The Omega And Her Triplet Mates

Chapter 30: Dark truths

Romeo agreed with Jared somewhat reluctantly, not because he cared about me but because he still wanted the pack to look both unique and powerful compared to other packs.

I wasn’t powerful, of course, but having three alphas running a pack would make them stronger than one alpha, alongside my little omega perk of helping out of control wolves and aggressive wolves who needed to calm down, thinking on it, I really should have tried to use it when Jax lost control, but I think we’d all been so caught up in the moment it hadn’t occurred to us to try, I wasn’t even sure how it worked.

Jared and Romeo went into his office after a while, and the brother of the triplets walked over to my true mates.

Instantly Romulus said, “I’m not into men, so I don’t think you can be my second chance mate.” He moved away from the brother and walked over to the girls.

I mentally rolled my eyes and watched as the brother spoke with Jax who was more than happy to flirt back with him.

One of the girls walked over to Fenris and flirted with him, but he tugged his arm away from her and walked over beside me, which surprised me. “I’m taken, and I have no interest in being with anyone else,” Fenris told her.

She smirked at him and said, “ok, well, if you change your mind handsome I’ll be right here.” She winked and walked off.

Everyone was getting along for the most part, and Fenris sweetly stayed by my side.

I couldn’t help glance over to Jax every so often, and I saw the brother lean in and kiss Jax.

The brother I learned was called Josh and I watched as Jax kissed him back for a while, it got heated enough that tongues were involved but when Josh tried putting his hands down Jax’s trousers, Jax broke the kiss and grew angry. “Don’t f.ucking touch me unless I tell you that you can.”

“You’re telling me no one’s tried touching you before?” Josh asked.

“Sure, but I like my men submissive,” Jax replied.

“Have you been with a man before?”

This was a conversation between them and I tried not to listen too much, but it was hard not to. I purposely used my wolf hearing and just couldn’t seem to stop myself.

“No I haven’t, not a male werewolf, I’ve made out with one or two and some foreplay on one occasion but as you know, werewolves are mostly dominant, I’d probably be better off with a submissive wolf who’s male.”

“So you don’t want me?” Josh asked.

“Depends how submissive you’re willing to be.”

Jax was being a bit harsh, but I suppose if that’s what he preferred then he was just being his usual blunt and honest self.

“I prefer to be dominant myself,” Josh replied and then laughed, “I like you, but I don’t know if we’d be great in bed together.”

Jax grinned and replied, “probably be wrestling to top one another.”

After that, it was like they became buddies instead of lovers and Josh even introduced Jax to his sisters and Jax introduced Josh to some of the female and male wolves. What the hell?

Fenris noticed me watching and said, “you should be honest about your feelings for Jax and tell him.”

“He knows,” I replied.

“Not really, he knows you want a serious and loving relationship, but you haven’t told him how you feel about him, not properly.”

I looked up at him. “How do you know?”

He smiled and replied, “I know you, and you aren’t exactly always open about your feelings.”

I got back to cleaning after a while, and Fenris said he needed to finish some work off in his room.

Luckily, everyone treated me like I didn’t exist, even Chantelle didn’t say anything to me when she came out for some water.

Jax must have really scared her.

I felt so stupid and annoyed with myself at the jealousy of seeing Romulus and Jax flirt. I had Fenris and should be happy with that, but the wolf wouldn’t allow me to be content with just one mate, she wanted them all.

I knew this was different than them just flirting with females, these were their second chance mates, and so they’d be feeling things too.

Romulus surprised me the most, for a ladies man and a wolf who usually went for looks, I noticed he flirted outrageously even said some dirty things to the girls, but he never once tried to touch them nor did he allow them to get too close to him.

I wondered why when they seemed his perfect type.

Fenris had told me the girls were called Jessebelle and Ashley, and I noticed Ashley, the one in the short skirt, had disappeared at some point with Jax.

Quit thinking about it, Rose, I tried telling myself, but I just couldn’t. I’d fallen in love with Jax before we were revealed as true mates to one another.

It was late, and I’d done most of my chores, I just needed to do the spare room, and I’d be finished.

Fenris had said he would come for me when he finished his work. I grabbed some cleaning supplies and clean sheets and entered the spare room.

I was making the bed when I heard noise in the adjoining bathroom.

Whoops, had I just come into an occupied room? I wasn’t sure, so I quickly peeked through the bathroom door just to make sure, and my heart stopped beating.

I shouldn’t care, I really shouldn’t care, but tears filled my eyes anyway.

Jax was kissing Ashley while she sat on the edge of the counter with her legs wrapped around his waist. I wanted to move away and stop watching, but my feet wouldn’t budge, and my eyes were frozen onto them.

Jax kissed her down her neck and she moaned, “Mm, that feels so good.”

“Not as good as your p*****. is about to feel,” he grinned.

I soon found out she wasn’t wearing anything under that skirt, Jax put his face between her legs and I knew he was definitely using his mouth and tongue on her there.

Her back arched and she cried out and panted, “do you want me to take my skirt off?”

