He looked confused and asked, “Is that a bad thing? I can’t decide if I’m supposed to be insulted or not by that.”
I shook my head. “No, of course not, it’s a good thing. It’s refreshing to talk to someone who’s brutally honest.”
There was a knock on the door, and then Rebecca walked in. Jax stood up and squared up to her, “Get the f***k out of my room, now.”
She fluttered her eyes nervously and said, “I just wanted to apologize—” Interrupting, he raised his voice and growled, “Apologise to your f.ucking daughter. You could be on your knees begging and kissing my boots, and I wouldn’t waste my time listening to you. Now, get the f***k OUT!” He yelled at the end.
The rage in his voice was violent, and I knew that, for her own safety, she really needed to leave and get away from him. This angry, he could even full out shift into his wolf and lose control. I was almost drowning in that alpha energy. Thankfully, she sensed that too, and without another word, left.
He leaned his forehead against the door to calm down before turning to me and apologizing. “It’s ok, she isn’t someone I would want in my room either,” I smiled reassuringly.
Three weeks passed, and most of the time I spent the days now hanging out and talking to Jax, it was so nice spending time with another werewolf like myself.
I think I was starting to fall for this beautiful and dangerous psychopath, and there wasn’t a damn thing I could do to stop it.
A few times I hadn’t gotten to spend the day with Jax because he would be locked away in isolation for being violent and aggressive to either a patient or member of staff. When it had been five days and I finally got to see Jax again, I was in his room sitting on the plastic chair while he lay back on the bed.
We had been talking, and now we were in comfortable silence when Jax put his hands behind his head, looked at me, and said, “Come and lay down with me.”
I hesitated, not sure whether he was being serious or not, but he held an arm out to me, so I shyly went over to the bed. He moved up, making space for me, Pfft, who was I kidding? He had to make a lot of space for me.
When I lay down beside him, using one arm, he pulled me in against his body, sending both butterflies and desire coursing through my body.
The silence was awkward now because I didn’t know what to do next. Did he just want to cuddle, or was I supposed to do something more? I had no idea. Jax had never given me even the slightest sign that he was interested in me romantically.
“You can kiss me if you want.”
Jax’s voice jolted me from my overthinking, making me look at him. He raised an eyebrow, and said, “I know you want to kiss me. You stare at me the same way every other person who’s been attracted to me does.”
I blushed hard and couldn’t meet his eyes. I had never kissed anyone before, and I didn’t have a clue how to even begin.
Sensing my nerves, he turned so that he was lying on his side and used his forearm to lean on so that he was looking down at me. I couldn’t meet his eyes, I was so shy and flustered. Jax gently put his hand under my chin and pulled my face towards him so that I was forced to meet his eyes.
“Close your eyes,” he whispered.
I did as instructed and felt his lips press onto mine, soft as rose petals.
He moved his lips against mine softly, forcing mine to respond and work with him. Desire raced through my whole body, and when he slipped his tongue in, rolling it over mine, I quite literally soaked my underwear. I let out a soft moan, and he chuckled sexily against my lips, turning me on more than I had ever been in my entire life.
I was so turned on and wrapped up in the moment that I wasn’t thinking clearly, so that when he slid his hand up under my top, I didn’t stop him. He slid his hand over my b.reast and jerked away from me in surprise.
He looked down at me confused, and, as though he were double-checking, he yanked my top up, exposing the raised birthmark I had there that was shaped as a half crescent moon, a symbol of being an omega. Alphas and dominant wolves had a full moon birthmark. The birthmark looked more like a scar than a birthmark on us.
“You’re a f.ucking omega?”
I thought this would be the moment when he would try to slice my face off like he had tried with Rebecca and held my breath.
But he surprised me by asking, “is that the real reason your parents put you in here?”
I shook my head. “No, just being a werewolf in general was enough for them.”
He nodded his head, and, surprising me even more, he leaned in and kissed me again.
His hand slid back under my top, and he played with my n.ipples lightly. It felt so good, but a doubt crept up on me. He flirted with the nurses to get what he wanted all the time. What if that’s what he was doing with me? I forced myself to relax and enjoyed having a beautiful alpha male kissing me and touching me.
We were cuddled up in the bed when Nurse Carol came in smiling and then gave a frown at Jax. “Time to go back to your own room Rose, and as for you, Jax Knight, I hope you are not taking advantage of sweet Rose here for your own agenda.” She had her hands on her hips, looking at Jax like he was some naughty student.
He spread his arms out wide while my head was still on his chest and answered, “pfft, me? Seriously, Carol, I thought you knew me better than that.” He shook his head like he was disappointed.
Carol rolled her eyes but gave a small smile. “Come on, Rose, let’s go.”
Reluctantly, I got up and left with her, following her down the hall until I was back in my own room.
Lying in bed, I couldn’t get Jax off my mind or how it had felt to kiss him. It had been amazing and I didn’t need to be experienced to know that Jax was an incredible kisser.
