Limbo
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What’s a good-looking man like you doing in a place like this? He knew this voice better than he knew his own, it sounded like a seventeen-year-old Renee.
“What’s a good-looking woman like you doing in a place like this?”. Noah called back to her. Noah sits cautiously across from his Paramore curiously at a black and white table set that relatives believed would be better kept at Noah’s practice/home. He then asks the question burning a hole in his heart: “Would it have changed our circumstances if I had asked sooner?”. Noah asked Renee.
“We couldn't have known anything like that, especially as we are right now”. Renee said.
“Your Dad would have killed me”. Noah remembered
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How are the kids?” Renee inquired.
“They’re still confused by your death”, “I am a bit confused too”. Noah said.
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One minute I was there, the next, I was gone”. Renee claimed
“ It started snowing and at first, my contractions were so light that I didn’t want to bother you by panicking while going into labor, but the pain got worse and I crashed into a tree”.
Now they were walking through the hospital-Renee’s hands were cold and despite Noah’s repeated attempts to warm them-her hands remained that way, “I guess you really are dead”,
Renee sat down for the first time in the four hours since Noah’s visit and touched his face, “You know you can’t do what they want you to right?
“I know, it’s just difficult because the twins have your inquiring mind”. Noah said
“You also can’t stay here, the kids need you”. Renee said as she tried to soothe Noah.
“I should have never let you go to Aunt Millie's, she's a lousy lush after six”.Noah’s guilt was prominent on display.
“It wasn't your fault and I won’t have you saying so”. It was snowing and my foot slipped from the brake” .“Tell the kids they shouldn’t feel badly either”. Renee said.
“The twins still have quite a bit of survival guilt, do we just do the cliche and wait for time to pass”. Noah said
Noah looks at his daughter earnestly “I can’t tell you right now”.
“You saw Mom:” Penelope notes.
Noah decides not to lie to his daughter because she figures that she received her powers of perception earlier than most. “Yes, I was just with her”
Noah moves over to comfort his daughter. He begins rubbing her shoulders. “She says your brother and you should not have any more survivor guilt”.
“Yes, it’s a part of life, they have to learn sometime or another”. Renee states.
“Dad, where have you been?” Penelope asks.
Noah looks at his daughter earnestly “I can’t tell you right now”.
She kisses him one more time and whispers sweetly in his ear. “Wake up”.
“Dad, where have you been?” Penelope asks.
Noah looks at his daughter earnestly “I can’t tell you right now”.
You saw Mom:” Penelope notes.
Noah decides not to lie to his daughter because she figures that she received her powers of perception earlier than most. “Yes, I was just with her”.
Noah moves over to comfort his daughter. He begins rubbing her shoulders. “She says your brother and you should not have any more survivor guilt”.
Penelope’s eyes become glassy and she had the hardest time getting the words out: “Yes. well, next time you see her, tell her that survivor guilt is a lot easier to do in theory than in practice”. Penelope’ replied
“Well, grief is a horrible thing that you are forced to move through when someone dies”... Noah starts. He adds in a quieter voice: “It just sucks when you’re nine, and it forces you to grow up faster than you wanted to”.
Can I ask you a question?”. Penelope labored over this question for weeks.
“Anything”. Noah replied Immediately wishing that he hadn’t said it.
“It seems that Patrick has had an easier time going through the grief spiral”. Penelope said. She was envious of the fact that he seemed” to have an easier time going through the grief spiral”.
“He has a different method than you do”. “You focus on your mother’s otherworldly crafts while he focuses on the more practical gifts that one can share with other people”. Noah said
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