Chapter 13
999 Words
Emeri
I know, Im not okay. I know there's something wrong inside me that makes my heart feels broken. Drowning in pain and agony.
I feel stupid for thinking that Avery would like me too! Im stupid!
She kissed me and then right away she regreted it?
It was a painful slap of reality.
But i do understand, She's straight and I'm a closet gay.
That is why I didn't wait for the party to be over because after what had happened between us, I lost all the energy and interest to be there. Heck. My parent's didn't bother to ask me about the party because they knew I'm going home early. Gladly, they so believe me that i felt sick.
I don't want anyone to see me crying. I'm a strong woman ans no one could ever put me down aside from Avery. God. I love her still and my body scream for her neither my heart but too bad she doesn't love me the way i do.
Life is not fair..
Maybe Avoiding Avery is the best way to do. She have hurt me once, and i never want to happen again.
It is Monday. My first class is about to start any moment. For God sake I'm not in the mood to talk with my friends or to anyone. And they knew that. Atleast they saved them self away from me.
"Are you okay ? " Elena tried to start a conversation with me.
I looked at her with my famous glared "Yeah."
" Dont look at me like that Emeri, you know that wont work on me. Okay? " Elena chuckled with a shrugged.
Wow! My best friend is really something. She knew me well like i did.
"Don't worry im fine. " I assured her even though i know she doesn't believe me.
Great! I lied to my best friend.
" I know you're not. I'm your best friend Emeri. Don't you trust me? " Elena whispered lowly. But i feel the hurt un her voice. She stopped eating her food while where were here at the cafeteria. It's only me and her our other friends whose are minding their own business.
I dont know. Should i tell her? Will she accept me for being gay? What if not? God im so torn!
" Elena " I whispered. My hands are shaking. " I think I'm...."
"What?" Elena asked with a frown.
I jsut released a sigh and closed my eyes before speaking. "I think I'm bisexual —gay, lesbian.."
At first, my best friend didn't say anything. We are just looking at each other. But then she just laughed hysterically. While I was confused. "Oh my gosh.."
I crossed my arms. "What's funny?"
Elena tried so hard to calm down. "I already know Ice Queen."
My jaw dropped. "W—what?"
Elena composed herself but still smiling. "Nothing is going to change Emeri." She holds my hand. "You are still my best friend—"
"That doesn't answer my question."
"Okay, okay." Elena sighed. "Well, there's no scientific explanation Emeri." She winked at me. "I just feel it."
"And you didn't say anything?" I questioned her.
Elena shrugged. "Who cares? You are still you." I don't know but it makes me emotional. "Besides, we are in 21st century now Emeri. f**k the homophobes!"
My face fell because tears started to pool with tears. I'm just so glad to have a friend like Elena. She is amazing. "Thank you."
"Awe." Elena chuckled with a bumped in my shoulder. "Cheesy ha."
I laughed softly. "Yeah right." But then I saw her came in. Our eyes met and it sent a weird feeling in my stomach. "Let's go."
Elena stood up as well and snake her arms on my waist as walked out the cafeteria.
I could sense that Avery is scared of what I'm going to do with her since she just simply rejected me last night. But no, I won't do anything that will harm her...
Our class is on going and i hate this.. Not because of the teacher or student the heavenly presence of Avery. I just sighed in this torture. But still i can manage until the bell rang.
"Emeri.." An angelic voice speak from behind me that caused me to jump a little.
But I already know who she is. "What do you want?"
It took her awhile to respond. "I'm sorry abou—"
Good thing the class is over and students were already leaving the room. I turned around and face the beauty of universe. "Dont you dare to say sorry again Avery."
How dare she kisse me and now saying she was sorry? Is she f*****g kidding me?
She sighed heavily. "Emeri please let me finish okay?" I looked at her in disbelief. I waved my hand motioned her to continue.
"I'm not saying sorry for kissing you. But sorry if i let you think that i regret it because..." She paused and looked down the floor. "Because I like it too Emeri." And her face turned into crimson red. "Im just confused Emeri. This.. " She pointed her chest where our heart is. "This all new to me. And it hurts me when i see you walking away from me."
I'm more shock.
I can't believe that we feel both the same.
"It's just really hard and confusing.."
I took a deep breath. "Avery.."
"But I can't help it. I dont know why i have to feel like this towards you." She cover her face with her hands.
The feeling in my heart is overwhelming. But more happiness. This is it and there is no holding back. Avery already made way and maybe it is my turn too.
Avery started to cry. "Please say something Emeri, so I would kn—"
I cupped her both cheeks and pressed my lips against her soft and warm lips. "I love you." Avery opened her eyes. "And that's all you need to hear."
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