Alexandra “What are you doing?” ask, trying to look over my back when he begins untying the ribbon. “Trying to save you from fighting with this. Or tearing the cloth, wait. “ I pause and feel his movements as he gently and patiently unites the cloth. “I can do it myself. “ I mutter and he laughs quietly. For some reason, this feels so intimate I have to step away from him before my mind starts racing again. Nathaniel pulls the delicate cloth and the ribbon falls apart, thus opening the back of my dress. “There, “ he says quietly but does not step away. I have to stop this. I have to thank him or tell him to go wherever he wants and be done with it. But I remain where I am, trying to breathe normally. Nathaniel doesn’t move for a brief second, I feel he is still holding th

