My Ex-Wife

Chapter 6

Ryan's POV

"Look mommy he is big Ray"

Before she could say this I fell upon my knees and the feelings and heaviness that I was holding inside me flowed out of me as tears and I broke down with happy chuckles.

Oh God but how can I forget about the little humans. My little humans. Our little human. Yes yes they are ours. Most importantly mine.

Now that I look at them. I saw how similiar are their features. They are split image of me. They have Lisa's features too but mine was more prominent. If anyone will just have a look at them they can tell straight away that they are mine.

Our daughter has Lisa's eyes, and my hairs colour. And our son, he is the photocopy of me. My hairs, my eyes, my nose, my lips. He was like little me. The same mischievous eyes.

I tightly shut my eyes but the tears and the wide smile couldn't go away. I was feeling that I am on cloud nine. I feel ecstatic.

Thank God to give me my happiness back...

Thank God to give me my heart back....

Thank God to give me my love back...

And thank God to give me my life back...

"Muma is the man mad?" Little unsure voice asked his mom

I open my eyes again to look at them but my eyes zeroed on bubble. Bubble was still looking at me with confused cold and wide eyes. And I look at her warmly, lovingly, longingly. Now that I have come to senses just a little I want to run to her crush her to me and drown my self in her embrace, her smell. But the coldness in her eyes stopped me to. Not only stopped me but intimidate me, scared me too.

"Is- is he our dad mommy? He looks like Ray" Our daughter clasp her hands and asked hope and happiness was clear in her voice on the idea

Bubble was just opening and closing her mouth.

I want to say her that yes I am their father. That I am the person who has just touch their mother, I am the one who had made them with their mother and I am also the one that made love to their mother every single night for two years.

But knowing the answer will only corrupt their little pure mind I decided to shut. Plus I have to face with the little problem that have stir within me after six years just with my own answer down their. Fuck....

Bubble was about to say something when Alejandro cuts her "Come here Mi Corazón" he says them gently before squatting down to their level. Both of them make their way running to him and hugged him first tightly before separating and looking at him "There..." He pointed at me "the man is Ryan Brown and..." He trailed off playfully making both of the little humans squirm and whine.

He laughed "He is your dad" he exclaimed

They both jumped and screamed a 'yay'

"We have daddy too nanna!" our daughter asked with a happy squeal making me so happy that it all feel surreal

"Is he going to love us too? Is he going to drop us to the school too nanna? Tell me is he going to live with us too now?" Our son bombarded questions with excitement

"Why don't you people ask it to him directly huh?"

And they both turned to me. I can tell they are nervous but excited. Ofcoure I am like a stranger to them. They both started to play with the hem of their shirt

"A-are you-u going to be our da-d" our daughter asked shyly making me cry again. I know the people there will be thinking that I am mad Maybe. f**k them!! Because I am who wouldn't when their life just turn 180 degrees completely.

I tried to talk, to voice out some thing but nothing come out of my mouth. Everything that was coming out were my tears and that too with a bright smile.

They were both now looking at me expectantly but my emotions were making it so difficult to speak. What happens to the cold, ruthless Ryan Brown who didn't let anyone speak in front of him?

"Why don't you people go close to him and hug him tightly before asking again?" Nicholas suggested

I want to thank him hundred time because this what I exactly want at this time.

They both turned toward bubble who was now standing and was looking at me with coldness making me feel worst too before she nods. Both of them start taking shy step toward me.

When they reached close to me they both stopped and looked at each other. I opened my arms wide for them. And they both came toward me with hesitant step. I hugged them tightly but gently and inhaled their baby scent. They both hugged me tightly too.

Complete....

This is what I was feeling. Warmth spread all over my body specially to my heart and it start beating loudly in my chest. I tighten my grip a little and start sobbing. This how it felt to be a father? This is how much warmth you feel within you?

Oh God! I am a father now...

I have two children...

They both tried to get out of my hold and I got panicked and loosed my grip on them but they didn't got out of my arm. They just leaned back a little before looking at me worryingly

Our daughter raised her small hand and wipe tears from one side of cheek and my son mimicked his sister "Are you fine?" Their this action effects me too much and filled me with love. But seeing them worried I decided to rein in my emotions.

I grab both of their wrists before raining kisses on their hands, fingers, wrist and back of their hands repeatedly before switching to their other hands and doing the same. I dropped their hands before peppering kissing on their faces making them both giggle and I chuckle too.

I leaned back a little to look at them with bright smile and they both move forward before raining kisses on my face too just like me making me laugh. I can't say that I don't know after how much time I have laughed like this or laugh at all because I know that I have laugh after 6 years.

"You are so pretty"our son say making me and our daughter laugh

"Its handsome little baby" our daughter mocked and my son just show her his tongue before looking at me again.

I know they are expecting me to say something but I don't know what to say

"Your daughter name is Li-" before Caroline speak I cut her

"Liza and he is Rayhan" I told them still looking at my children

"How do you know?" When I look at the source it was Nicholas wife. And by the look of her I can tell she has been crying too

I look back at my children and graze my hands over their cheeks lovingly. Before standing up and looking at the love of my life who hadn't speak a thing to me. I was going to her when she stoped me with her hand and dead cold voice

"Dont come near me!" I felt my heart that have healed a little broke again.

I know I deserve this. What I was thinking that after 6 years having a little reunion everything will be fine. How can I forget that what I did to her. With what names I called her. How cruelly I spoke to her and how heartlessly I slap her and told her to get out of my life and never come back

Remembering this a share pain rises in my whole body. She hadn't done anything all she was doing at that time was giving me surprise. And after that when I accused her all she did was begging. Begging me to just talk and clear. But what did I do.

