chapter 2
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Whitney
Two days.
That’s how long it took for my heartbreaking, settling into something quieter and uglier. I don't know what hurt the most. The way he had accused me of being insecure and paranoid whenever I brought up that something had shifted in our relationship. Or the thought that he cheated for more than a year. At the same time blaming me for everything that went wrong. If he had stopped loving me why didn't he tell me. Why did he have to betray me like that. A wife and a small baby.
I applauded him—silently, bitterly. A whole wife and a child, and I hadn’t found out. I shook my head at my own naivety. I was stupid. A fool. He had turned me into a joke without even breaking a sweat. And the worst part? I had played along. How could I not have seen it? How could I have been so blind, so eager to believe every half-baked excuse, every rushed explanation, every “I’m busy, Whit”?
The shame curled in my stomach like poison. I replayed conversations where the signs were right there in front of me—glinting, obvious, mocking—and I had smiled through them. I had defended him to my friends. I had defended him to myself. I had argued with my own instincts and lost. What kind of woman did that make me?
The self-loathing sat heavy on my chest. I wasn’t just angry at him; I was furious with myself. I hated that I still loved the man who had shredded my dignity. I hated that I still cared about answers I would never get. I hated that part of me kept wondering what I had done wrong—what I lacked—what I wasn’t enough of.
And then there was Ona. I didn’t even know what to think of her. I had no comment left for the woman who played the role I once dreamt of. Maybe she was a villain, maybe she was a victim, maybe she was just smarter than me. Either way, she got the ring, the child, the life I had believed was being built for me. She got the version of Derek he chose to present—while I got the scraps and the lies.
The realization made my throat tighten. I wasn’t just mourning him—I was mourning the girl who believed in the fairytale he sold her.
I didn’t leave the apartment. Couldn't shower. Couldn't even eat. I lay on the couch not bothering that the lights were off when night fell replaying pictures in my mind I wanted to burn out of existence. Derek holding a baby, his baby. Opening a car door for his wife. The way he had chosen her, Ona in front of me. The way he had looked at me like something not worthy. The way he had pushed me out of his yard, locking me outside in the rain.
By day two I stopped crying. Grief dried into something stiff and brittle. I thought that was the worst of it. What else could top the way he had embarassed me at the shopping mall.Or the way he had thrown away five years of my life.
But girl oh girl was wrong.
On the third early morning, I dragged myself off the couch, took a long shower, and headed to campus for clearance. Graduation was looming, and life doesn’t wait for people with broken hearts to heal. Deadlines, signatures, fees—everything continued moving as if my world hadn’t collapsed.
By midday, I walked back into my apartment with my clearance forms neatly stamped and final. Everything was in order. No more classes. No more excuses to linger on campus. No more routine to distract me from the gaping wound Derek had left behind.
I dropped the paperwork on the table and threw myself onto the couch. For a moment, I felt the smallest flicker of relief. Maybe I was past the worst of it. Maybe the tears had finally run dry. Maybe I had survived—at least enough to keep breathing.
But survival doesn’t feel like victory. It feels like existing in a body that isn’t yours, watching yourself pretend to function while your heart limps behind, bruised and confused.
The knock came the next day in the afternoon—three sharp raps, loud enough to make my chest leap. I had moved my grieving self to the bedroom, isolating myself with my thoughts and half-formed regrets. I glanced at the bedside clock. 3:14 p.m. Too early for friends. Too late for deliveries.
My pulse quickened. A ridiculous part of me wondered if he had come to apologize. To explain. To say something that would undo the humiliation and the silence. The fantasy was pathetic, but pain made pathetic look reasonable.
I hesitated at the door, wiped my face with my sleeve, and opened it.
Uniforms. Three of them.
“Whitney Knowles?” the woman in front asked.
“Y—yes.”
“We have a warrant to search the premises.” The woman said flashing her badge.
My stomach dropped so violently I thought I would vomit. “Search? For what? You must—there must be some mistake.”
They didn’t answer. They didn’t have to. They pushed past me and started opening cupboards, drawers, shelves, even the bathroom cabinet under the sink.
I stood frozen, heart rattling against ribs. “What is this about?” I asked again, voice hollow.
They didn’t stop until one of them opened the small cupboard in the lounge—one I barely used except to shove old magazines into. He crouched, pulled out a small brick of sealed packets.
It didn’t take a genius to know what it was.
My brain flickered between shock and disbelief so fast it felt like overheating. “That’s not mine,” I whispered.
The officers exchanged glances. The woman with the warrant looked almost bored by my panic. “Whitney Knowles, you are under arrest for possession of illegal substances.”
My ears buzzed. I shook my head so violently my vision blurred. “No—no, you don’t understand, that’s not mine. I would never— I don’t even—” Words tripped and fell over themselves.
I didn’t touch drugs. I didn’t even like cough syrup.
They pulled my hands behind my back. Cold metal kissed my wrists and something inside me snapped.
“I need to call someone,” I said, breath trembling. “You can’t do this. You don’t understand—”
But I did. Oh God, I did.
Only one person had keys to my apartment.
Only one person knew where I kept the spare in the vase by the door.
Only one person would have access to such filth. Only one person had promised me payback.
Derek.
His name was a punch to the ribs. Hard. Unforgiving.
He promised he would make me pay.
He wasn’t talking about the car.
They marched me out of the apartment building. Neighbors peeked through blinds and door cracks, watching like they were owed entertainment. Shame burned hot across my skin. Every step felt like sinking.
At the police van door I turned, wild, desperate. “This is a mistake. Someone put those there. I swear—someone planted them.”
But no one cared. Why would they? I didn’t look like a woman betrayed. I looked like a woman caught.
The doors slammed shut and darkness swallowed me whole.
In that moment, heartbreak didn’t hurt anymore.
Betrayal did.
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