Lost Wolf

DAD?

It has been 5 days since finding out im a dog, or wolf as everyone says so calmly. What is wrong with them. Im sitting in the library reading up on wolves and sipping some wine, I definitely deserve it. I took a few days off of work and keep updated with Tyra, she will be coming over to Deans house or now known as the Seymans pack to review her wedding menu, obviously she doesn’t know im a wolf, her reaction would be worse than mine, I laugh softly and turn the page with a heading ‘LUNA’, damn these wolf things are complicated I think while shifting myself in the wingback chair and enjoy the pastel room with heavy wooden bookshelves and books. Lila is laying still on a pillow at my feet and I hear a car approaching, it’s strange to hear what seems like the whole world suddenly. Ive read so many books now and yet nothing makes sense but the weirdest part is my heart dropping when Dean is close by, I can feel him when he is close and want him with me the whole time, what is wrong with me, I have never felt so needy or whatever. I smell something amazing and decide to go get some food, I get up straightening my red satin dress, it’s strange wearing Desire’s old clothes, it looks amazing but expensive and I feel like a princess, for some reason the Seyman’s don’t want me to go back to my cottage but they’ll explain later tonight. I walk to the kitchen and see a movement at the restaurant, I walk up the garden path and look at how the wolrd looks so clear to me now. “hey!” I see Dean waving at me from a table at the restaurant, “hungry?” he asks and I smile taking a seat. Dean looks amazing and I look at him while he gets us some wine, a piece of my hair falls to my face and I bite my lip while thinking of Dean without a shirt. “will you be eating” I look up to see the waitress annoyed; “This is Aneida, Aneida this is Esmay and she will be staying for a while” Dean interrupts and smiles at me warmly. “Hi aneida” I say quickly ignoring the fact that she is staring me down and I feel the tension build. Dean stares at my breast, hanging heavy in my dress as im not wearing any underwear, he takes a deep breath and clenches his fist.

Deans POV:

How am I supposed to eat with her here, she gets me excited and that dress, omygod her body and that blonde hair that just falls in curls long around her waist. Now she is biting her lip, I push the menus back into Aneidas hand and don’t even look up, but I see Esmay following her inside the restaurant.  “esmay?” I clear the air, her deep green eyes looks back at me and she smiles; “I want to know, did you read the books about wolfs and …” she tilts her head backward and smiles; “about what?” she smiles. “well, I don’t know how well you listen to your inner wolf but did you hear anything?” I say looking embarrassed. She looks up at me and blushes; “I feel you, if that’s what your asking” she says looking down. “I imprinted, I couldn’t help it, my wolf saw you and kept yelling ‘mate’” I say gaining confidence, “is that what this is, our wolfs choose for us?” she looks confused but not distant. “we can reject it but , I like you and I really want to get to know you” I smile looking into her eyes daring her, her pink lips pout and I see she is contemplating. “If im honest, I feel like I need to be with you and any rejection from you would break me in a million pieces” she says and I see the worry in her eye. I put my hand on her leg and smile, her body reacts and I feel her melting, she is purring, loving under my gaze. She shifts her one leg over the other and takes a long sip of her wine; “imprinting? On who?” Aneida interrupts us. “Aneida not now” I growl but I see her stomping her foot and turning around throwing a tantrum like a child, how am I supposed to f**k her? Not with Esmay here, she does something to me, I would devour her if I could. After eating we take a walk in the garden and we stop where the river melts into a pond. Esmay stands leaning over the boardwalk railing and I stand behind her, the wind blows softly and I smell the air. The trees are like monsters towering over us and I enjoy their sway rocking us in this setting. She turn around and I look down where the coldness made her breasts perk and have to avoid trying to rub my thumb over them. I look her in the eyes, I never understood how everyone said that when you find a mate it is Asif you’ve known each other  forever, she looks up at me and my skin burns and my heart pounds through my chest; “esmay” I whisper and place my hand behind her neck and pull her closer to me.

