Into The Darkness

Attraction

Celine POV

It is always uncomfortable to eat in the dining room. They set up a buffet style dinner tonight, and I was forced to come down here. Otherwise, I would be stuck cooking, which I don't do. My daughter Kelsa is next to me but on the other side of her is Remy. He stares at me every time we spend any time in the same room together. I make sure not to look directly at him and to stay focused on someone else. At the moment I am talking to Bella. She is planning some kind of event. I am not really invested enough to know what the event is. As long as I make eye contact, most people supply the majority of a conversation.

I finished my food and head upstairs. Before the elevator doors could close, a hand appeared in between them. Making the elevator doors reopen. Remy stepped into the elevator. Oh no! This isn’t going to go well. I don’t do emotional conversations very well. People always expect more than I can give them. I stepped back against the wall as the elevator doors shut again. Remy was facing me, so it was hard to avoid eye contact. “Don’t you care that the bond is broken?” He asked.

Care? Yes, I care about it. I care that I was set free from a bond that I didn’t really want. I still had some respect for the man. He is the father of my children. He treated me kindly while we were together. So, rather than say anything that might hurt him, I stayed silent. This seemed to upset him more.

“All the years we spent together. Do they really mean so little to you? You can’t even have a conversation with me without running away.” He paused and waited for a response. I tried my best to show none. I just sat there staring at him. He finally broke the pause to ask “did you ever love me?”

I didn’t want to be honest, but maybe I needed to. Maybe he needs closure to move on. “No, Remy. I have never loved you.” I stated in a flat tone. His expression changed, and he looked on the verge of tears. I don’t normally say things to help people in order for them to feel better, but I felt obligated to say something. “I will always respect the time we had. When we mated, I accepted it without any hesitation. I am sorry for your pain, Remy. It isn’t my intention to make you suffer. I just don’t feel the same way you do. I have always been honest with you and never proclaimed love. We were and will still be, if you wish, friends.”

He opened his mouth and shut it a few times. The elevator opened, and I walked around him to leave. I walked to my apartment. I went inside and headed for the window. I let out a deep breath. It is not that I am completely void of emotions. I love my children. I loved my mother and I love Bella. When it comes to men, I have never felt love. The term falling in love is completely foreign to me. I also don’t gossip like other women do about men. I don’t find most men to even be attractive. My first time with a man was done for a spell. It was a fairly unpleasant experience.

Remy never really understood me. He accepted me as I was, but he would always give me a confused look. Sharing a bed with him wasn’t too bad. He always claimed I was stiff sometimes. Or that I seemed cold during intimacy. I know I would not have chosen to be intimate with him without the bond. He always wanted more than I was capable of giving. I did what I could tolerate, which wasn’t really that much. “Maybe I am broken,” I whispered to myself.

“I doubt that” Mr Black's voice came from behind me. I had to hide a smile. I don’t really know why this one affects me so much. I turned around, and he was standing there in his usual attire. He walked towards me and I took a step back. I somehow ended up with my back against the wall, and he stopped just an inch away from touching me. “Sometimes it just depends on who you're with.”

I am not sure if I have ever opened my mouth in shock before. My jaw just reacted on its own. It was almost as if he just read my thoughts. Oh god. I fought the urge to close my eyes and hide from embarrassment. What if he could read them? He didn’t say anything. He just smirked as if my suspicions were correct. That irritated me.

I didn’t want him having the upper hand anymore. “Prove it!” I said. I grabbed his jacket and went onto my tippy-toes, pushing my lips against his. The touch of his lips against mine sent a bolt of electricity through my core. He pulled away, and his stiff mask disappeared into a shocked expression. His eyes lightened into a dark gray. They swirled like smoke.

He wrapped his arm around my waist and brought his lips back to mine. He moved quickly and I matched his pace. I felt a need I didn’t fully understand. I licked his lips with my tongue, and he opened his mouth to give me access. Our tongues frantically danced together.

He lifted me up, and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He carried me over to my table and sat me down. His hand ran up the inside of my thigh, sending a shiver through my body. He left my lips and trailed kisses down my neck. He took some skin between his teeth and sucked. I let out a shaky breath and my head fell back with my eyes closed. He kissed down my shoulder to my chest.

His fingers reached my lace underwear. He rubbed his hand over it, causing me to let out a moan. I raised my hips towards his hand. His other hand reached up and pulled my dress and bra down. Giving him access to my breasts. He kissed his way to my n!pple and took it into his mouth. He grazed my n!pple with his teeth before sucking on it. My hand tangled into his hair. Messing up his perfect comb over.

A knock on the door caused us both to jump. When I opened my eyes, he was gone. My door knob started to turn, and I jumped off my table. I fixed my dress before Bella walked in. Her eyes looked over me with concern. Her expression seemed to intensify from what she saw. It took everything in me to control my breathing. “Caiden just told me about your conversation with Remy. I wanted to check on you.”

I glanced at the mirror on my dresser. My hair is tangled and all over the place. My dress is wrinkled. I looked a complete mess. My hand reached up and made an attempt to fix my hair. “I am fine. Thank you, Bella.” I had a little hope she would leave. Instead, she just walked over and attempted to hug me. I stepped away. “Bella, I really just need some time alone.”

She stopped to study my face. She hesitated but eventually decided to give me space. “I will be in my room if you need to talk.” I nodded and she left. She must have thought I was a mess because of Remy. I walked across the room with shaky legs and fell backwards onto my bed.

Everything that just happened replayed in my mind. My insides feel irritated. I needed a release. I reached down and pulled my dress up. My fingers slid under my underwear and I let out a moan. My fingers move from side to side. Rubbing myself until I found my release. I removed my hand and relaxed onto the bed. I exhaled loudly. “What just happened?” I asked myself.