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fogiven but not forgotten

so i guess this is the moment i stop to realise im inlove with the person who ruined my entire life why?

trust me i dont know either but after this realisation hit me i stopped talking to luca none of this was in my mind all i had was me and him thats all

i wake up to some loud noises and peek out of the tent to see luca setting up for dinner and starting a fire to cook our food on wow is it really that late already it feels like i only slept for like 10 minutes and here it is the late afternoon sky the sun slowly fading away and my lazy ass was asleep the whole 4 hours since i came to sit in the tent to figure out more ideas for our shelter and resources

i crawl out of the tent and sit by the fire warming up my hands

"good evening sleeping beauty how do u feel after your nap?"he asks and looks at me i shrug my shoulders and look down at the fire "someone woke up on the wrong side of the tarp i see"he says and giggles i take a coconut bowl and fill it up with some of the filtered clean water and sit back down to drink it

"ok why are you being like this?" he asks and i look at him dead in the eye

"you...ruined...my...entire...LIFE!!!!"i scream at him and throw my water at his face then i tackle him to the ground and he grabs my one arm i punch him as hard as i can with the other he grips my other hand he looks mad as hell like homesidal mad i should probably start running i jump up and run to the trees i can hear his footsteps behind me he's extremely fast as i run a branch from one of the thorn trees cut my face i stand behind a tree catching my breath and everything goes quiet i jump sky high as luca pins me down to the tree his eyes black of anger he looks me in the face and sees the cut his eyes go soft and he looks at it he wipes the blood off of my cheek with his thumb gently

dont fall for it paige i keep telling myself but i cant help but stare into his eyes as the moonlight reflects off of them

he picks me up with no struggle and i cooperate with it he takes me back to the tent and opens the aid kit he takes out the sterilizer and cleans my wound i groan in pain as it burns my skin and face he gently puts a band aid type thing on it then closes up the kit

"i saved your life paige and yea im sorry for hurting you everyday in highschool you dont understand how much i regret it now and i wish i could take it all back but i cant i was young and stupid but even though i bullied you i cared for you too no one else was allowed to touch you or hurt you but me and im so sorry i did that okay its just when you walked into the clasroom on that very first day my heart felt like it was on fire and i instantly fell inlove with you i dont know how and i dont know why but i did and it happened ok and i still cant figgure out why i never stopped loving you and i didnt know if you felt the same back then but i did"he explains and i look at him

"yea well your an asshole and i f*****g wish you would have just left me alone"i say and look at my fingers

"i just told you i love you and still all you care about is what i did wrong not giving me a chance to make it right''he craws around to leave the tent

thats it i grab him by the neck and he looks at me i put my hand on his cheek and pull him on to me i kiss his soft lips hard as he holds himself up hovering above me he flips us around and im on top of him i pull my shirt off and lean back in kissing him i take my shorts and underwear off and sit ontop of him

he flips us again hovering above me i smile into the kiss as he takes his clothes off he kisses my neck softly and then my chest all the way down my stomach he kisses mt thighs and kisses his way up again his lips landing on mine i wrap my legs around him as he starts to move slowly into me my nails digging into his back and our breathing fast my heart races and my toes curl at the sensation and heat waves going over my body pleasure filling me making me moan in his ear biting my lip he breathes harder and faster as he takes himself out and finishes i try to catch my breath when he lays back down and i put my head on his chest closing my eyes

"i love you too luca"i say smiling as i can feel his heartbeat pick up again i give him a kiss and close my eyes

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4 months later

"luca do you know where my comb is that you made for me"i yell out of the room waiting for him to respond he walks in putting stuff on the bed then looks at me

"no baby i have no idea"he says and i look through the room our shelter has turned into a house luca and i built it i even figgured out how to make paint luca build a nice shower that lets water run out and into a drain that pushes it back in the pipe and recycles it

i spot the comb behind our bedside table aka modified treetrunk and take it out i start combing my hair

i feel a burning sensation in my throat and my stomach starts feeling funny i gag and run outside i throw up in to the bushes and wipe my mouth i gag again and throw up a second and a third time before i feel better and go back inside then i drink some fresh water and rinse my mouth that was so weird maby its the heat its been extremely hot today

some survivors traveled to the island a few weeks ago mrs and mr sanches and their son enrique hes about 6 years old and very smart luca,his dad and himself built their place they stay in they help us harvest food and collect fruit everyday mr sanches helps luca build and mrs sanches gathers food and fruit with me enrique pours the water into the filter everyday for drinking and cooking as well as showering they have been making our jobs here much easier and the company is much more entertaining around here we all love to sit around the bond fire and play games or sing songs while we wait for our food to cook

mrs sanches aproaches me and asks me if i am ok "you are so pale and your throwing up did you eat anything that may have caused this"she says and i shake my head to indicate that i didnt she thinks for a second and feels on my stomach

"paige your...pregnant!"she says and hugs me im sorry WHAT THE ACTUAL f**k DID SHE JUST SAY!!

"what how do u know that its not possible i cant be"she looks at me and sighs

"paige i was a ghynocologist before this all happened to the world tryst me i know i can feel it"she leans down and puts her ear against my stomach then looks up at me"theres a heartbeat you are pregnant 100% no doubt about it when last did you have a period"she says and it strikes me the whole time weve been here i only had it once when we got here and that was it but the last 4 months nothing

"4 months ago i"i say to her in shock realizing i could possibly be pregnant and im freaking out luca does not want kids right now it will just make everything more complicated and he is already very stressed

"well...that confirms it paige your pregnant"she says and i walk into the house and start crying in the bed luca wont be home for a while they went fishing for dinner tonight

i feel the blanket lift off of me and its issabelle (mrs sanches)she looks down at me and rubs my back through the blanket

"its all going to be alright he needs to just listen and dont be scared to tell him bringing a child into this world is the bravest and the best thing you will ever do in your entire life okay paige dont be scared of him not wanting it"she says and i her footsteps

"who doesnt want what?"luca says coming in putting the food down on the table

i jump up and wipe my tears"nothing!"i say loudly "i just said i want to sleep a bit my head is hurting" i say and kiss his cheek he nods his head and kisses my head before hugging me tight and walking me back to the bed i get in and close my eyes i feel as the darkness starts to creep in and my eyes shut my breathing steadying as i fall asleep