I wanted to talk to him the next day, but I soon learned that wasn’t going to happen because he was back in isolation. It was frustrating, and I wondered why he found it so difficult to behave himself when he seemed to be able to just fine around me.
Later that day, I was walking past the shower room and back to my own room when I casually looked up and saw the door ajar. I sometimes knew they left the door ajar for safety reasons when there was a more aggressive patient.
I wasn’t too surprised to see it was Jax in there with a nurse watching over him as protocol demanded. She was sitting in a plastic chair in the corner of the room, and Jax…well. I couldn’t stop staring.
I knew I shouldn’t, that I should just head back to my room, but my God, was he absolute divine perfection in nothing but his birthday suit. If his body looked amazing in clothes, it was even more incredible out of them.
Muscles rippled across his abdomen as he rubbed shampoo into his hair, his arms bulging with muscles as he rubbed it in. His chest was nicely filled out, he had a six-pack, and now without his clothes in the way, I could see the tattoo sleeve along his arm reached all the way to cover his shoulder and his left pec. All the artwork was of angels and demons, and it was amazingly done, definitely not cheap work.
I bit my lip to keep myself from making any noise when I saw his…manhood. It was both scary and exciting to see. Exciting because it was my first time seeing a man’s private parts, and scary because of how big he was. He wasn’t even erect, and he was still at least an eight down there.
I didn’t think there would be a hope in hell of that ever fitting inside of me if we ever made out again.
I tried to walk away and not be a creepy stalking pervert, but my legs would not listen, and my eyes sure as hell, were quite happy to keep staring.
I watched as he slathered soap across his body and rubbed it in slowly. It was like watching a stripper do a show, and that’s when I realized…he had caught the pretty blonde nurse taking a peek and put on an act.
Grinning at her, he murmured, “you like what you see?” She shook herself out of her trance and tutted. “Don’t be silly. Come on, hurry up.”
He rubbed the soap onto his p.enis and started rubbing his hand along the length of it, back and forth, his thumb rubbing over the tip of it until slowly he grew hard, so hard and big I couldn’t think of it as anything else but a c***k now.
I grew wet watching him and cursed my perverted ways. The nurse must have had the same reaction as me because she looked flustered, and before either of us knew it, Jax was climbing out of the shower and walking towards her in all his wet, naked glory.
He dropped himself onto her lap, straddling her so that his legs were on either side of her hips and the chair. Holding on to the back of the chair, his hands clasped atop one another, he looked down at her and whispered seductively, “are you sure you don’t want what I’m offering?” He began grinding himself against her suggestively so that she was putty in his hands.
She let him undo the first few buttons of her shirt so that her big breasts fell out on display. He squeezed and played with them, sucking her n.ipples and drawing soft moans from her lips.
I should walk away now, I was thinking. I was fascinated, turned on, and jealous all at once, and I knew I should just walk away, but my legs wouldn’t obey.
I watched as he climbed off her and got down onto his knees, spreading her legs open and kneeling between them. He put his head between her legs and gave her oral s**x if her cries of pleasure were anything to go by.
It didn’t take long before he had her coming loudly with pleasure. Jealousy grew inside of me, and I watched as she gave him oral s**x in return.
A few minutes in, and he moaned, “I want you on your knees for me like a good little bitch.” She got onto her knees and sucked and licked along his hard c***k.
Jax grabbed the back of her head and forced her to take the whole length of him into her mouth and most definitely down her throat. He rammed himself into her quite violently, stopping every so often so that she could catch her breath before shoving himself down her throat again.
At one point, she threw up a little, but neither of them seemed to care, and then he was most certainly coming, so far down her throat she probably didn’t need to swallow.
I didn’t know if or what they would do next, but I ran off down the hall and back to my room, thankful no one had seen me spying. I was slightly fearful because if that’s how you had to give a man a blow job, I had no intentions of doing so, it had been violent and rough and certainly hadn’t looked pleasant for her. Was it a man thing or a wolf thing?
Why had he asked me to kiss him? Why lead me on if he didn’t care? I hadn’t taken him for the player type, and Carol’s words entered my head. “I hope you’re not taking advantage of Rose for your own agenda.”
Was that it, I wondered? Did he have some plan that involved me after all? I didn’t think so, there was nothing I had that he could possibly want.
A couple of days later, and Jax was out of isolation. I saw him come out into the television area but didn’t go over to him like I usually did.
It hurt seeing him with the nurse, and I felt worse knowing it was my own fault for spying in the first place. It was a private thing between the two of them, and I had no right to be upset when I had chosen to stay and watch, on top of the fact we weren’t even a couple.
We were just friends, and he had never led me to believe we had ever been anything more. He hadn’t asked me out, and he hadn’t flirted with me before that day in his room. He had obviously just been showing me pity or something, knowing I had a crush on him, or maybe it had simply been boredom.