HER RIGHTFUL ALPHA

CHAPTER V

(DARK PAST)

RYDER’S POV

“YOU are a monster! Someone like you shouldn’t have been born. Just why, why did I have to give birth to a monster? Why does it have to be me?”

“Mom, please, I didn’t mean---”

“Shut up! Do not say a word and never approach me with those eyes and your cries. The look on your face and the very being that is you! You are not my son, you are a monster, a monster that should be killed and left for good for the sake of my sanity and everyone else's! Right, I should have killed you then for this pack to be safe from a monster like you.”

Stun, wide eyes, and shivering from heartache, betrayal, disappointment, and cruelty. All I could do, that young little boy of seven is to cry. Beg for the tiniest affection that anyone could give him. Plead for their hand to spare him some bread of love, but they never did. My mind and heart are constantly being fed by those words. Instill in me the facts that I couldn’t understand and no one would even dare to explain to me even for a thing and a tiny one and two.

The curse that they call me. The darkness and being the monster that I am. My life, my existence and everything that is me is the only thing that is this world’s biggest omen that should be plucked, killed, and be done in a swift. The black sheep of the family that for the past three years, I have been condemned to suffer with their cold stares, indifference, and abuse. The once loving and warm family that I knew and grew up with now was gone. Now I am left with the cruel title and where everyone is looking at me worse than a cold stare, but a frightened one like I am a true monster.

“Anyone, someone helps me! Help me, help me, please! Take that monster away, save me from that devil!”

The pleading, the beg, and the hysteria that I witness are front and center. My mother’s words that bares and insist in me and deep within my mind that I am someone that everyone should be wary about. The words that in that very moment, become my greatest nightmare.

“Take that child away!”

“Yes, Alpha.”

I was helpless, and weak and can do nothing, but stare blankly at my known mother. Her cries, her screams, her words, and her finger pointing at me are my curse. My title and the life that I will be enduring and waking up into until the day that I died. I wanted to ask someone, desperately wanted to have the answers to my questions of why, how, and when. Why am I a monster? How did my wolf manifest earlier than normal? And when will this nightmare end? Will I be able to see everyone’s smiles and receive their hugs and warmth? Or I’ll be forever trapped in this cage, guilty, and should be repenting for being born into this world?

“You stay here and do not even think of trying to call, beg or scream!”

They throw me back to my room. My once warm room with my mother’s presence and father’s protection now becomes nothing but cold curses and my title as a monster.

“Will it be alright for us to treat the young master like this?”

“You heard the Alpha. We should be strict with him and make sure that he wouldn’t get out of this room. You saw how Luna is acting whenever she sees the young master. He is branded as this pack’s monster. Just who are we to break the Alpha’s command?”

“But isn’t this a bit cruel? The young master is once adored and pleased by the Luna and Alpha, but when his wolf manifest and unlike any other, everything changes.”

“Just who wouldn’t? You saw everything that happened that night. The young master’s wolf is not something that came from this world, it is a monster, a devil who thirsts for blood and death. The young master should just be contented and thankful that the Alpha didn’t dispose of him and branded him a rogue. The young master is still lucky to be able to live here with the pack, even though he needed to be locked in his room.”

The servants, guards, and even the butler's gossip. Words and their thought for the fate and the life that I am leading right now. My life is without anything and only revolves around nothing. Their thoughts were fact, all correct, and could never be a lie about me and my birth. Those facts that I could hear easily unlike my peers. Making it clear and a fact that I am indeed a monster.

“I am a monster.”

‘YOU ARE NOT A MONSTER. YOU ARE NOT THE MONSTER.’

“You! You are?”

‘WHO ELSE COULD I BE, BUT YOUR WOLF?’

The voice, the wolf, and the subconscious that I have been hearing ever since that day. My wolf and so what it is, he is claiming and introduces to me.

“If you are my wolf, then you are the reason why I am called the monster. Even my mother wouldn’t look at me like in the past and all because of you?”

‘I AM NOT A MONSTER AND SO ARE YOU. YOU SHOULDN’T BE LISTENING TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE ALL BLIND TO WHAT YOU CAN DO, WHAT YOU CAN BE, AND HOW POWERFUL YOU ARE.’

“Powerful? Am I that one?”

‘YOU ARE BORN ONE AND WILL ALWAYS BE. YOU ARE NOT THE MONSTER, BUT THEY ARE. THE REAL MONSTER AND A CURSE ARE THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE TREATING YOU WITHOUT ANY IDEA WHAT IS IMPORTANT AND NOT. THEY ARE THE TRUE MONSTERS WHO ARE POINTING THEIR FINGERS TOWARD YOU. THE CURSE ONE THAT YOU SHOULD RESENT.’

