She's Just My Ex-Wife

Stay Strong

Fae.

"Are you sure about this, Fae?" said Lyra, my only close friend, after driving me to university because my car broke down and is still at the repair shop. So, I have to rely on Lyra's car for now, while she studies at another university.

"If you're talking about me continuing my studies here, I'm sure."

"But you know you're going to have to face, um... him..." Lyra's face showed concern, which I understood because I knew what she was worried about.

"It's because I know what I'll have to face that I chose to study here and not at the same place as you."

"But I'm worried about you. I'm afraid you'll be heartbroken by that guy again for the second time."

"That won't happen again. I will never shed tears for that cruel, vile man again."

"I'd be very happy if you could really do that, Fae."

"You talk as if you don't trust me, Lyra."

"To be honest, Fae... I know you still love that guy." What Lyra said was true. Even though I never mentioned his name to anyone, I still loved that awful man. The man who caused me so much pain, the man who nearly broke me, the man I can never forget. The past three years haven't helped me forget him at all, even though I should have forgotten him long ago. Forgotten what he did to me without ever feeling guilty.

"I won't let myself be weak anymore." I smiled at Lyra to reassure her.

"I'm cheering you on."

"Mmm."

"I'll go to class now, and I'll pick you up after school."

"Alright, drive safely."

After Lyra drove away, I stood there and took a deep breath, as if to gather my courage. Then, I stepped into the university with determination.

Hi, I'm Fae. I'm 22 years old and a first-year student in the Faculty of Business Administration. You might be wondering why I'm 22 and only just starting my first year when I should actually be in my fourth year. Three years ago, right after I graduated from high school, I didn't continue my studies because I was pregnant. I decided to wait until I had given birth and my children were a bit older before going back to school because I believe you're never too old to learn if you're determined. Over the past three years, I have dedicated myself to raising my children with love, giving everything for both of them. Yes, you read that right... I have two kids, twins, a boy and a girl, who are now three years old and quite playful. The older one is a boy named Khaopan, and his sister is named Khaopaeng. Their father doesn't even know they exist, and I never intended to tell him or ask him to take responsibility, because I don't want him involved with me or the kids. Importantly, I haven't seen him for almost four years now. It's not because I ran away or avoided him so he couldn't find me, but rather because he never came to see me or cared about how I was after we broke up. It's not surprising though, since we broke up. Why would he look for me, right? And I never thought he would try to reconcile because it's impossible for someone like him to apologize to anyone, especially me, whom he just deceived to get what he wanted. Once he got bored, he just... but let's not dwell on those painful memories because now the most important thing is the children. I have been raising both of them alone because I have no parents. My parents passed away several years ago in a plane accident. At that time, I was in my first year of middle school, just 15 years old. I was devastated and wanted to die with them because it felt like I was left alone in this world. I went from having a warm family to being an orphan. Having relatives was like not having any at all because no one cared about me. Everyone just said I was a jinx and didn't want to take me as a burden. Since then, I've been living alone, doing everything by myself. I went from not knowing how to do anything because we had a housekeeper to now being able to do everything myself, whether it's cooking, washing clothes, doing dishes, cleaning the house, or watering the plants. Was it difficult at first? Yes, it was very difficult, going from a 15-year-old who couldn't do anything on her own to now being very comfortable. I have to thank those hardships for making me the strong person I am today.