Gone

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he's gone.

When I saw you for the first time, I realized

that not all the stars are in the sky.

might you have fallen in the wrong place,

and if you had relied on that, why would you

have chosen my heart exactly.

You make me feel sad every time I

remember you.

I loved you, so why didn’t you love me?

You could have loved life for me or just

pretended. Is that too much?

But I want to see you...until it goes out,

then I will not see light in anyone else,

so I choose you. I will choose your darkness

as my light.

Let me tell you something.. You were

always my peace of mind when my mind

searched for peace. Where is the peace

now and where are you? I am in the middle

looking for someone to take me very far.

Now you have thrown your sadness on my

shoulders and left me.

I have lost my way.

How can I reach the end now?

Have I moved too far from the beginning?

It does not matter. I just want you back.

It has withered, completely withered,

like the last stiff yellow leaf falling from a

broken branch, at the end of a dull autumn.

Whose fault did I become like this?

What does crying mean?

Tears or screams?

My tears have dried in my eyelids,

my heart has stopped beating,

my blood has stopped flowing,

my mind has stopped thinking,

and time has not moved since my soul was

stolen with them at that time,

but I still feel my insides bleeding.

The veins of my heart were broken and

bleeding.

I feel a tingling sensation in it when

I remember only his features.

flash back

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Under the rain drops, I instinctively used to

walk with my umbrella.

It is something I love to do,

especially late at night.

I love that sound that comes out when those

drops fall around me.

I always thought that I was the only one

who enjoyed it, contemplating it and getting

lost in it, and every time I went out under

this rain, it became more routine.

No. Nothing ever changes, rainy nights

haunt the same streets, until the old

homeless man rubs shoulders with himself

But on this night, while I was taking my

usual walk in the rain, my eyes fell on a

person who was sitting on the fence,

his head bowed low, his hair and wet

clothes. He was not carrying an umbrella

or even a coat to protect him from the cold

weather. Rather, all he was wearing was a

faded shirt and black pants, without me

realizing it. I started to approach him.

Something inside me prompted me to talk

to him. Perhaps the reason was that I was

accustomed to a certain routine in the rain

And now someone came to ruin this routine

and revive my stagnant life.

I stood close to him, and he did not seem to

notice my presence, so I slowly extended

my umbrella over him to protect him from

the rain and alert him to my standing next

to him.

It was not long before the young man

noticed that the rain had obscured him,

so he raised his head to look at the person

next to him. Moments ago, their gazes met,

and the woman standing there felt how

surprised the other was to see her.

His face was completely wet, so she

couldn't tell if it was rainwater or his tears

What are you doing in the rain?

The woman standing asked, but the other

opened his mouth to answer hesitantly

I just like to sit here

You will catch a cold if you stay here. Go home

As soon as she finished her sentence,

the young man’s features shriveled as if he

had heard something that he did not like.

She sighed when she saw his features,

so she repeated the question.

What is your name?

It's none of your business

Direct answer: He straightened up and

wanted to leave

Hey...let me introduce myself to you...

The other hummed,

as if he didn't care, to turn away and give

her his back, but she wasn't going to leave

him alone, not after she saw the extent of

sadness in his eyes and the grief

accompanying the tone of his voice.

With two quick steps, she tried to catch up

with him until she stood next to him and

placed the umbrella over their heads.

Do you want me to accompany you home?

He looked at her, surprised by the interest of

this strange person who knew nothing

about her, not even her name

What do you want?

I want to know what's wrong with you, is there a problem?

No, but you are a stranger and I don't know you

So I am Carla, twenty-four years old, and I live alone in one of these streets. What do you want to know more about?

Why are you telling me this, aren't you afraid that I will steal from you or that I will be a criminal?

You don't seem like a criminal to me, you are a good person, but why are you sad?

The other passed his tongue over his lips

and began wiping the water drops from his

face, ignoring her question

They were walking in the rain,

sharing an umbrella

Two people who did not know each other

met on this rainy night, and one of them

decided to get closer to the other,

whatever the cost, for a reason he himself

did not know.

I felt a desire to offer a helping hand.

Where do you live?

It's none of your business

Come on, don't be mean, I'm not a criminal for behaving like this to me

But you seem like this, especially with your suspicious insistence

They laughed sweetly until they reached the

intersection

I'll go now, bye

Hey where can I find you?

