Forbidden Loved

15

(Present Time)

Sarah's Pov~

I stood behind Calum, in what I now call 'spirit form', watching him closely.

I somewhat feel like a stalker.

He has been asking me so many questions, if I remember something, if I want something.

I would always reply, but no words were heard.

Which is frustrating.

As I recapped my life story, I noticed how exciting it was. How fun it was, to play on stage, to sing, to write, to laugh, to cry, to yell, to whisper, to be... me.

And now... I really want my life back.

I want to feel Calum's touch again, to kiss him again.

To feel Ashton's continuous hugs, to laugh when Michael attempted to get fit, to feel everything and anything.

I just want it all back.

I want to tell Calum that I still love him, to take him out of his misery.

"Sarah." Calum whispered and I turned my full attention to him. "It's your birthday today. Happy Birthday."

I smiled and thanked him, though he couldn't hear me.

I looked over at Luke, who was staring out of the window mindlessly. When I looked over at the windows, they were foggy.

Hmm, no point looking out a foggy window.

I walked over to them and started wiping the windows, but it got foggy right back again.

"What was that?" I heard Luke say.

"What was what?" Ashton asked.

"The window, it started to clean its self." Luke said, pointing at it.

They saw that?

I wiped the window again.

"There it is again!" He shouted. I did it again and again.

"I don't see anything L-" Michael stopped mid sentence. "Yeah I see it."

"Me too. You think its a ghost?" Calum asked.

"Maybe, lets ask who it is." Ashton replied.

"Hey! Ghost thingie! Whats your name?" Luke asked. I quickly wrote 'Sarah' before any of the letters disappeared.

"Sarah? Whats you last name?" He asked, getting hopeful.

I tried writing it, but the letters disappeared too fast. This is what it looked like.

'Hem'

'Hemmi'

'He'

Eventually, I learn my lesson and split the last name into two parts.

I first wrote, 'put two parts together' before writing 'Hemm' then 'ings'.

"Hemm? ings? Hemmings... SARAH!" Ashton sat a bit confused before realizing who it was.

Jesus, these boys are slow.

"Sarah? Is that really you?" Calum asked, brightening.

I quickly wrote 'yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes!' and they all laughed.

"For how long?" Michael asked.

"Whole time." I wrote.

"Seriously?" Ashton asked.

"Yeppers." I wrote back.

"I have a question." I wrote and they all nodded, motioning for me to continue.

"Whats a cheese that's not yours?" I asked, smiling slightly.

"NACHO CHEESE!" They yelled, laughing.

"I'm sorry I made you cry guys." I wrote.

"I want to come back." I wrote.

"Thats good to hear." Luke smiled.

"Happy Birthday to me! Thnx btw Cal." I wrote cheerfully.

"No problem." He smiled cheekily.

"When did you guys write that song?" I wrote curiously, remembering the time when they sung to me.

"What song?" Luke asked, confused.

Memory loss much.

"Uhhhhhhhhhhh." I wrote, trying to remember some of the lyrics.

"Fail." Ashton laughed and I frowned.

"I've got a friend who's committed to sci-fy. He's read every comic, he's addicted to Twilight." I wrote.

"OOHHHHHHHHHHHH! You mean Daylight? We wrote it in September." Ashton replied.

"Last month Ash, last month." Michael said, shaking his head slightly.

"LOL." I wrote.

"How are my friends/band?" I wrote, curious about it. I mean, without their singer for two months? Pretty bad for them.

Instead of answering, Luke took out his phone and held it out for me to see. Gingerly, I reached out to grab the phone, my hand went through him but connected with the phone.

I pulled it closer and saw my twitter. Looking through the tweets, I saw I had increased in about a bagillion followers in two months, all of them worrying about me, encouraging me, then the boys replying to them.

When I checked my friends' accounts, I saw that they stopped playing in concerts, but were now posting videos on youtube, like we planned to do.

When I check the youtube, I noticed our extremely old videos up, including the FFG one, and I smiled before exiting out and hand Luke back his phone.

"I'm glad their dreams are still going." I wrote before smiling to myself.

"S-Sarah?" Ashton asked and my head snapped towards him, slightly frowning.

"I, I can s-see you." He said shakily.

"Really?" I said, trying it out, but my voice came out as a whisper.

It was still a sound.

"Hey, I can see you too!" Luke exclaimed.

"That's awesome but, but..." I trailed off as I forgot what I was going to say.

"What is happening?" I asked as my mind blanked, before my vision went black.

.

.

.

.

I groaned as I started to come to.

Where am I? I thought as I opened my eyes slightly, to have them pierced by a bright, white light.

I blinked a few times before opening my eyes completely, to see four surprised faces above me.

They look familiar... I thought.

"Sarah? Sarah!" One of the boys above me exclaimed.

"Get offa me." I groaned as I tried to sit up. They quickly scrambled away.

"Sarah! You're awake!" One of the boys, black haired, exclaimed.

"Who's Sarah?" I asked.

Is that me?

"Stop playing around." Another boy, blond, said seriously.

"But I'm not playing around, who's Sarah?" I asked again.

"Oh god..." I heard one mumble under their breath. "Don't say it..."

"And, and who are you guys?" I asked, frowning.