TinxCan: My way

Second part (Can point of view)

Chapter 11 2/4

This chapter in its second and third parts, presents some problems for being much of it, scenes where Tin and Can are separated, but which are important especially when they are thinking or talking to other characters, what I swear is causing me lack of sleep. But I'm going to try it and I'm sure I'm going to have fun like crazy. ; P

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     I can’t hold my soul, I'm lying on the couch and I hope my ideas are clear. I see my mother arrive and she thinks I'm like that because of the game. I know she does not understand me... the threat she makes with the broom is very serious, it would not be the first time. She is capable, but I do not have the energy to move the body.

    “Take Gucci to the car...” that does make me move immediately.

    “By? Are you going to give him away? You cannot do that to him...” I'm about to cry, this would be the last straw. A new nightmare in the face of a week of atrocious events. “He's like a son to me.”

    “Seriously? How is he a son? And why are you one month behind in his vaccine?” s**t if I deserve the blow with the broom. I am a bad father... I sigh deeply as my mother urges me to move. I know she's still talking but all I really hear is the mention of a bus.

    “It's okay I'll get up...” I move slowly but a giant pain in the little toe of my foot stops me. Gucci looks at me as if he shared the pain with me or mocked me, I hope it’s the first since my curses earn another scolding from my mother. I leave limping after being scolded for cursing; I complain because she has not let me release my pain through curses. “Do not worry. It's just going to see the vet. Nothing to be scared of.”  I say to Gucci while I pet him, so he is calm.

    “You stop pampering him. It's just a vaccine.” My sister always bothering does not understand what it is to be afraid of needles.

    “He's scared by the giant syringe they have in the clinic.”  It's not me who will receive it and it also scares me.

    “Seriously?”

    “Gucci, do not be afraid. P'Can will always be by your side.”

    “Silly.” My sister will never understand a boy's love for his dog. The relationship is special and right now Gucci is the only one who understands me. My mother hastens to move us although I mention that she needs more time. At least Gucci is not afraid of cars, the bad thing is that he likes the front. After fighting a little I manage to convince him to move to the back seat, to which he climbs in a quiet way.

    Arriving is where the problems begin, Gucci recognizes the place and runs out to reach the arms of a passerby who was nearby. This caresses him with tenderness and I smiled because at last Gucci has stopped, the race could be worse.

    (A/N: At last, Tin arrives on stage)

“Many thanks for...?”  I say to the stranger until I raise my eyes to see who he is. “Help... Ai ... Gucci! Come here.”  I tell my "son" with tender gestures to see if he moves away from... I see him sit down as comfortable as the one who holds his leash. “Gucci.”  I see that Ai'Tin caresses him and the joy in my “son” for the new friend. “Traitor Dog.”

    He offers me the belt while I sigh, his eyes say everything. I hate to be in front of him, even more after the last time. I see him smile which infuriates me.

    “What are you laughing at?”  He keeps silent with that sarcastic smile, while I look at my "son". “Gucci...” The mentioned has laid on the ground at the feet of my enemy and is a happy dog. I look helplessly at the bastard and grit my teeth. I'm going to need his help so I gesture for him to keep trying to keep quiet. I see my mother and my sister talking at the vet's door, surely they are in doubt about my whereabouts.

    “Can, where were you?”  My mother screams at me without knowing all the headache I have.

    “It's Gucci's fault, Ma. He ran away.”  I say with reluctance, all this has me exhausted.

    “How did P'Tin end up with Gucci's?”  My sister smiles at the mentioned with innocence, she does not know the evil of the world.

    “He ran to me, so I stopped him.”  I see him look at my sister while he responds at the moment, she smiles at him with her whole face.

    “What a coincidence.”

    “I hate that coincidence.”  I say looking at his face, hating, even more, the smile on my sister's lips. What's happening? Do you like him? My stomach churns at the thought.

    “P'Can Why are you so rude? P'Tin helped us.”

    “You've only seen him once and you call it P'?”  I am annoyed about the familiarity with which she treats him. It's that she does not understand that I hate him?  

    “Can, why are you so rude to your friend?”  The scolding hurts, I understand that my mom does not know the reality of the monster that is in front of me. But it hurts more the smile that shows in the look, at the scolding of my mother.

    “Ma!” I complain with reluctance without being able to do anything else since she looks with tenderness at that rascal.  

    “Thanks for helping us.”

    “With pleasure, it seems to like me.” Ai'Tin does not stop looking at my mother, so serious, so polite, nothing about the boy who wants to cause problems to my friends. Look at my Gucci with a tenderness which is quite an act.