“Resentment. I do not want something like that. I do not want to hurt anyone.”

Words and my innocence still insist on me deep down. The fact and the thing that I couldn’t do and will never do. To hate just because I am hated. To inflict the same pain just because they cause me to have such. I do not want anything of that, for I only wish for their acceptance and the love that once showered me.

‘DO NOT BE A FOOL AND BE FOOLED BY THEM. YOU WILL NEVER HAVE THE PAST THAT THEY ALREADY THREW AWAY. THEY WILL NEVER ACCEPT YOU AND SOMEONE THAT THEY BRANDED AS A CURSE.’

“No.”

I wanted to protest and hard, yet I ended up weakly replying to those words and those thoughts. Somewhat given up easily by those mere words, yet who am I to find any courage and a strong heart for such a young age? I am fragile and very much in any way. I am a mere bud that is not even blooming and everyone already cut the ways for me to bloom. Now, all that’s left is this pain and hope that at the last seconds is drifting away from me.

“Tell me what should I do?”

‘SIMPLE, AND VERY EASY. LET ME TAKE OVER AND JUST WATCH EVERYTHING FROM THE FRONT SEAT. I SHALL MAKE EVERYTHING EASY FOR YOU. I WILL TEACH EVERYONE A LESSON THAT THEY WILL NEVER FORGET, NOR THEY WILL EVER HAVE THE TIME TO CONTEMPLATE ABOUT.’

“Alright.”

My decision, and that innocent agreement of what I thought it is. Is something that I never imagine will bring me deeper into the corner where I shouldn’t be dwelling. The time that I nod and gave in to something that I didn’t fully understand what it means. Brought me to have the unforgiving sin and regret that turn my emotions and affection into nothing more, but the desire to survive, and for my sole survival.

“MONSTER!”

“Help! Someone, help us!”

The cries, the begging, and the bloody-colored moon of that night. I saw everything, first, front and center. I am in my wolf form, but I am not in control of my body. I could hear my growls and the thirst for blood and the lust to see death and corpses. Everyone in the mansion is screaming, running, and defending themselves, but to no avail.

The omegas are a piece of cake, with their wolf form that is two times my height, yet they couldn’t do anything but fall and die. My fangs are now dripping with their blood. The smell of fresh flesh and life is imminent. The atmosphere is now dark and suffocating, yet I am loving every inch and piece of it. My bones are cracking and my neck is torn and snapping from my bite and brute strength. The screams are never-ending, and each minute one will fall dead and oozing with scarlet blood.

“Is this me?”

‘YES, THIS IS US.’

I immediately ask, surprised, but not frightened of what I am seeing from the mirror that I happen to pass by and captured my attention. My wolf with its red pair of eyes, black fur, sharp fangs, and deadly claws is indeed a monster, not a devil.

“We should stop. I do not want this anymore. I hated the feeling, so, let’s stop.”

‘WHY? WE ARE ONLY STARTING. BESIDES, WE STILL HAVEN’T REACHED THE ONES THAT SHOULD BE PUNISHED MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE.’

“Who are you---”

‘I APOLOGIZE, BUT YOU SHOULDN’T KNOW,’

Suddenly I felt drowsy and, in a few seconds, everything went dark and blank. I couldn’t hear nor see anything but be left in peace for I do not know how long. Just then.

“HELP! SOMEONE HELP US! NO!”

“SPARE OUR LIVES! WE WILL NEVER GOING TO THREATEN YOU BADLY. WE WILL DO EVERYTHING OF WHAT YOU WILL ASK OF US. SO, SPARE OUR LIVES.”

“HELP US!”

“Mother, father!”

I screamed, jolting awake from the nightmare that I just went through. But.

“Mom, Dad?”

Eyes wide and trembling all over. I lift my hands and look at it and then towards the mirror beside me. My hands, my face, and my body are full of blood and smell of their blood. I could taste it in my mouth and now felt it under my feet. I’m naked and just shifted back to my human form, and the first sight that I witness, I need to witness. Are the mutilated body of my mother and father’s corpses.

Scarlet red blood from their dead bodies is painting the white marble floor of the master bedroom. The sheets and blankets are tattered into pieces. The furniture is broken and everything is a mess. A fight and a struggle happened. But in the end, everyone died, and I am the culprit.

