Save Me Alpha

CHAPTER 1

    Everything is trashed, pictures are smashed in pieces all over the floor, the coffee table is overturned with broken cups all over the floor. Every book on the shelves are thrown on the floor with some missing their torn up pages, I walk over to my kitchen cupboard and pick up my rum bottle and neck the last remnants of it. 

    The anger has dissipated but my sobs keep coming, the only thing left to feel is the pain of emptiness. My phone keeps buzzing on the worktop, it's about the 50th time in the last hour that Aunt Sofia has tried to call me.

 "Just leave me to my misery Sof" I whisper and throw my phone in the fridge. 

Yet again you're alone Ros, 26 and alone. You're gonna die alone.

Nobody to love, not married, no babies.

    I sob heavier as the demon thoughts invade my brain again, I pick up the new bottle of whiskey off the shelf and start walking to my bathroom while taking the cap off the drink.

    I had never been concerned or depressed about my body or anything like other people, I had always considered myself average looking being 5'3' long red hair to my waist, blue eyes and paler than pale skin. I had never been really skinny, some girls in school called me thunder thighs but I always accepted that as a compliment for having shapely thighs and a small waist. My mom was the same, curvy as s**t. 

Fuck mom I really miss you right now. You and dad were all I had. 

You have nothing anymore Ros

You are nothing

Just end the pain, there will be no more emptiness to think about.

    I turn the shower on and sit underneath still fully clothed, I start downing the whiskey in big gulps enjoying the burning in my throat.

    I can feel my head clouding over from the booze, I stand up and shakily go to the kitchen and grab one of the knives out of the draw and sit back under the shower. 

"Why can't I do anything right? Always the disappointment to everyone". I say to myself. 

I keep downing the whiskey trying to numb the pain inside of me.

Just one cut to feel something else, anything else.

    Without thinking about anything else, I cut straight down my wrist embracing the searing pain overtaking all other senses in my mind. 

Mom and Dad would be disgusted with you Ros, they'd be so ashamed of what we've become.

    I start feeling the blackness take over, I grab the whiskey and drain the rest of the bottle thinking about my life, my stupid waste of a f*****g life. 

    I feel my eyes start rolling as I start sliding down the bath tiles to the floor when the last thing I hear is a loud bang by my front door.

*FLASHBACK *

My heart is beating through my chest, my mama always told me to never talk to strangers and always shout STRANGER DANGER if one ever put their hands on me, but that wouldn't work this time. 

Me and daddy were at the park, he was pushing me on the swing when daddy said he had to take a phone call and with a click of my fingers, big arms grabbed from behind and all I saw was darkness. 

I woke up in a dirty old bedroom, all the pink patterned wallpaper was covered in damp and was slowly coming away from the walls, the bed was all dirty and just had a musty old blanket covering it. I didn't recognise where I was, my instincts were usually spot on for a 9 year old and I could tell this was a little girls bedroom, or at least used to be. 

"Daddy? Mama?" I call out hopeful. Where am I? Oh no, did a stranger take me? 

I knew what happened to kids that got taken, the mean boys at school would always try to tease me saying I would get taken and killed. They also called my a f*****g dyke once, but after sneaking mama's phone i googled what it meant, I had heard again from the group of naughty kids at school about what s*x was, it took a while for me and my friend Kasey to understand but we kind of got it. Even though Kasey was almost sick when she realised. 

What if it's those asshole boys from school? Oh mama told me she would speak to the teachers but I said no, I just said they teased me and called me stupid names, daddy always told me to kick their butts but I knew mama would be mad. 

It must have been hours where I paced around the room, checking the doors and windows to see if they were unlocked but no. I gave up after a while and sat against the wall on the floor, trying to remember what daddy taught me. Find a weapon, try to throw punches in the balls if it's a man and punch them in the tit if it's a lady. 

I hear footsteps outside the room, I hold my breathe trying to ready myself for what might come. Oh god please mama or daddy!

The door slowly opens and tall old man steps in with his eyes on me, he has dirty scruffy grey hair to his shoulders and a messy beard splayed all over the place. He seemed familiar but I couldn't remember how, he had dark brown eyes which reminded me of mama's eyes. His clothes were torn and dirty, he wore dark green trousers, a torn dark t shirt which looked like it used to be white. 

"Hello my beautiful little Rosalie" He took a step forward and I shifted back.

"What do you want? Where's my daddy?" I started looking behind him to the door but he took a step in front of the door. 

I could feel panic set in and the tears falling from my face. 

The man crouched in front of me catching the tears with his fingers, "You look just like your mother when she cried, so pretty" 

I could feel the scream coming up my throat as his hand trailed down my face and started down my neck, sobs coursed through my chest and his perverted grin spread across his face.

*END OF FLASHBACK*