What?

I want to be friends so tell me where I can find you?

He did not answer anything and turned to

walk on his way in the rain,

getting his face wet again

She stood there staring at him

she don't know why she got here in

the first place.

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He arrived at a house that looked luxurious

and beautiful, with a stone wall connected

to an open black iron gate. He entered the

courtyard, then he took out his key as he

approached the house.

He exhaled and started to turn the lock key

to enter and disappear behind that door

On the other side, Carla had arrived at her

small, cold, tidy house. She stood in front of

the door, looking right and left. Her

response made her feel somewhat weak.

where is he?

He then wondered to himself about that old

man who was late to sit down that fence.

He always sat there with his big black coat.

It was sunny, rainy, or even snowy day and

night, as if the feeling of cold and time was

constant. It was strange.But now...it has no

effect

She thought that it was a human being and

not a tree, of course he would move from

his place. She sighed and entered her

house to close the umbrella and change her

clothes.

She lay on her bed and thought. She had

never felt so curious towards someone as

she did if she wanted to know the reason

for his sadness.

in the morning

our hero came out of his cold, lonely house

to meet the sun's rays and reflect their light

on his frowning face, which had recently

left happiness

He no longer smiled or laughed. He no

longer saw life as before.

He became desperate and walked as if he

had lost his soul

He put his hands in his pants pocket and

walked nowhere

After a few minutes of walking, he finally

stopped in front of a food store. He entered

and headed towards the refrigerator to take

a bottle of water and go pay for it.

"Hey, how can I help...!?"

His eyes saw that person in front of him

" You?"

he asked carla standing in her work uniform

, making her laugh happily as she spoke

What a beautiful charity this is...we meet again.”

carla was working part-time at that store

and by chance he met the same person he

was sure he would never meet her again

him: are you tracking me or what?

carla: Tracking you? How could I have predicted that you would be here at this time, since I always work here?

he sighed and put the bottle in front of her

and took the money out of his pocket,

then went out immediately after paying for it

"Slown down"

carla shouted after she took off her work clothes

him: What do you want now?

carla: We are friends now so why are you ignoring me?

him: Yaa.. since when did we become friends?

carla didn't care about his tone and started

walking beside him and following him like a

child

where do you want to go?

won't get in trouble for leaving your job like that

already took permission to go

Then go back, I'm just wasting time

then goes to the farm together

Why are you so interested? You don't know me

yes, I know you.. You are patric

gives birth again and he surrenders to this

childish attachment to him

since you don't know where to go, let me take you to a beautiful place

I don't want to

I'm not asking you

grabbed the other's hand to drag him

behind him, not caring about

objection or resistance

Soon one man surrendered to her

Next to her without resistance, it seems

that he a very stubborn person

"We have arrived"

carla shouted, and the other furrowed his

eyebrows, looking at that place

What are we doing here?

let's play

He blinked several times before he realized

that carla was really inviting him to play in

the amusement park

Are you a kid or what?

carla laughed excitedly as she dragged

followed her to walk between the toys

she is looking for a beautiful toy to share

With a grouchy girlfriend

Come on, look at this...she looks so excited.”

“No way.. I won’t ride in this thing.”

patric denied sharply while carla stood pointing at the fast train of terror

“carla,please ride together, please.”

“You ride alone, I don’t care.”

carla will run away if she kneels and leaves you

am I your prisoner?

They were caught by the sound of the train

stopping, so carla quickly pulled it to fit her

in line before the number of people

standing in it increased

, you are truly an unbearable person

you were the one who said you had nothing to do and I was looking for you

Someone to come here with

They stood waiting in the long line for ten

minutes before it was finally their turn.

They boarded the train next to each other

and in the front car. patric was

uninterested, but carla was filled with

excitement mixed with fear.

The train was full and passengers were

ordered to keep their hands inside the

carriage

He started moving slowly and rising little by little until he reached the sky

carla let out a loud scream after the train

suddenly and quickly descended

Huge patric also dropped his frown and

started screaming while doing so, she

didn't notice that carla was holding his

hand.

And his fear tightens on her

The laughter and screams of two

companions accompanied this tour,

as the tunnel that the train enters is full of

scary things in addition to its insane speed

Time finally passed and the ride ended and

the two got out of the car and carla was still

suffering from that bout of laughter

, stop, you're embarrassing me.

this was fun, I would love to try it again.