‘WHAT CAN YOU SAY NOW? ISN’T IT SO EXCITING TO WITNESS AND SEE THE AFTERMATH OF YOUR ABILITY? YOUR WOLF, THIS POWER, AND WHAT I AM IS YOU. SO, YOU DO NOT NEED TO BE SCARED NOR THINK TO YOURSELF OF BEING A MONSTER. FOR THE TRUE MONSTERS ARE NOW GONE. YOU ARE NOW FREE.’

“STOP!”

I jolted up and awake, gasping for air and heavily after the nightmare that’s been plaguing me of my past. My sin, my curse, and the blood that I spilled onto the ground earned me the title that neither I enjoy nor I am celebrating.

“What’s the matter? Did you have the same nightmare?”

“Did I wake you up?”

“A bit, but I am more than concerned about you.”

Arms wrap around my waist, then travels to the crevices of my abs and my neck, with those soft and cold hands that are now touching my face. Sophia’s eyes that is neither cold nor warm, her skin that is smooth, porcelain white, and I am very known for every bit and corner. Her reddish-brown hair and pair of eyes, her lips that have been there with me to comfort me every night just like this, but to her perfect body. Her ambitious character, the woman that everyone wanted to be my Luna. Her comfort and being the person that strings are nothing more, but our little hot and nightly play. I couldn’t, no, I will never see her to be my Luna.

“Plague again by that certain dream? Do you want me to comfort you? Shall we get to another round? I rested quite enough?”

She kissed my lips and I replied with the same sentiment. She closes her eyes, but I never did to mine. Our kiss, that kiss that might be passionate to anyone’s eyes, but only a façade for me. The comfort that I am looking and playing with her body that she loves, is only a fleeting moment that I can spare to fall asleep. No passion, nor anything towards her. I am a jerk for playing with her body, but we both know that this is only a game of fire without anything attached.

“Tsk!”

I smirk, pulling her close to me with my arm wrapped around her slim waist. I borrow my face to her breast for a moment, while tracing her curves with my other hand. I started to play with her soft and big breasts. Putting the same attention to both and giving her shivers with my touch and kisses. I traveled my hand down between her thighs and rub my fingers to her c*** and p****. She moans and loud while grabbing my head as I trace my kisses up to her neck and shut her up with my empty kisses. I inserted two fingers inside her, which makes her moan and beg for more.

“I can’t wait any longer, give it to me?”

“What do you mean?”

I played a bit, making her upset, but she knew how we do things and play with each other’s bodies. She smiles lustfully. Her expression never arouses me to the point of what I wanted and is seeking. But it was enough to get by and play along, then have the nightmare of the past.

“Your rock hard and long c***, I need it inside of me. I need it right now.”

“Tsk! Very well said.”

With a smirk or two, I position myself inside her entrance, and tease a bit by robbing my c*** to the entrance of her p****. Making her whine in protest, I laugh for a few seconds and put the tip to her entrance. She smiles wide with lust, while I am in-depth with the thoughts of when will I ever---

“Your curse and your life. The demon that you are and an Alpha without a future. All you need to do is find that perfect Luna. The Luna with the same tragedy as you. When that time comes, all of the people that you killed will forgive you.”

“JUST GET OUT! I CURSE YOU AND EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU! I REGRET EVER MEETING YOU. I REGRET EVEN FALLING FOR A MONSTER LIKE YOU!”

“Let’s end it here.”

Suddenly plagued with the unclear answer of my curse, and the past that is more than my nightmares. But the thing that I will regret and will never forgive myself as long as I live. I stop, leaving Sophia hanging and unsatisfied. She wanted to protest and somehow comfort me, yet, I do not care for a thing at that moment.

“Get out.”

My words and command that no one could defy. Firm and angered by the past and the memories that are plaguing me from time to time. I ended up hearing my door slams close. Alone and couldn’t get back to sleep, I look at my hands tainted with the thousands of lives that I have killed in the past. The scarlet blood of the people who I betray and the survivors that are cursing me to the core.

“Damn life! I f******, wanted to end this.”

Curses that I can only say in secret. My life, my wolf, and the curse of being a half-demon. The destiny that I couldn’t run away from, and the cure that I desperately needed more than anything.

“If you want to get away from your curse and live without the insatiable hunger for death and blood. Then, you should find the person with whom the moon goddess blessed. The one with the same fate and a bit of revenge. The one that your wolf will know that moment that you cross paths with her. You Luna.”



“I FINALLY FOUND YOU. THE ANSWER TO MY CURSE. NOW, WHO ARE YOU FROM THE TWINS OF ALPHA REED?”