He mumbled, “no, leave the skirt on.”

He carried on for a while until she pulled him up and pulling his trousers down, she rubbed herself against him.

He hadn’t decided to accept me as his mate, so he could do whatever he liked, so why did it feel like my heart was breaking in two?

Tears fell down my cheeks and then Fenris was behind me, pulling me away, turning me around so that he could pull me into his arms and I could no longer see what was going on.

His arm went around my back, and he held my head close against his chest. “Don’t look,” he whispered.

I broke down hard, sobbing my heart out into his chest. He slowly moved us until we were out of the room, and with me still crying into his arms, he made me move with him towards the stairs.

Romulus came over and asked, “what’s wrong?”

Fenris gently turned me around and nudged me into Romulus’ arms and said, “look after her.”

He walked off and Romulus held me and gently stroked my hair. “You ok love?” He whispered into my hair.

I nodded, even though I was nowhere near ok. “I need to go to my room and be alone,” I sobbed. “I’m sorry.” I moved out of his arms and ran up the stairs.

I heard Fenris arguing with Jax, telling him I’d seen him and Ashley. Jax hadn’t replied with a cruel response like I thought he might, he’d yelled “f***k!” And sounded sorry that I’d seen him, and for some weird reason that made my heart ache even more, it would be easier for him to be cruel than kind.

I felt so many emotions racing through me as I cried into my pillow, in my pain I felt guilt too, he shouldn’t have to feel bad for being intimate with someone else, he wasn’t mine for me to have the right to be upset like this, he was my true mate, but that didn’t mean I owned him or anything.

My reaction wasn’t fair, and yet it wasn’t completely my fault I argued with myself, I told him not to give me false hope when he said he’d think about being my mate. He really needed to let me go and do the rejection ritual, so I could try to move on.

I was laying on my side with my back to the door when Jax came bursting into my room.

He climbed onto the bed and held me from behind. “I’m so sorry Rose, I wish you hadn’t seen that, I’m really sorry darling.”

His sweet words just made me cry more, and he held me tighter. “Please don’t cry,” he whispered.

He rolled me to face him and I hid my face in his chest. He gently pushed his hand against my shoulder to move me back, so he could look at me.

I’d never seen him look so sad before, he gently wiped my tears with his thumb and kissed my forehead.

“I’m so f.ucking sorry.” He rocked me back and forth gently, and I sobbed, “it’s not your fault, you can do what you want, but please let me go Jax, please do the rejection ritual, so I can try and move on because it hurts too much.”

“Rose—” I cut him off, “please! I love you, and it hurts so much, I feel like I can’t breathe.”

He hugged me hard and kissed me on top of my head.

He pressed his cheek against my head and whispered, “I don’t want to let you go. I want you Rose, I want you so f.ucking bad, that s.hit you saw meant nothing to me, it was just a bit of fun.”

“They’re your second chance mate, you can’t feel nothing.”

“I can if I’m already in love with my true mate. I want you, Rose.”

“But you said—”

“f***k what I said, it’s nothing to do with you and everything to do with me as to why I can’t accept you.”

I sat up in his arms and sniffled, “what do you mean?”

“It really is complicated.”

I held his arm lightly and pleadingly said, “Jax?”

Sighing he sat up with me on the edge of the bed with his boots on the floor, my feet dangled as I was too short to reach the floor.

He looked down when he asked, “you know we sometimes feel each other’s emotions? I’m guessing since you and Fenris completed half the ritual, you’ve sometimes felt how he feels.”

I nodded, and he said, “that will happen with me and you as well.”

“What’s wrong with that?” I asked.

“I kill Rose, I’m a werewolf serial killer and I know I’ve trained myself to kill only other killers and monsters, but it’s not just to help the innocent.”

I looked at him, but he kept his eyes firmly down on the ground.

“I know,” I gently said.

He shook his head. “No, you only know half of it and if we do the acceptance ritual you’ll feel what I feel sometimes and I don’t want you to ever feel that darkness.”

“Jax,” I reached out to touch his hand, but he snapped, “don’t! I don’t think you understand what I’m trying to say.”

“Then explain it.”

He growled with frustration and I think he felt somewhat embarrassed, which made him angry. “I like to kill, I like to cause pain.”

“We spoke about this at the warehouse, I know all this.”

He growled inhumanly that time, and he said, “I don’t just like it, f***k, I can’t believe I’m f.ucking telling you this.” He ran his hand through his hair and said, “I enjoy blood and causing pain, it gets me hard.”

When I just looked at him blankly, he said, “if I killed someone, and you were there I’d want to f***k you after, I’d want to f***k you while I’m still covered in their blood or maybe make them watch before I finally kill them. Do you f.ucking understand now?” He got up angrily.

I nodded and stood up in front of him, making him stop pacing. “I understand. You’re afraid I’ll feel all of that, all your emotions and feelings towards what you do.”

He nodded. “You don’t deserve to feel that dark depraved s.hit, I can block most of it out, but every so often it’s going to seep through.”

“I still want you Jax and I accept you for who you are, I want all of you, even the darkness.”