    “Can we enter?”  How was it that the guest also ended in that visit to the vet. My sister calls Gucci... although it looks like she's calling the bastard. Arghhhh I want to scream and tell everyone what a liar that hypocrite is in front of us.  

    “Let's go.” I want to give him another punch, I want to kick him, I want to get him completely out of my sight.

    “He seems to like it.” I know I'm grumbling, but I cannot help it between the bastard, the Gucci traitor, my sister making eyes at him first, and my mother scolding me is not to be a very happy day. “What a hypocrite.”

    I have no choice but to enter the clinic reluctantly, I would like to be on the sofa stretched and wait for another day for the vaccine. I watch the doctor prepare the needle and I take a deep breath, my mind is not entirely focused on the traitor Gucci, who is on the bed as if nothing bad had happened, being caressed by Ai'Tin. The room gives a lopsided movement, I mentioned that I hate needles. That this guy has Gucci so calm doesn’t help. The needle disappears after fulfilling its mission and I scratch my head because I don’t have the strength to hold my dog for the first time. I hear the doctor say that everything is ok and I look at Ai'Tin who looks at me in silence, at least he is not making fun of me.   

    Outside, in the waiting room, my mother and sister are happy to see Gucci leave so quiet, I know that the last few times have been difficult for everyone because of how strong my baby is. But it's not that bad either, Ai'Tin carelessly holds the chain of the traitor who turns to where I am and looks at me as if he expected me to give him a prize. My mother and sister continue to celebrate how much Gucci likes the devil who is holding his chain. I am crazy to return to the house and forget the day when I listen to my mother invites the "Bastard" to lunch. Surely this cannot be happening. I look at him and open my eyes waiting for him to say that he is very busy, that he cannot waste time with people like us. I look at him hoping that he would despise my family as he has done with me several times and with my friends. But...

    “Can I?”  Who are you asking! Haaaaa ... This cannot be happening. I look at my mother with a scary face, she does not really understand my look or she is doing the one she does when she does not understand.

    “Sure, dear.” My mother said with a smile on her lips. I cannot take it anymore.

    “But you cannot go with us. Go back to where you belong. Just thinking about having lunch with you... makes me lose my appetite.” I scream I see my sister looking at me with a frown. He looks at me without letting go of the leash and, ironic as it may seem, does not smile or seem annoyed by my words. He is waiting for something. “You're rich, right? What do not you realize? She is only being educated. Oii Ma!” The pull of my ear, I had to know it would come, but I did not think she would do it in public. My mother is tough with her children. This is abuse, I say abuse. “Ma!”

    “Do not listen, dear. He is babbling.”

    “Is alright. Come with us P'Tin.”  My sister's smile makes me sick, she does not realize that he is not even looking at her. Do you really find him attractive?

    “Then, thank you very much.” There is… that diabolical smile and the glitter of problems in his eyes! I feel like the weight of the world falls on my shoulders. Could it be that I can restart the day? I want to curse, the bastard is making fun and I know he's up to something. I want to kick it up to the moon. I watch it keep quiet, it will be a bitter lunch that's for sure.

    “Never imagine that Can would have such a handsome friend.” My mother says as soon as we sit down. On the inside, I wonder if you can only judge a book by its cover to know how rotten it can be.  

    “True? Yes, mom.” Can I start vomiting? My sister making eyes at this bastard who hates me and wants me to die, he is a first-class hypocrite. “I cannot believe that someone like you has a friend like him.” My sister murmurs to me. Believe me, I cannot believe it either, first of all, because he's not my friend.

    “Thank you.”  IN THE SECOND PLACE, HE IS A CONCEITED DEVIL...

    “I want to vomit,” I say in a low voice and without looking anywhere. But it is my desire at this time.  

    “You go to the same school as Can?”  My mother smiles kindly while asking but gave me the angry look for my previous comment.  

    “No, I'm from the international area.”  

    “So. How do you know him?” My sister had to ask and do not know the avalanche of memories that come to my mind, the car that nearly knocked me over, the contemptuous comments constantly, and... the kiss. The feeling of having him stuck to me, to be seeing everything around me with my eyes wide open but without understanding anything, finally the pain in my ass for the push along with the constant confusion from that moment.  

    “Yes Ai'Lay, I want to know too.” Let's see how you will explain to my family your hate feelings. “A rich guy paying 100k baht of tuition per quarter, with a famous last name, eating cheap food. Is your stomach going to endure? This is 40 baht food, not a 4,000 dish like you usually eat.”

