The Beauty and The Cage

Round One -2-

‘p***y is so good , I'll save that s**t for later ’

I burst out singing along with Abel as the song came. Nate turns her head toward the upside down laid body of mine

′ let’s if it’s really good, riding you with this position ′

giggling, she straddles me,almost sitting on my face, I couldn’t resist but biting on her bum in order to role her out of me.

I stand up and walk to see at my reflection in the mirror , still my laughter etching on my paled face after I manage to avoid the pillow Nate just has thrown on me. I am not wearing that much cloths either, I am in my tight grey V-neck shirt that doesn’t leave much to the imagination that shows off my flat abs, what I can say , I love them. The ripped jeans I wear shows off different spots of my paled legs with slightly room to see the tattoos going down from my left hip till my ankle.

′ I need a new hair cut’

Murmuring, I look at my mohawk chestnut hair . Nate just rolls her eyes , she knows I have gotten this haircut in just two weeks, but I am not satisfied with it. I’m very hard to be pleased

‘I guess something else needs a haircut’

she smirks , arching her brow , pointing at the regional south of my body , I get what her pervert mind means

′ No worries , that place needs no trim at the moment’

′ yeah till some desperate archaeologist will dig his tools there’

she teases, tapping something on her phone

′ I’m not that old!′

′ well old and still untouched, that would be a great award for the archaeologist ′

′ Zip your face!′

I yell covering my ears , I hate when she and mom start talking about my virginity as kind of shame

′ your smart mouth needs a new and an urgent filter ′

she laughs

‘But for real , you need someone to make you feel less anger and more love’

She says

′ I’m not angry and absolutely I don’t need any men in my life, I’m happy this way, no commitment, no heart breaks no bullshit’

‘Say it! You’re afraid , finally there is something you fear of’

′ I don’t fear anything. I just don’t trust easily, sometimes emptiness is safe. When you have cold heart nobody could hurt your heart,that’s it ′

′ I really hope you find someone who will warm that cold heart of yours, and makes you learn that life without love isn’t worth living’

‘But I love! Tho’ it doesn’t mean I need some prick to show me how to use my feelings’

‘Love is not only about martial arts, you know that?’

Nate says

′ Human beings must put themselves on top of their priority list , loving oneself isn’t harmful , it makes you undefeated , and somehow intimidating ′

‘It makes you arrogant b***h hiding your insecurities behind your arrogant surface’

′ I can’t believe you said that!′

‘Yes because I might be the only person who can see through you , eyes are mirror of the inner you ’

I snore, rolling my eyes

‘So tell me what are you seeing in my eyes?’

′ I see a huge pain. I see that you still not forgiven the ones who gave up on you , and I can see clearly you’re afraid if you love someone , you think he will throw you after, like your real parents did , but you just forget one important thing , they gave up on you but there is who appreciate you and you are matterd to them . You should learn how to make up with your past and let it go , you should move on Maria, one mistake shouldn’t let you punish everyone who want to reach you, this wiry Berlin wall should be down’

′ done with your whatever you were babbling about? ‘coz I’m hungry and I won’t be responding to what you shitted’

′ because you know it’s true and real’

With Nate I’m completely exposed, that’s it. And I hate when she’s always right. I look at her for a pretty while. When I hear the words walk out of my mouth out of sudden

‘You’ll be sad for a while , angry and kind of devastated , feel pure hatred wash over you and then ; you will just stop giving a f**k. When you turn off your emotions... it’s the best feeling , mate . No one would be able to hurt you’

She gazes at me , like she’s saying to stop lying on myself. I’m not lying . I’m just protecting myself. I don’t break eye contact with her, but somehow finally her face relaxes, showing me her toothy smile

′ hey what about some quality time at Stewy’s karaoke ′

Nate exclaims,trying to change the topic

′ Stewy’s? like now?′

I ask and she nods. It is six at evening

′ Then ... let’s go booze it till we lose it! ′

we exclaim in unison

‘But first let’s have something nice and delicious to eat’

XxXx

Stewy’s is a karaoke club, we both like to spend some fun time there, when we have nothing in particular to do . For Nate it’s absolutely fun time , for me is other thing, I like to fight people when I get drunk , it’s fun time for me if I could tell. But surely I love to sing as well, although I’m only slightly above average, yet my voice is much pleasant to listen to, comparing with the nowadays trash.

