of a cigarette, she clung to a champagne glass, trying to casually sip the bubbly, when I imagined she would rather impolitely gulp it down. Of course, this woman wouldn’t do that. She was a pretty brunette, diminutive, with a body she chose to hide behind drab and unfashionable clothes. Still, I liked looking at her, imagining the shape of her breasts and the sensuous swell of her belly underneath the stuffy blue business suit, and what appeared to be a nicely rounded ass. I love the female ass, the hips, the curves, the rise and fall of their soft flesh. The suit she wore was not particularly expensive, something made for a reasonable woman, like one in my secretarial pool, or a teacher, certainly it was fit for a librarian. Yes, that was it. She had the studious look of a librarian or college professor. I had no illusions about the woman and what a conversation with her might bring, but for lack of anything else to do, I found myself politely moving her way – we were the only people on the terrace and it seemed only civil that I say something. I could get away with being aloof, which I imagined is what she expected. She stood by the balcony looking out over the campus quadrangle, as if lost in a daydream. “You remember it like yesterday?” I stared out, mimicking her studious pose while remaining a reasonable five feet away. “Not really,” she said. She turned to look at me and I felt a shudder of recognition. Suddenly nervous, she stared at my cigarette instead of my face. “I hear it’s bad for your heart to smoke,” she flippantly asserted, her tone quaintly haughty. “I have to have some vices,” I replied. “I’ll bet you have many,” she curtly snipped. After that, perhaps I should have moved on, but I found something in her eyes beyond the first vague and dreamy look, a captivating spark that had me baffled. “Sorry, did I do something?” I asked. “No, not really. But you’re Jackson Brandt and I don’t imagine that we have a thing in common, so…” she stopped suddenly. Soon as her retort left her lips, she looked as if she’d like to take it back. She turned shy and beguiling, shrugging almost bashfully in an amazing transformation from b***h to bewitching. “So, why am I talking to you…?” I finished the question she would have asked, and waited. When she didn’t respond, I answered. “Because there really is a real person behind all this silly reunion bravado.” I nodded to the reception hall from which a wealth of rich laughter poured and the tinkle of glassware transported the mind into an altered state. “Is there?” She almost…almost seemed intrigued. “So, you know me, but I don’t know you,” I ventured on. “I’m guessing you’re about ten years behind me at Jefferson?” “I am.” “But do you have a name?” I tried the joke and discovered that she could smile. A lovely one that turned what was at first an ordinary face into a beautiful one. “Rachel Linney.” She raised the goblet. “And what does Rachel Linney do?” “I’m an Assistant Professor of English and Creative Writing at Valley.” “Ah!” I was right, that explained so much. The clothes, the attitude, the nervousness, as if I were speaking with one of the secretaries in the firm. Our worlds, Rachel’s and mine, would rarely collide within a social context, which made this awkward for us both. Awkward for Rachel Linney because she’d find the world of actors and playwrights in which I lived and worked intimidating. Awkward for me because the more I was with this woman, the more I wanted to know her, yet suddenly, I found myself at a loss as to how to woo an ordinary woman. Why did I bother when I could have had ingénues and gorgeous starlets on my arm? Because Rachel Linney was so much more than she seemed. I knew that without understanding why. I knew the attraction was real, I felt it in my gut. I also felt it lower in my crotch, which, if I stayed with her much longer, would have given me away with an obvious boner tenting my suit pants. Maybe that’s all it was. s****l chemistry. I could have f****d her in a heartbeat and left her wasted and wanting; I’d certainly done that enough in my forty-two years. But no, not this time. “You know, I have to go back to the party,” I finally began my exit. “Sure, you’re the guest of honor.” She seemed relieved. “But I can call you at Valley, the English Department, Rachel Linney?” She was not so relieved now. Almost a look of shock in her eyes. “Yes, I suppose you can,” she said with a bewildered smile. I smiled back, casually stuffed my hands in my pants’ pockets and sauntered toward the subtle glow of the crowded room. *** Rachel… Jackson Brandt. He was not exactly a dreamboat, but he did give my body a rush. Must have been the power he wielded. Partner in an exclusive law firm. Attorney for up and coming starlets, for