reflection of me

my drug

the crib

i had gang nem ova at the crib chilling smoking, sipping, and playing 2k, just a cool ass day for all of us we needed it. i got my money back and we took 50 kilos from that lying ass nigga. april and london were on the beanbag cuddling i don't know why they always doing that gay s**t. 

"ayo bre having a party and kickback tonight we gots to slide", kemo said. "who is bre?", london said. "some shorty ion even know her like that", he replied. heading to this party would be nice i haven't been to one in a while. "let's go girl it might be lit", april said. "AHHH HELL NAW", pap yelled, "cheating ass game". "naaah nigga gimme my money". i said. he gave it to me "p***y"

"word though lets slide", i said "everybody too, get that s**t hot". "you ain't getting nothing hot", april said. i sucked my teeth "like i said".  "bet everybody slide through and already know, scraped.", spazz said. 

*april pov*

later that night 

i was on my last piece of hair to flat iron "baee why you not getting ready?", i asked looking at shawn still sitting on his bed with basketball shorts on and no shirt. "ian feeling good", he replied. "what's wrong with my lil bookie butt", i said. "if you don't shut that s**t up girl", i laughed and closed the door putting on my outfit "nigga get ready!",  i yelled. 

i looked in the mirror i looked bomb ass f**k .  

i opened the door and waited for shawn to look at me. he looked and turned his head "ima act like ian even just see that", he said. "see what?", i asked. "you don't like it?". "bro stop f*****g playing with me, take that s**t off", he replied. "what you bugging for?  just come with me since you feeling like that", i said and put on my shoes "ian going no where you not either with that on, who f**k attention you tryna catch?", he said. 

i didn't give a f**k about what he was saying he was either coming or not i know i was going with this on no matter what he had to say. i rolled my eyes and start rolling a blunt for on the way. "shawn just shut the f**k up and come." he chuckled, "you think i'm playing with you, my girl ain't going no where looking like a hoe. i looked at him, he be getting out of pocket "i didn't mean it like that", he said. 

i grabbed my purse and and headed for the door "where you think you going?", he asked standing up. "find a nigga to f**k at the party since i'm a hoe", i said. when i'm mad i be saying stupid s**t that we both know i don't mean. 

i snatched my jacket and walked out the door but he grabbed my hair tight as f**k, so tight that i had to punch this nigga in his head. he grabbed me by my throat and pushed me against the wall "i'll kill any f**k nigga you let put they d**k in you, word to my mother don't try me april", he said squeezing my throat tighter. he let me go and i grabbed my throat catching my breath.

i was tight!! like always, little petty s**t turns to something it shouldn't have been. my face was red and i wanted to kill this nigga! i punched him in his face harder than i thought i would. he deadass slapped me yo, hard as f**k. my heart beat went 1000 mph... he looked at me just as shocked as i was, we both didn't say anything. 

"baby.. i'm so sorry i didn't mean for that to happen", he said walking towards me. i start swinging everywhere on this nigga while crying. "i'm sorry april!", he yelled grabbing my hands with a tight ass grip, i kneed him in his d**k and he fell on the ground and i start punching him in his head but he rolled me over and pinned me down. 

"april baby please, forgive me", he said. i was still shedding tears "shawn get your f*****g hands off of me!", i said. he just stared at me and got up and i got up and walked away, i was done! i don't know what the f**k this nigga had going on his head but i wasn't dealing with it anymore. 

he stood in front of the door "april you not going no where, i let my temper get the best of me shorty you know that ain't me. it won't happen again!", he said. i wiped my face which was hot as f**k and looked in the mirror and started crying again my s**t was a little swole and red and pink. 

"i'm done with you shawn! i can't do this with you anymore you went to f*****g far!", i said. "it was a mistake!  we can't throw all of what we have away over a mistake. april you not leaving me!", he said trying to hug me. i slapped him with all i had in me i really hated him now mostly because i was hurt. "i said keep your hands off of me!", i yelled. "april no!, we not done. i'm not letting us end", he said. "why the f**k would i stay?", i asked. "you just slapped the f**k out of me shawn you know how bad that hurts me". "because i love you! and you love me!  it won't happen again", he whined. 

i tried to leave again but he grabbed me and hugged me and start kissing everywhere on me. "baby please", he said. i pushed him "shawn stop!", i whined. he wouldn't stop for s**t though, "i'm sorry", he said kissing on my neck. i start giving in, his kisses his kisses were like hitting a blunt. he was my drug and i knew i wouldn't stop loving him even if i tried. 

he laid me on the bed and pulled my shoes off and stared at my body "how you take this s**t off?", he asked. i laughed and rolled over "untie it". he untied my shirt and kissed down my back ripping my panties off with his teeth.