The love I want

Chapter 3

Hi I said to the phone ,hello good morning how can I help you the lady asked me ,I stood confused and dump founded I had to check if I had called the right person ,and yes it was Arthur I had called ."hello" i could still hear her voice from the end of the line ,I just stood in that same position and froze as the call went mute ,I suddenly felt chills run down my spine ,and I immediately felt the need to throw up ,I was still feeling dizzy at the same time ,I dragged myself to the couch and sat down motionless ,I could not speak or even think about anything ,I just let my tears run free.

For the first time in my life I felt heartbroken,the sound of that ladies voice kept echoing in my head and it still sounded fresh ,each time the memories came back it came with a very sharp pain,I felt like I was stabbed in the chest,I could not breath for a while and my whole world was on a stand still,I felt empty and really hurt .my man has been perfect all my life and the thought of him being with another woman shattered me completely,I finally felt what it was to be jealous ,Arthur had never given me any reason to doubt him or his loyalty to me ,but a lady picking his call made me doubt all the years I a have spent together with this man ,from the time we were married to even days of us dating and having a relationship,who was she was the only question I could summon the courage to ask myself.

There was deafining silence in every corner of the house,if anyone had passed at that moment he will definitely hear my heart beat ,the crickets chrirrping sound annoyed me even more and all I could think of was ,who she was .I ran to the rest room as the urge to throwup became more persistent . I really wanted to be okay ,but I just felt more sick as the moments passed by .I washed my face in the sink after I was done throwing up and went upstairs to my room to have some rest I really needed to lay down at that point .I could not eat anything the whole day as I remained in bed ,I had no strength in me left as I just lay down quietly .my eyes were now swollen from crying myself out the whole day .I just wished it was a dream .evening time had reached and Authur was still yet to call me and I did not also tried calling ,I was scared of what I will find out if anyone other than him answered his call.

All this was strange to me as I never had the slightest the slightest reason to doubt my husband ,prior to now .

We had each others phone passwords ,credit cards and everything of our revolved around each other ,I always had his phone and never had any reason to pick his calls ,and each time his phone rang it was either work or family members. I could not bear and process all these thoughts right now ,I craved his presence and comfort I just wanted to talk to him or even quietly cuddle him and Lay in bed for the rest of the day ,but he was out of reach all these thoughts lingered in my brain as a slowly drifted off and slept.

I woke up the next morning and I felt a strong masculine arm around me ,it was comforting and felt like I knew who it was ,the comfort his presence brought made me sleep even more ,I woke up much later and found the bed empty .I thought I was not alone in this room I said to myself as I dragged myself out of bed .the aroma from the kitchen made me walk straight out of the bedroom and head for the kitchen I just remembered I did not eat anything the whole day yesterday ,I saw someone sitting in the living room before I passed ,but I was not thinking clearly as I just made my way to the kitchen.

When did you get back home I asked Authur ,last night he replied ,I did not want to wake you up as you seemed to be sleeping so peacefully and you looked so calm ,I just freshened up and embraced you while you slept ,I missed you so much my love ,I missed you too is said to him,why were you not answering your phone ,I tried asking as calm as I could ,"I misplaced my phone the night we had an argument ,I felt really bad for shouting at you and hurting you so I went to the bar ,I got drunk and did not know how I misplaced my phone".he tried to explain ,I called you and a woman answered your plhone who was she ,I have no idea who she was ,probably she found the phone and picked it after I misplaced it ,he said to me while looking at me straight in the eyes .I was hurt and angry but seeing this man in front of me just made me forget everything I felt in the last 24 hours .

I embraced him and stayed in his arms .can we try calling again ,she might still be with the phone and you could be able to retrieve it,no there's no need my darling I got another one and blocked the previous line as soon as I got back to town yesterday .what are you cooking I enquired ,your favourite food ,are you real I missed your cooking so much baby ,I can't wait to enjoy my meal.let me introduce you to someone before the food gets ready he said to me as he led me to the living room .