Kai eventually went away, leaving me in my room alone to finally give her comments time to sink in. She said that Alpha would treat me compassionately, which perplexed me. It went against all I was taught, everything I understood, and the environment I was raised in. Alpha was ruthless and icy, exhibiting no sympathy or affection for anybody who came into conflict with them and actively working against them. I had to walk around my room while my mind clung to every word Kai uttered since it was the opposite of how I usually operate.
It wasn't that I didn't trust her; after all we had been through, she would never lie to me. Just understanding it was challenging. As I paced, I kept track of my steps, a neurotic habit I developed when shackled to a tree and forced to do nothing except loop
