reflection of me

the love is real

*april's POV*

"why you just telling me this april?! i feel so betrayed", london said frowning. i had just told my mom and bestfriend about me losing my virginity. my mother was in total shock. 

"why him april?", she asked. "i've never had this feeling for a guy before, ever and he really loves me and he's real and just ughh", i replied. "so that means give him your virginity? a guy will say anything to take that precious thing from you.", my mother said. 

i felt her 100%, that was s**t i already knew. i trusted shawn though and that's something i barely do, trust people. 

"ma, i understand that but trust me, the love is real so why not",i said. "so how was it? ", london asked "giirrrrll", i replied. "london shutup", my mom said. "baby, sometimes we have these thoughts that makes us think what we feel is actually true. you've only known him for two months. how could you know how your feelings truly are? i just don't want you to regret this in the end" i rolled my eyes i did not want to hear that. 

"well it's gone now and i can't get it back. and i thought you liked him!", i said. "she likes every boy you talk to", london said. true, i was getting irritated from this conversation and didn't even wanna talk about it anymore. "i do i do i'm just scared for your feelings because boys will do anything to get what they want and just leave you like a pair of old undies", she said. london bust out laughing "who says undies?"

"okay ma dead the conversation, london let's go ma i love you", i said kissing her cheek. "i love you too baby, be safe."

we left and got into my car. "so we gotta pull up to do", i said. i found out leahs address and this hoe got to feel me. "b***h whoooo? lets goo", london said. i started the car and typed her address in the GPS. "so leah is shawns ex hoe i guess and she came to my job throwing mad shade. talking about she miss his d**k and she banging his line today.", i explained to her. "and you didn't slap a hoe?",she asked. "please, not a soul going to stop them checks from coming in" "period!", she said. 

we got there in 15 minutes. i parked the car and put shawns 40 in my pants, i would've brought mine but his was prettier plus it was only for protection, s**t might get ugly. 

"aight london you get the back i get the front, i want you to let all ya anger on that door like that b***h spit on you or something", i said. "we going to kick her doors in?", she asked. "yes, handcuff that b***h, beat oner a little and leave her". i said. "straight like that", she replied. "shii straight like that", i said smiling. "aight, 4 nem" we bust out laughing. 

i walked to the house and london ran to the back. i kicked the door in hard as i could "f**k!", i almost screamed. i hopped on one leg "s**t!". london walked in "f**k wrong with you?", she asked. "nothing", i replied standing up straight "lets go". we crept up the steps and walked through the hallways into her room. she was sleep with a nigga laying beside her sleep. "hoes", i thought". 

i ran up to her and put the gun to her head while london did the same. "wake the f**k up!, and don't move!", i yelled. "kemo?!", london screamed. i looked up and saw kemo ass laying there what the f**k!? leah started screaming, i had to put my focus back on her before she got away. "shut the f**k up!", i yelled. "what the f**k going on!?", kemo yelled. london had her pistol pointed at him, i saw tears running down her face and my heart broke. i wanted to go in that nigga s**t but i let her handle that. "i can't believe you kemo, how could you do this to me?!, turn the f**k over!", she yelled. he turned over and she put him in hand cuffs, and i did leah the same. "i'm sorry london", he said. 

we pushed them beside each other. "london what the f**k is you doing?!", kemo asked. she kicked him in his stomach and he fell over in pain. she grabbed leah by her hair and slapped the f**k out of her. "b***h!, you really cheat on me with this b***h?, this thot kemo? really?", she said. he just held his head down, p***y ass. 

"so what's that s**t you was talking earlier", i asked getting in leahs face. "b***h i'll f**k yo nigga again, anytime i want", she said. i laughed than hit her in the head hard as f**k with the gun. she screamed, and i tore a piece of tape and taped her mouth. "man, what the f**k is yah on!?", kemo yelled. london back handed the taste out of his mouth. "shut the f**k up!", she yelled. i nealed down in front of leah and watched her cry. "repeat that again for me, oh i forgot", i said and ripped the tape off. she screamed "shutup!", i yelled pointing the gun at her stomach. "if i ever catch you in my nigga phone, trying to talk to my nigga, b***h please come to my job again but i don't think you're that stupid though, you going to wish your just mom swallowed yo ass" 

"london i'm sorry baby, i don't know what i was thinking my head ain't been right lately baby i'm sorry i never meant to hurt you", kemo pleaded. i walked over and kicked that nigga dead in his face. "f**k you!, you not even worth the tears", london said wiping her face. "period baby", i said "well leah is everything understood?". she nodded. i walked over to london "you ready?", i asked. "f**k you mean you ready? uncuff me!", kemo yelled. we walked outside "you okay?", i asked. "yeah a nigga cheating not even worth being sad over, obviously he not for me", she replied. "london! april...i'm sorry!", we heard kemo yell. 

