Save Me Alpha

CHAPTER 10

ROSALIE POV

I've had my fat ass sat under the running shower for the past few hours, not entirely sure how many.

As soon as I came back to my room from Jasper's room, I pushed all the furniture available up against the door. 

I was all calm while I did it, I stripped naked and decided to have a quick shower to think about a game plan but as soon as I stepped under the hot water the planning went to s**t.

The aching pain of loneliness completely took over, a million voices tried to speak all at the same time, screaming at me from all directions.

So now I'm sat with my knees to my chest, my head resting on my knees and my eyes focused on black tiled floor. 

All I can think about is how Jasper made me feel, not how he's a werewolf, not how I'm surrounded by them, not how they might kill me or what they want with me but how he made me feel something completely different and alien.

A part of me is telling me to just take Sofia and run, the other half is telling to me take Sofia and run but kill them all on the way out and then the other part is softly whispering to go to Jasper and continue what happened earlier on.

I'm f*****g losing my mind.

I take a deep trying to ease my buzzing brain, it's getting worse and worse. I can't cope anymore.

"Ros? Rosalie! Open the door honey please!" I hear Sofia banging on the front door, I hear loud banging as if trying to smash through the door. 

The anxiety is coursing through my body, stabbing me in the chest, the voices in my mind are screaming at continuously non stop, louder than ever before.

Max and Sofia start shouting and banging louder.

Calm down Ros, deal with it. Calm down.

Do something Ros. Make it stop.

I huddle further into the corner of the shower, the water barely hitting my side.

I feel my body starting to rock back and for, I scrunch my eyes tightly shut and start trying to mirror my mother's voice in my mind.

"You are my sunshine

my only sunshine,

you make me happy

when skies are grey,

you'll never know dear

how much I love you,

so please don't take

my sunshine away."

The more I sing these words, the more the sobs escape me. Save me mom, come back to me.

I keep singing and rocking myself until I feel a presence in front of me.

"Rosalie..." Opening my eyes, I see Jasper knelt in front of me. Sofia and Max stood in the doorway, Sofia's hand covering her mouth as she cries.

Looking into Jasper's eyes, I see the concern staring back at me. 

I want so bad to throw myself at him, but I can't seem to move, my walls are up and ordering me to stay put.

"Rosalie, let me help you please? I promise I won't hurt you" Jasper whispers to me, his hands are up in surrender and shuffles towards me slightly.

I keep my eyes locked on his, I feel safe with him and I don't like it. 

I'm completely vulnerable right now, any other guy that has seen my like this I've either thrown out or attacked them until I've beaten them to death... or vice versa.

He moves his right hand up to my face and whispers, "Can I help you Ros?".

Tears still falling from my eyes, I nod at him always keeping eye contact.

He holds my cheek for a few seconds then picks me up bridal style, whispering shushes in my ear.

I wrap my arm around him and press my head into him, "Jasper".

Sofia drapes a towel over me while I hear Max turning the shower off, Sofia kisses my forehead and leaves swiftly with Max.

Jasper sits me on the bed and pulls his t-shirt over his head, I shift away panicking what he's going to do, my eyes looking at the floor.

He holds his hands up again, "calm down pretty lady, my t-shirt is just for you to wear to bed. My scent will calm you down". He puts the t-shirt on the bed and smiles reassuringly.

He's really trying to calm me down?

"Come here Ros, I'll put it on you." His voice is heavenly.

I stay where I am, wondering if I could trust him to not be a typical guy.

He steps to the edge of the bed, "I promise I won't hurt you, you can punch in the face if I even breathe near you." 

I smile at his comment, I get up to my knees and shuffle to end of the bed, I stare into his eyes and pull the towel away from me.

Please god, don't let him do anything to me. Not right now. Not like this.

He picks up the t-shirt, his eyes never straying from mine, he pops my head through the hole and pull my arms through treating me so delicately. 

"So beautiful" He says and brushes his hand over my cheek.

I give him a half smile, basking in this odd feeling of belonging.

"Shift back and get into bed pretty lady" I immediately scoot back and get under the covers lying down.

Jasper stands and smiles, then starts walking towards the door.

Panic seeps into me at the thought of him leaving me.

"Wait!" He stops and turns to me, surprised by my stopping him.

My voice leaves me as a breathtaking smile appears on his face.

"Would you like me to stay her with you?" He asks amusingly. 

I hesitate trying to think before giving a slow nod.

He takes his shoes off before yanking his partially wet trousers off, they must have gotten wet in when he was near the shower. 

My eyes roam over his body, taking in his broad muscly shoulders, the veins slightly popping down his arms, his strong hands ruffling through his hair. 

I will not look at his boxers, you are NOT a pervert Ros.

He stands beside the bed before pulling the covers aside for him to get in.

"No hanky panky though OK? Just sleeping" He sarcastically says.

I nod and smile at his playfulness.

He lays down and pulls me to him straight away, I lay my head down on his chest, easing the ache of loneliness within me. 

He strokes my hair immediately calming me. "Just sleep Ros, I'm here for you.".

As my eyes close, his other hand hooks onto my back holding me close.

I drift off as I hear him whispering my favourite lullaby.

"You are my sunshine

my only sunshine..."

***

I wake to shouting, I sit upright and turn my head to see Jasper is gone. Brushing my hand over where he slept, the warmth tells me he's not long been gone. 

I get up and grab some pajama shorts to slip on, I step toward the front door, ignoring the furniture slightly broken pushed up near the door, probably from when they broke in.

Stepping outside the door, I turn toward the elevator and see that b***h Miranda hanging off Jasper. Sofia is stood behind Jasper with a face like thunder.

"Just f**k off Sofia, I could snap your neck in no time. If you keep on I'll f**k you up and that w***e you call a niece too. Leave me and Jasper to have some fun".Miranda is one cheeky b***h.

Sofia steps forward with her fists clenched, knuckles white but Jasper raises a hand for her to stay in place.

Jasper turns to Miranda and pulls her hands from around his neck, "Miranda I've told you to back the f**k off, leave Sofia alone and especially Rosalie... if I hear you mention her name again you'll be shoved in the dungeon for a week with no food, got it?".

Rosalie shoves him back, anger plastered on her face. 

"Why are you being like this J? What's the pathetic human got on you huh?" 

Jasper growls at her in warning.

Miranda huffs at him and takes a step back, "Fine, have all the fun you want the stupid b***h. You always end up back in my bed, I'll f*****g wait until you're done with her." As she says the last part she turns to look at me straight in the eyes and winks at me.

"f*****g whore." I mutter at her. 

Will Jasper f**k me and be done with me?

YOU STUPID COW ROS.

Fucking men!

He spurted that s**t about mates to me, leading me on to believe that we might be mates.

But what am I talking about? I don't know s**t about this life!

Jasper turns in my direction hearing my comment, shock on his face.

"Ros I.." He starts.

"f*****g save it asshole. And you Sof, you f*****g knew? Was I some offering for him?" I glare at them both while Sofia keeps opening her mouth to say something. 

Sofia betrayed me!

This cult s**t probably involved him sleeping with new women, his claim as alpha? Who knows, maybe he f***s the new men too?

Before I slam the door behind me back in the room I hear Sofia and Jasper calling me.

"Leave me the f**k alone you cult bastards!" I shout slamming the door.

I pull my clothes on ignoring the knocks on my door, I grab my bag quickly shoving essentials in there.

I need to get the f**k outta here.

I should've listened to myself when one of the voices said to run!

He f*****g got to me! Used my vulnerability against me!

MOTHERFUCKER.

I know what I'm going to do...

I'm going to kill that slut Miranda on the way out, let anyone stop me.