"Rose this is not the way to talk to anybody" Caroline scolded her

I looked at her confused. She called Lisa 'Rose' not only she but also Alejandro when he asked his butler to summon bubble.

Maybe this is her pet name they gave her....

"How did you know?" Bubble asked ignoring his mother still with cold voice

Her voice send shiver down my spine with both fear and warmth

I take a deep breath and looked at her lovingly "We both planned before about our babies name together" I told her so gently

"We both decided it before.... together?" She asked me making me more and more confused

"Yes" I told her confusingly. Why is she acting like she didn't know anything? She nods her head.

"You didn't remember?" I voiced out painfully

She looked away before shaking her head.

Why would she? It wasn't like it was some thing pleasurable time in her life. Now when I think about our married life I came to know that we were happy because bubble was making too much sacrifices in our relationship. She never complained, she never demanded, she never refused and she never ordered. All she did was accept, accept whatever I say, whatever I want and whatever I do. Accept my possissiveness.

I had known that Harvey meant to her a lot. Because he was always there as her brother when she didn't have me and when she needed him. But when I told her about my insecurities toward Harvey, she started to maintain distance from him too just for my sake.

But like a biggest Asshole I am, I ruined everything..

I heard a sharp intake of breath and look at the side it was bubble.

"Who are you to me?" She asked with hard and determined tone.

I feel like the whole world around me has just stopped. My breath hitched and I looked at her with so much pain that I feel like I am going to break down into pieces.

She don't want to remember me. She don't want me to be with her. She don't want anything that concerns me

Nicholas moved toward her and grab her hand in his and place a kiss on her forehead before informing her "He is your husband Rose" and she looked at me with wide eyes

I know why she is looking at me with wide disbelieve eyes. It's is because maybe she hadn't told them about our divorce and she can't believe that I too told them that I am her husband still and not divorced. Although I didn't told them anything and even if I got the chance I know I will prefer to tell that I am her husband

"I am married?" Bubble asked Nicholas in a confused whisper

I furrowed my eyebrows. I know that we are not married but she was married to me why is she acting like this?

"Why don't you sit Mi Querido, Mr Brown" Caroline suggested

And we both took our seats. Bubble was sitting in front of me, opposite to me. Still looking at me with some kind of longingness now. Making me feel a lot much better.

Both my children run toward their mother

"He is our dad mommy I can't believe!"

"Muma is he going to live with us? Is he going to love us too?"

Bubble was about to answer when I cutted her "Yes my babies I am going to love you two too. No ,no " And with that both of their bright smile fell " I already love you alot" and they both smiled so brightly that they light up my dark soul

"Mi Corazón! Why don't you and Nicholai go and play with Martha huh!"

They both looked like they were about to protest but one nod from their mother and they both went away huffing and puffing. Making all of us chuckle

After that all of them looked at me making me swallow thickly

"Its time to have a little chit chat Mr Brown" Samantha spoke with a gruff voice making all of us laugh out loud

"Sam you brat just come here" Nicholas exclaimed so lovingly making me feel empty and sat her on his lap before kissing her hard without care about any of us

And I looked at bubble hotly and she just turned her head

"Can you two just stop sucking each other faces"

They both stoped with a red face Samantha

"Mr Brown we want to tell you something. We know you had a lot of questions like why Rose didn't tell you about your children and where she was and stuff like that so let us tell you"

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"Oh God we have triplets" I asked. I don't know should I be happy that I have twins or sad that I have lost my child because of me and my insecurities. She didn't even remember her name that's why they gave her the name Rose

I felt pain, pain everywhere after listening what my bubble had been through. She didn't remember anything and it's just because she don't want to because she is scared that it wouldn't be some thing pleasant

It made me feel so horrible because I know this is all because of me

They even showed bubble my all videos in which I solely declare that I am waiting for my wife to come back to me. So this why they were calling me loyal. I thank all my lucky star to make me loyal to her and not stupid like other hot blooded men who start banging other girls after such situation to cope with their sorrows

I showed bubble our marriage pictures and of course after all she finally believed in all this. But I don't know still there was alot of coldness in her.

"But what happen that I left you?"

Here came what I was avoiding from the start always when they asked me. I still haven't made any decision that do I tell them the truth or just a lie because I know that if I'll tell the truth. She will not come with me no matter how hard I'll try.

"Why are you quiet?" Nicholas asked now a little serious

"It was just a little fight between us like a normal husband and wife do. And she left saying she'll be back by night, she need to cool off. But she didn't came back and the rest you know"

Here I decided to lie

"Was I that horrible wife" she asked painfully

I quickly went toward her and kneels down in front of her. I hold her hands in mine. And I felt electrified. The warmth of her warm, soft hand was beyond me. I feel my life comes back to me with just this simple touch.

Without any permission and even my own senses I kissed her hands softly. Relishing the feel of her. I placed one more kiss on her other hand and look at her. She was looking at me with her big green eyes that drown me inside of her.

"You were far from it baby. You were perfect. It was my fault I was not perfect. I am not perfect. I make you leave me-" as this words come out of my mouth she snatches her hands from me and looked down at me with no emotions.

I want to beat myself for being so stupid to say such things. But I quickly recovered and decided that I maybe deserve one more chance. Maybe this my chance. So I stood up and takes her hand making her stand with me too

"Okay let me amend and start from the beginning" I stick out my hand "Ryan Brown you are meeting here, bubble" and look at her intently as I want to swallow her whole just like the first time when Harvey introduce us

She automatically shakes hand with me "Dolisa" making us all gasp. She too was looking at me with wide eyes.

Oh no! Maybe I didn't get any second chance. She remember everything now.....