*shawns POV* 

i stuck my finger in the white and rubbed it against my gums. "yeah, that's some pure s**t",i said to ernesto. he was a cat i knew from highschool and was in the drug business as well. "i told you my nigga, straight from da islands no one got that s**t down here in the states", ernesto said. "how much for it?", i asked. there had to be a catch. "$50,000 but for this s**t it's double in sales", he replied. "so why the f**k you giving it to me to sell? why not sell your own s**t?" "because i got to get the f**k out of the states and get rid of this s**t the police on my ass yo.", he said hitting a cigarette. "i'm dead broke and $50,000 all i need. you looked out from me way back so this a way we could look out for each other." he had a point s**t, why not look out. i could make $100,000 in 2-3 weeks. "that's a bet",i said. i put $50,000 in the money machine and it was accurate. 

april walked in "hey bae!", she walked to the bathroom. i put the money in a bag and handed it to him. "alright b, be safe out here", i said. "preciate that man good looking out", he replied. he left and i locked the door behind him and sat back down. april came and sat beside me "is that.. crack?", she asked. "what you think?", i replied. "and what the f**k you limping for?" i didn't mean to come at her that way but lately s**t ain't been steady so that cause me to be irritable as f**k. "uhh excuse me lil ugly", she replied. "the f**k is it right there for?" i put it in a bag and zipped it. "about to make some money off it, answer my question.", i said. "had to kick some doors in today" she said rolling a blunt, exactly what i needed. 

i looked at her "stop playing with me". "i'm deadass bae, i had to do a pull up on ya girl", she said. here she go with that my girl s**t. she sat my pistol on the table, this girl dead wild i never knew what to expect but at the same time i loved that about her. she lit the blunt, and inhaled. 

"april what the hell did you do!?", i asked. "nothingg, i just made sure she wouldn't try that s**t again.", she said and sat on my lap. "you didn't miss me?" i took a shot of henny, she was too much. "you wild shorty, and yes i missed you", i said laughing. she passed me the blunt and i took a long ass drag and laid my head back. 

"what's wrong? ", she asked. "s**t just been going south for me lately but this nigga gave me that s**t worth $100,000 so everything straight, i just hate falling off", i said. "you know everything going to be a1 so why even stress about it and you about to make more money, don't let that bring you down baby you know we got this s**t on lock", she replied. i examined her face, she was beautiful and everything i wanted and she kept s**t a band with a nigga. i wouldn't ask for a another shorty. "i love you ma", i said. she got a nigga mad soft "i love you more baby cheer up".

we rolled another blunt and got high as hell. "why you didn't tell me kemo was a snake?", she said. "how he a snake?", i asked. "so we walk in the room she laying with a nigga. after we got the pistols to their heads and s**t we realize it's kemo", she said. "ahhh man, ian know my mans rocked like that", i said. "yup, i know he don't f**k with me no more period you know he had to feel me" "what'd you do?", i asked. "i kicked him in the face". she deadass be doing too much b. i can't have my girl and homie beefing especially over s**t she don't got nothing to do with. 

"you ain't have s**t to do with that", i said. "that's my best friend f**k you mean", she replied. "you ain't have s**t to do with it, that's what the f**k i mean you ain't have no business putting ya hands on that nigga, period" i said. "i didn't put my hands on him, i kicked him", she said. "shut the f**k up you know what the f**k i mean, now i gotta deal with yah beefing and s**t". it's always something b, i need a f*****g vacation. 

"okay you shut the f**k up! it ain't even that deep nigga, the f**k", she said. she mugged my face with her feet "i kicked you now, what you going to do?", she asked. i jumped on top of her and pinned her arms above her head roughly. "ima have yo ass screaming that's what ima do", i replied. 

"oouu daddy, let me see how you going to do that", she said. "you wanna see?", i asked kissing and biting on her lip. i kissed on her neck and down to her stomach as i pulled her pants and panties off. i put my fingers in her and messaged her insides while tongue kissing her. "i love you", i said. "i love you too", she said....