Unloving You

THE START

Belle grow feeling unloved.

At young age she experienced abused by every people around her. That's why she never trusted anybody around her.

One day, she was outside and her mama and papa are fighting. She can hear clearly every words that comes out from her mama's mouth and every unappropriate words for children like her. After her mama and papa fight, her mama get a bag and packed their things and getting ready to leave their home. Belle and her mama go to her mama's grandma when her papa is not around.

They leave without letting the papa know where would they go.

When papa got home he never know where to go and he kept on finding Mama and Belle everywhere. He asked their neighbors if they see them.

And he thought about the grandma of his wife and he packed his things to go and get them.

"Oh apo! You're here..come in." Belle greeted her greatgrandma with the mano (Pilipino's way of respect to elders). "You have a fight with your husband again, didn't you?" grandma asked Belle's mama.

After a while, papa arrived and have a talk with Belle's mama. They are speaking low but you can tell that they are fighting. Belle just keep on silent amd greatgrandma asked her to go to kitchen and eat something. Then she goes so she can't hear her parents fighting.

Sometimes, when her mama is angry or mad, she let her anger out on Belle. At young age she experienced the pain in belts. (you know what i mean). Belle is in preschool so her mama teaches her and helped her in her assignments.

Everytime she can make mistakes her mother hit her with the clothe's hanger or with the belt. That's why studied hard.

One day, they return to their house. Her papa get sick so she must be in under of his uncle's place cause no one will watch after her while her mama is on hospital watching over papa. When Belle is on her uncle's place ofcourse she's been doing fine not until her cousin made something unappropriate to her.

One night, her cousin invited her to play with them the Tagu-taguan.

When one of her cousin is the Taya, her cousin held her hand and said, "come on..let's hide in the room. She can't find us there" so she ran and hid with her cousin in the dark room.

While they are hiding, her cousin take off Belle's short pants and that make Belle felt so terrible towards her cousin. She ran outside and act like nothing happened. She never tell anyone about it.

After tomorrow, Belle's aunt tell them to siesta (nap on afternoon). She woke up and tiptoed to kitchen to get a drink of water.

Her aunt slept so she never noticed that Belle is gone.

But Belle never expect that her cousin is in kitchen and her cousin hold her hands tightly and bring her to the other room.

Her cousin take off his pants and Belle saw everything. Her cousin nearly make something bad and luckily her uncle is home. She quickly ran back to her aunt and lay beside her but she can't sleep because of what happened.

It's already 5 days when she's at her uncles place, her mama get her and bring her home.

Times went fast and she's on Kindergarten. Kinderganten's class was morning till noon. Belle went school alone and went home alone as always. At school we can tell that she's a loner student for she don't have friends. She eat her lunch alone.

When the school year nearly end, someone come near her and ask her to be a friend. This classmate was a girl and let us call her Phoebe. Phoebe approached Belle and asked her to be her friend.

One day after lunch, Phoebe invited Belle to her place. And since Belle never have a friend before for her mother always locked her in their house, she agreed. That day she went home late for she came from Phoebe's house. When she got home, her mother hit her hard. The umbrella was broken at the body of a small little girl. She even barely breath and crawl for help and then her papa arrived and quickly pick her up. She hugged her papa tightly and then her papa and mama fight again.

Everytime she make small mistakes as a child, she recieved heavy hit from her mama.

Since that time, she got anger in her heart towards her mama.