As for me, I will leave. It was very boring.

A worker approached them to give them a

photo taken of them while they were riding

the cart, which is a souvenir photo taken for

everyone

carla quickly started laughing again

He looked at her

patric :were you the one who told them to pick it up?

carla: Why would I do something like this?

patric:This is embarrassing. Get rid of it

First get the picture

she sent the other away while hiding it behind her back

carla: Yes, I said it was boring

but why you laugh like a clown

patric opened his eyes and turned away, and

carla quickly followed him

carla:, you look great when you laugh, so why don't you always do that?

Who said I want to be great?

carla put the photo inside his wallet

she put it back in her pocket as she walked

alongside patric. heading towards the exit

After several hours

“how expects me to walk carrying all this.”

patric grumbled as he walked carrying bags full of food

You carry it with your hands, not your feet, so stop complaining

carla with her persistent and persuasive

manner, forced patric to go with her to the

neighboring neighborhood to walk around,

and whenever she saw something she

liked, he would buy it.

"Dammit, did you become a cow to buy all this? How are you going to eat it all?"

patric shouted wearily when he saw carla

standing in front of another store and

turned to him with her usual smile to invite

him in.

They stood in front of the old seller to talk to him

carla happily

“Hello, Mr. Jung, how are you? Are you?”

I can leave these bags with you

So I can come back later and get it?”

patric exhaled in relief when he heard these

words, as his arms became very painful

They left the store after leaving all their

purchases inside so patric could ask where

they were going next

carla smiled at that because patric finally

gave in and got used to it quickly

" It's a surprise"

“That's what you kept saying all day.”

“This time it will be a nice surprise.”

They took a taxi and carla told the drive

r where they were going

“To Soul Tower, please

7:00 pm

Finally, they reached the place leading to the

Sol Tower

"Is this the place?"

patric asked as he looked around but carla

denied and pointed to a faraway place

upstairs

"there "

“This time it will be a nice surprise.”

They took a taxi and Jimin told the driver where they were going

“To Soul Tower, please

7:00 pm

Finally, they reached the place leading to the Sol Tower

"Is this the place?"

patric asked as he looked around but carla denied and pointed to a faraway place upstairs

"there "

sHe was pointing to a manager's tower built

atop a high plateau

you told me that you have never visited this tower

yeah, he doesn't look special

carla smiled at him towards the long stairs

leading to the tower

After minutes of walking, they finally prayed,

panting tiredly

"The view is beautiful from the top. Believe me, you will love it."

My God, carla said, then he went forward to

enter first, followed bypatric . They climbed

the tower to reach the top, and as carla

said, the view greatly impressed patric.

The tower overlooked all the old and

modern neighborhoods of Seoul and its

landscape

He was very elegant and beautiful

“See...it's great.”

patric hummed as he contemplated that

scene with a faint smile. They spent an

entire hour in the place and took several

pictures together with Jimin’s phone before

they left.

In front of the former store, the taxi stopped

so they could take the bags they had left

there previously

"Do we have to walk for a long time? I'm tired and my feet hurt."

patric asked boredly and the other quickly stopped to say

"We have arrived"

patric looked at that little house

Color of bungalow and small box

Solution

With that, they went into the kitchen to lay

down

The bags were on the table and patric

turned

To leave

Where do you think you're going?

carla asked sharply, as if he had just done

something forbidden

“I'm going home, it's getting late.”

“You wouldn't go anywhere without eating dinner first

patric smiled at carla's sweet tone

Childishly, he shrugged his shoulders and

returned to the kitchen

He helps her prepare dinner

10:00 at night

They traded food and did not

Resistant to energy rust

"Okay, I've had dinner. I'll go now."

patric said then adjusted his jacket and

headed towards the door

carla :wait, I'll go with you

patric: No need, it's too late

He didn't like it, and carla noticed that. The

house showed how rich patric was, but all

its lights were off.

“Does your family go to bed this early?”

carla asked him and the other smiled to answer

"I live here alone."

carla felt guilty when she saw the look of

sadness returning to patric's face, so she

quickly apologized

"Sorry, I didn't know.."

