Resisting The Alpha Wolf

Chapter 4

Two days later, I still couldn't think straight questions plagued me day and night, and as much as I tried to focus on my work I kept circling back to them when I was least expecting it. Was this wolf serious? Could he really want me, a fox as his mate? If so, where did that leave me? A fox couldn't be luna right? These questions and more followed me constantly and it wasn't till halfway through my double shift at the hospital that I was able to finally talk to someone about it.

"Anna hello earth to Anna anyone there?" Jade's words broke through the fog of my mind. Forcing my eyes away from the computer in front of me where I was supposed to be logging patient's charts and info. Looking up our eyes locked, and I could tell by the look on her face she knew something was wrong. Jade had been my best friend since we were kids, we had grown up together and even though she was human, there was no one in this world that I trusted more than her. Jade was my opposite in almost every way where I was 5’4” red-haired, blue-eyed, and shy. Jade had dark chocolate brown hair eyes to match and a kick-ass take and names attitude. She was my rock growing up and the only reason that I was able to get through the worst parts of my life.

“What in the hell is up with you today? You’ve been staring at that same page for the past 10 minutes! Not only that the only thing I’ve been able to get out of you today is one-word answers to anything I ask.” Glaring down at me, her eye narrowed giving me a silent warning that if I didn’t tell her what was up and soon I was in for an ass-kicking.

“I’m fine really, just lost in my own thoughts plus. I’m tired. I haven’t been able to get much sleep the last couple of days. I’ll be fine tomorrow I promise.” looking away, so she wouldn’t see the partial lie.

“That is the biggest load of horse s**t. You’ve tried to feed me in a long time. Now you better tell me what the f**k has you so out of it that your spacing at work. This isn’t you, babe tell me what is bothering you so I can help you fix it. Is it a guy? Did you meet someone?” Jade’s tone and demeanor were nothing short of scary even dressed in her normal Winnie the poo scrub top and pants one would never make the mistake of calling her anything short of scary at that moment.

Glancing around, hoping that none of the patients or anyone else had heard Jade. After a moment I looked back at her hesitant to tell even her about Liam. For fear that the hope I was feeling despite my best efforts to keep it at bay would be squashed by reality the moment I voiced what I was feeling out loud. Once I was sure no one was listening I turned back to jade who was growing more impatient by the second.

“Jade…” Hesitating, I looked away again as I searched for the words, “I found my mate..”

Four hours later our shift at the hospital had ended, and we found ourselves curled up on my couch with four different types of ice cream and 3 different types of alcohol.

“So explain this to me again, you found your mate, he seems to be the second hottest thing to walk the earth after Sam Elliot. You, my lovely not only did you not jump his bones the moment you found out he was your mate but you also told him to reject you now it was never going to happen!? What the hell is wrong with you!?” Jade asked the confusion and anger evident in her voice as she reached for the bottle of vodka.

“He’s a wolf Jade, I told you that.”

“So I would kill to have a mate and not have to worry about all the bullshit dating that we humans have to deal with jump his bones become luna and be the boss b***h I know for a fact that you are. Besides saying no because he's a wolf sounds more like an excuse.” Looking away from Jade, I grabbed the tub of mint chocolate chip ice cream. I didn’t bother replying we had already had this conversation several times over the last couple of hours her pushing me to take the leap of faith and me bringing what happened to my sister Kenna when she found her mate.

Thinking of Kenna again brought tears to my eyes even though it had been two years since it happened the loss of my sister felt raw and painful. My sister Kenna had been four years younger than me, and two years ago I had just graduated from nursing school when she started college. Arriving at college she didn’t believe the stories our parents had told us of how cruel other shifters could be to shifters like us. Two weeks after Kenna had started school she found her mate he was the beta of a nearby bear clan. She called me the next day I told her to be cautious shifters like him didn’t typically go for shifters like us. Angry that I wasn’t showing her the support she needed she told me I was just jealous of her and she would prove me wrong. That night she went out with her mate instead of her mate being everything that she dreamed of her mate helped his clan murder her because how dare a lowly fox ever think she was good enough for a bear shifter. That night I not only lost my sister but my faith that things could ever be different.

Knowing that my thoughts had once again strayed to Kenna Jade spoke up her voice sternly, “Look Anna, I know what your thinking but this is different from what happened with Kenna. What happened is horrible but at some point, you have to accept the past and live with what happened there was nothing you could have done. Just because her mate believed in all that small shifters are beneath them bullshit doesn’t mean Liam is the same way.”

“As much as I want to believe that and that i wish things were different there not. Even if I did what you are suggesting it won't change anything in the long run me mating with an Alpha will do nothing people will still punish us for trying to step out of our station.”

“Your not wrong,” Jade said a now serious look on her face, “but it will change one thing though.”

“And what's that?”

“You’ll be happy and that changes everything.”