Esmay POV:

Its chilly and the wind makes all my nerve endings sensitive, im lost looking up at Dean as his hand is behind my neck, I bite my lip and I see his body reacting to it, he comes down and presses his lips down on mine, I lose balance but his other hand grabs me by my lower back and pulls me closer to him. I moan softly and I feel Dean’s grip tightening. Suddenly I hear a million voices, I pull back and see Dean is listening as well, now that im part of their pack I can hear all of them when we connect. “There are wolfs on my territory” Dean growls. I push him to go and look, “Ill be fine go!” I say softly and as he runs into the forest I make my way to the restaurant ‘LePetit’. “Are we supposed to call you Luna now?” Aneida says sarcastically. “Not now, why are you like this” I say as I pick up my phone and head into the house. As I walk in the kitchen I see Desire looking worried, she looks at me and forces a smile; “Dear why don’t you go an visit Tyra” she suggests but I feel its not much of an option. “great” I smile and grab my keys and phone. I jump in my car and start it a  few times before it takes, I mind link Dean ‘Going home and meeting with Tyra’ but I don’t get an answer and drive down the pebble road, I love this road, it looks like the trees are hugging the road. I feel different, but better, I feel new and strong. My car growls under me and I giggle at the old thing, ‘yes fiat I know, your old’ I laugh as I pull up at my cottage. I open it up and it smells musky and wet, I hate leaving the house for so long. I open my living room curtains and the soft rain that started a few minutes ago quickly blurred the entire glass door. I sigh and fluff my pillows of white faux fur. I walk into my room and undress, I take out my lace pajama dress and slip it over my head after taking a quick shower. I slump down on the couch and cover myself with a braided blanket, I take out my phone and pull Lila closer to me:

Esmay: Hay T, im sorry for being so distant lately

Tyra: Girl, ive missed you, kyle is away at work so im busy finishing the house

Esmay: I cant wait to see you Sunday at Deans place

Tyra: sooo you and Dean?

Esmay: kindah, its strange we just clicked

Tyra: im glad you found him, you deserve happiness, we both do

Esmay: you really get me

I smile at my phone and switch on the tv, my hair up in a messy bun and curled up on my white couch I fall asleep.

A Loud knock wakes me up and I walk over to the door wiping the sleep from my eye, I yawn and open the door. It’s Dean, he looks at me and exhales loudly, I smile and hug him.

His breath is heavy in my neck and I feel the cold air and his cold nose on my skin. “Esmay, I was worried” he says as he sits down on the couch, I sit next to him with a puzzling look on my face. “Sorry I fell asleep and forgot to text you” I say putting my legs on Deans lap. He puts his hand on my leg and his eyes turn dark as he pulls me closer with his one hand on my thigh. He kisses me in my neck and I moan softly, I push myself underneath him, his tongue meets mine and his breath is hot and heavy. His hand moves up to my ass and he squeezes it, suddenly a loud knock pulls us both back to reality; “stop wearing stuff like that” he growls and gets up, I giggle and run to the room to get some clothes on. I hear a loud voice growling; “YOU!” as I walk to the front door, I see Dean blown up, he is standing tall and pulls me in behind him; “it was you in my territory” I look over his shoulder and see an older man also standing tall. “who is this” I squeak and both turn to me. Suddenly I wish I could’ve just shut up. “She’s my daughter and you corrupt her, I can smell the hormones and s*x” the man snares at Dean, wait what? “DAD? Whose dad, why are you here?” Dean pushes me behind him and hold me close. “you didn’t want her Henry, now that she’s part of my pack you’re  suddenly interested”  I’ve had enough I push Dean to the side and step up to the man; “who are you?” I yell and he looks down at me with disgust. “I’m your father, your real father Henry and you being here is a big mistake” he snares. “Wait what? Why am I not with you then, why did I grow up alone if I had a father?” I say now irritated and angry.