But not tonight, I sense Nate has bigger reason ,not only to spend few ′ quality ′ time.

We are already on our fourth round, our drinks on the table, with 5 tequila cups for my side,and two for Nate. Natalie is not tolerate with drinking unlike me. With five shots I am not wasted yet, but I am close to my limits.

′ Oh f**k, I’m going to miss hanging out with you like this and being two careless schmucks ′

Nate says hugging me, when I am looking for 2pac’s California love, we are alone in our usual booth

′ Why, where are you going ? ′

I ask

′ Actually that what I’m trying to tell you ′

‘Wait.. you’re not breaking up with me, are you? ’

I ask, pulling out her hug to face her

′ Just tell me this is not another ridiculous scene you’re planning to act ′

Nate makes a face

′ Just to fresh up the air, you look tensed and I’m a bit drunk ,tho’ you’re not planning to make move on me, are you? ′

′ I don’t take advantage on unconscious b***h ′

Nate’s face back to it nature, then giggles

′ Seriously what’s there, I don’t know why I feel there is something, and a big one , too ′

She sigh, sounds like she is running out of any word to start talking

′ Well, I guess I’m done with cage fighting ′

she speaks, I look at her, questioning her without speaking, she must understand and instantly answers my unspoken words

′ I’ve got an offer, you know I wanted to try something else, switching to WWF .′

′ You’re not serious! ′

′ I’m afraid I am ′

she bites on the corner of her lips

′ An offer! Wow! And when did you plan to tell me? In your leaving day? ′

′ Don’t be ridiculous , I’m telling you now! ′

I go silent, I am confused, wither because of the alcohol or because I am in my pms, all what I feel is kind of betrayed, well not exactly this word, I just feel hurt, maybe feel I am going to lose a part of me when she’s gonna leave. As I said , I am getting emotional for no obvious reason, and mostly for silly reasons.

′ What? Say something MiMi! ′

I just shrug, gesture to her that I have nothing to say, I am lost; flipping through the songs on the screen, not like I want to sing, I have been left no appetite to sing anyway, my mood changes already

′ We supposed to have fun as friends here, so why your mood changed straight 180° to a drama queen in matter of seconds ?′

′ You said it ! We supposed to be more than friends, we’re hanging almost all the time together, and so sudden you decided to tell me about a plan that was perhaps discussed and sealed already. Last week when I’ve got an offer from ‘Harpic’ you were the first ever knew about it, even before my parents. And you, you hid the whole thing and then decided to tell me. So please don’t act like you’re waiting for my approval because we both know you don’t need it. I thought we’re friends. I know it’s your thing, I’m a little hurt for not enlightening me before but I’m absolutely happy for you, I just thought I’m worthy to know about that earlier, but see! I’m the last person who had the privilege to finally know about it. What a great friendship! ′

′ You’re drunk, I don’t want to fight with you ′

Nate blinks, caught unaware by my unexpected reply

′ I’m not fighting I’m just speaking of facts, I’m happy for you really happy , but I feel I’m not that important in your life.′

′ I guess this should be delayed, cos’ girl you’re too way drunk to think properly ,if it was not the alcohol I’d assumed you’re speaking of jealousy ′

‘Jealousy? Me jealous? Why ? For what reason ? I as well still get offers, I am not jealous nor envious Natalie, I’m just ...hurt, we supposed to be friends, but now with you leaving I’ll be alone, I’m just... you know ... I don’t have friends ’

I sigh, I need something strong to gulp, otherwise I would start talking nonses bullshit, and last thing I want, is losing my friend over stupid mental state I am going through. I always hate being such an emotional cunt. Damned it, I hate my emotions, it makes me feel weak

′ Uh.. if I hug you now, you won’t stuck your tongue inside my mouth, will you? ′

She playfully teases me, I look at her and we both burst out laughing, she afterward pulls me into a tight mama bear hug

′ I will miss you b***h’

She plants a kiss on the top of my head, I smile back at her in try to stop my eyes from tearing

‘When you will be leaving?’

I ask

‘By Sunday’

She replies

‘Then Let’s sing one last song!’

I suggest. From this night I would be busy in the tournament that will last for twenty days in Vancouver, by the time Nate would be in Los Angeles for her new career. So technically that night is our last time together .