"Never mind.. and now you'll be fine."

patric went forward to open the gate to the

conversation, and carla waved at him kindly

" I'll see you later"

patric raised his hand to say goodbye to his

new friend and then entered the house

while carla turned to leave

patric was feeling very tired, he hadn't put

in this much effort in a long time

On the other hand, carla was arranging the

rest of the food in his kitchen, and she did

not appear tired. sHe was used to

exercising and walking for long periods of

time. sHe felt happy because she had a

new friend now.

But she remembered how sad patric was

when she mentioned living alone in that big house

carla also lives alone after she moved from

Busan because she wanted to live an

independent life despite herparents’

opposition and adherence to him.

Two months later

After they met, they became close friends...

They have each other’s numbers and go out

together every day to spend a good time

and take pictures together.

Soon, patric was staying with carla

, sharing a room with a traditional mattress

on the floor

They prepare food together and clean

together. They share all their moments

together. Their lives have become common

now. patric even started working with carla

in the same store.

Each of them fills the other's arms and

makes him feel a sense of belonging, and if

one of them is sad, the other will be there

To swear on his unity...

patric's condition changed a lot and he

became cheerful, or rather, he returned to

normal. He had always been a smiling,

positive person who loved life and loved

making new friends every day. He was full

of energy like a free bird.

But fate has suspended its black sword to

imprison patric inside him.. The reason for

his sadness is still unknown

And carla even now thinks he's sad

It was just because he felt lonely, so she

made sure not to leave her boyfriend alone

Ignoring that feeling that kept telling er

that something else was wrong

During these two months

A lot of things have changed in patric's mind

While carla headed towards the bathroom,

she came out a few minutes later wearing a

bathrobe. she was dried her hair with a

towel, then went to her room, which she

shared with patric, and found him packing

his bag

" what are you doing?"

The eldest asked while examining him with

a surprised expression. sHe did not expect

that patric would want to leave

, do you want to leave?

Ah actually.. yes

Why?

I'm really sorry baby .. but I have to go today

Okay, let me change my clothes and go with

you

No, you are not going anywhere.. I will go alone

He took me in a long embrace.

I did not think it would be the last embrace

between us. Suddenly, he wanted to leave.

What about me? I thought he wanted to live

once, but everything I did for him was gone

in the blink of an eye.

What pain you caused me, what torment you put me through and left

She spoke in pain and with loud gasps.

She opened that envelope to read what was

inside. It was a long letter divided into

several pages, written in beautiful

handwriting, and a signature

was printed on the last page.

All my love is gone.

And now I sit alone looking for you in

my imagination.

I wish I had not gone to you on the first day

and asked about you.

If I had kept a little curiosity, I would have

felt all this emptiness.

You came to scatter me and go.

you wrote goodbye on a piece of paper.

Do you think this is enough?.

I don't know if my memory has stored that

time. That time when I called you my flower

despite your distance.

It was your smile, despite your sadness,

that made me strong.

But I was the only loser and the only

survivor. Likewise, whenever you dragged

me down the armor of darkness,

I saw you smiling as if you were hiding me

in your heart. All this time, I was hiding

there without realizing it. All this time,

I was living on your voice now,

and your hands were tightening my

embrace with chains.

I realized this. I realized my passion

that I found while waiting for you.

I realized that I was in you, and I did not

waver even once over the years.

It was a spring whose smell I forgot when

the dust settled from the face of my

memory.

I always spent my wasted years searching

for my missing part, in my mother’s short

answers... and my old things. I was always

looking for a continuation of the story that

lost my brother in its incomplete line, and

Jungkook fell from it before the conclusion

point.

I forgot everything, but I did not forget my

weakness... I did not forget how I consigned

everything to oblivion, and threw my

memory into exile and was never able to

recover it...

When fate changed the course of this story,

I found something...that illuminates my

memory....

Stop waiting, stop wishing, stop hanging

your heart like a medal you put on a key,

waiting for someone to carry you.

In his hands, you are vulnerable to

everything the winds face, tossing you from

all sides. You are vulnerable to loneliness,

when all things come and what you waited

for did not come...

Stop waiting, because no one deserves to

wait for you.

Our last meeting touched on the details of

our first meeting, which happened in

December, the winter season.

I built a snowman in the square opposite the

building, and the next day I found your scarf

on it.

With its interwoven threads,

our story of you, me, and the snowman was

born.

Like the first hello I said to you, instead of all

my letters, I told you that goodbye for now

until the day comes when I separate from

you, create a new chapter, and put on

another life.