    “Silly”

    “Ai...”

    “CAN!” The loud cry of my mother lets me know that I am in deep water and with her look, I know that I am surrounded by sharks. Damn more problems for my side. I feel the face hot with the look, more than angry, she is hurt by my way of acting?  

    “It would be better if you left.”

    “Cantaloupe!” Now I'm in real trouble. My sister jumps and all I have left is to be the boy who complains by the name.

    “No mom! Do not call me with that name.” I look at my side and I see his smile. I'm trapped.

    “Can comes from Cantaloupe?”  His smile irritates me, and his gaze is looking for a punch. He does not understand that it bothers me that he uses my full name.

    “Why? Do you have any problem?”

    “His full name is Cantaloupe and Lay, it comes from lemon.” Is my sister flirting with him? Her smile and the caressing of her hair is nauseating, I understand, but she cannot see that he is a snob with an ego of greatness.

    “In fact, before he liked that name but in school, his friends bothered him.” I must remember not to be so cruel to my children. “So he changed from Cantaloupe to Can. Cantaloupe, right?

    “Cantaloupe.” is like my sister and my mother is the enemy at this table. How I’m going to survive this lunchtime? 

    “Cantaloupe.” I see them laughing at each other and I would like to shout, but even more, I would like to cry because they continue to give ammunition to the real enemy.

    “You are so pretty.”

    “Ma. I'm leaving. I'm not hungry anymore.” Really who would have it after that last line? But even more, I feel a heavyweight in my chest at the smile he throws at my sister and that she answers him. Surely she will be deceived by that hypocritical scoundrel.  

    I walk aimlessly, always walking had taken my negative emotions, but this time I'm still breathing deep waiting for that peace that does not come. In a moment a black car that I recognize immediately stops next to me.

    “Cantaloupe.”

    “Stop calling me that.” he does not understand that it is the name my family uses, he should not be using it.

    “Get on. I will take you.”

    “I do not want.” Are you crazy? This is surely madness. How the hell do you want me to sit in the same car when he knows I hate him? “I can go alone.”

    “Why? Are you still mad at me for the kiss?” Stop smiling, damn it! I'm going to hit you again. I would like to pull him by the hair and erase that smile with blows.  

    “It's not funny...”

    “I'm not laughing.”

    “Why are you kind to me? Make it clear! You want me to help Pete listen to you, right? Listen to me. I WILL NOT DO IT.” I see him get out of the car and his face no longer has a smile.

    “What would you think if I told you to change your mind?” What does it mean?

    “Can someone like you regret it?”

    “My answer is yes.”

    “I do not believe you. Someone who despises others. For me, you are an arrogant loner...” I do not like his silence and his face tells me that I had gone over the line. “OK sorry. I'm being too hard.”

    “You're right. I am arrogant. With no friends. My family ignores me. Did you know? My mom is the second wife, the reason she married my dad because they are both rich, they are perfect for each other. Not like the first wife. Even my name comes from her carelessness. They only chose a name that sounded like my brother Tul's. He is the heir of the family. That's why I do not trust anyone. But I want to trust you.” I see him swallow deep and look at me without even blinking, it's as if my answer is what keeps him standing.

    “Tin ... I'm sorry. I did not mean to be so cruel. But that's how you went with me. I did not think that you had family problems either. Forgive me please for having said hurtful things to you.” I see him at last diverting his eyes and wiping away the tears that had struggled to come out. I do not know what else to say to comfort him. What I said was an attempt to hurt him, but in reality, I thought I could not do it. In seconds his face changes and I look at him with doubt.

    “Did you think what I said was true?” I cannot believe what I'm listening to.

    “What?” I want you to clarify it, maybe I'm a little slow with that relationship but, was it really a lie?

    “I lie and you believed me, what a fool.” He's not smiling but I know he's making fun of me, I grab him by the collar and I want to hit him again. It makes me angry that he does not leave me alone and makes me change my emotions constantly.    

    “You lied to me?” Why is important? I ask myself… is so confusing.  

    “And you were foolish enough to believe me.” I hate him. He does not understand what feelings are and plays with them for his entertainment. I push hard, sending his body away from me.

    “Go away. Do not let me see you again.” I turn around and start walking with more force, I do not want to have him near I want to hit him. But something inside of me also wishes to comfort him. Something inside is very confused by everything that happened. It does not fit clearly but I do not understand what it is. I start to walk more strongly in an attempt to get away from the place. The only sure thing is the weight that has settled on my chest after that talk. There is no doubt that meeting Tin is completely confusing.