muscled hunks looking to be the next soap opera heart-throb. I was told he had a few New York stage actors as clients, but the casual observer of Jackson Brandt’s notoriety wouldn’t know that. And I was just a casual observer. He graduated c*m laude from Jefferson, took the fast route to the Bar Exam and had been gracing the pages of my college newsletter ever since, with glowing reports of his star-studded success. I noted that he hadn’t had such luck with women, but how can a man stay married and faithful when they’re in the constant company of ravishing females? It’s a world I couldn’t have cared less about, except that while I was getting a breather from the phony smiles and one-upmanship of my college reunion – I could kill Dana for dragging me there – he accosted me. Well not exactly accosted me. He was very nice, sending my romantic heart all pitter-patter. Dammit, my crotch was dancing and not at all subtly. I prayed he didn’t notice, that I was cool enough not to turn into a sniveling groupie. I really didn’t care for men like Jackson Brandt, but the lights, the show, the personal charisma of a powerful man was so mesmerizing, he was difficult to resist. I certainly didn’t expect to react the way I did; perhaps that disarmed me most of all. And then he called. He asked me out. Like I actually believed he’d remember my name and where I worked and in which department he could find me. He did. “Yes, sure, why not?” I replied when he asked if I’d like dinner Friday night. No, I don’t want dinner with Jackson Brandt Friday night. I couldn’t imagine what we’d find to talk about, and I had nervous jitters four days before. However, the date was made and I couldn’t back out without looking like an i***t. The date… I had a house in the hills overlooking LA – cute but unassuming, and all I could afford on my salary. It was hardly the neighborhood where you’d expect to find a classy black Mercedes limo. He brought me flowers, peonies. Who heard of peonies in LA? They are huge fuchsia-colored blooms that smell like roses. “I should put them in water,” I said, and I rushed away without actually inviting him inside. “Yes, do that,” he agreed. I turned to find that he followed me inside and was casually reviewing my modest house. “1920’s, I’ll bet.” He noted the Craftsman style, which I carefully tried to preserve. “It’s a work in progress,” I told him. “Renovations don’t come cheap.” No, Rachel, no reason to feel defensive, I kept telling myself. “No, but you’re doing a beautiful job.” He observed the stained glass and the original wood that I had painstakingly refinished, then whipped around suddenly, seeing that I’d stuffed the beautiful peonies in a crystal vase and placed it on the center of my dining room table. “They look perfect there, don’t you think?” “Absolutely.” I was practically beaming. “We should go now, reservations are for eight.” “Yes, right.” I grabbed my wrap, which I wouldn’t need, though it would make me less self-conscious having it handy. I got daring when he named the restaurant in downtown LA. The dress was stylishly black with a plunging neckline. I’d bought it the year before when I thought I was going to a movie premiere in Hollywood. I got sick and had to back out, so the dress had been hanging lonely in my closet ever since. As soon as Jackson’s eyes finally found my jiggling breasts, I got nervous. I was sure the dress was perfect for the occasion, at the same time hoped that it didn’t communicate too much to Jackson Brandt. It was a date, just one measly date. I was no starlet quality. I didn’t care to be. Although I wasn’t a dowdy spinster either. I am a fit 5 feet 6 inches, with nice, rounded breasts and shapely hips and legs. Nothing to be embarrassed about there. But I couldn’t imagine that I was right for Jackson Brandt, or he for me. As I left my house on his arm, I couldn’t wait until the date was over and I’d be home again, safe in my own bed. Jackson covered my hand when I casually laid it on the table and he looked sincerely into my eyes, smiling. I was immediately self-conscious and uncomfortable. My hand was clammy and cold and I wanted to draw it back. Even worse than that, his eyes pierced right through my defenses and I squirmed uneasily, alarmed by the way he seemed to throw me off-balance. “Enjoying the scallops?” he asked. “Love them.” I smiled back. “But then I expected they’d be perfect,” I added with a haughty twist, quite unlike me. “I mean, the last time I was here they were a little overcooked,” I playfully quipped. As if this was a place where I’d frequently dined! He got the joke immediately and laughed. I’d pulled it off with some aplomb, and felt a little confidence muster in my nerve weary body.
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