Reality Check
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After my s*x capade with August suddenly he'd become Mr. Unreachable.
Suddenly all my phone calls going straight to his voice mail.
I didn't want to start hanging out with Erin just to see his selfish ass.
I started to feel used by August because I clearly hadn't seen or heard from him since our meet up.
I realized I definitely understood that I'm not his precious wife.
I didn't expect to get the same treatment but I do expect some muthafuckin respect.
Just that muthafuckin part!
Wallace had been the wonderful improve boyfriend s***h fiancé.
I just really didn't give a damn because I had started to feel as if I was settling instead of having what I deserve.
I didn't want to say what it was I felt I deserved.
Finally August return my call and it seem to be going well.
August asked me a regular question like what's for dinner I responded to him.
That one question turned our conversation into a nuclear explosion out of nowhere.
"I don't know what Wallace wants for dinner."
"Ohhhh b***h! So you call yourself throwing that nigga in my face low key?"
"Ohhhh I got you hoe!"
"What the hell are you talking about August?"
"You asked me a question and I answered you."
"What yo disrespectful ass did was wait on a opportunity to flaunt your nigga in my face.
" You call yoself happy?"
"b***h, I'll shut all that bullshit down."
"August what your doing is selfish."
"No what is selfish, is a hoe who finds out who her best friend husband is was fuckin on him didn't know though .
However, doesn't tell her friend but keeps fuckin the husband."
August hung the phone right after his comment to me.
I was just left trying to gather another reaction besides shocked as I felt.
The bullshit really pissed me off thinking to myself f**k August selfish ass trying twist s**t.
I thought about it I really did want to talk with Erin in the beginning and tell her the truth.
The truth is what she deserved from her husband and best friend.
I really wanted to be truthful but it was too late now to open that can of worms so to speak.
Erin and I friendship wasn't in a bad space so disclosing some hurtful information would serve no purpose to where we all were in life.
I just decided I wasn't going to f**k with August anymore for sure, I'd fell for enough of his bullshit.
Wallace and I had started planning our wedding.
The problem with that was we both were just getting frustrated with the whole situation money wasn't
our problem but Wallace did get back on the subject about my pregnancy and the baby.
He still wanted closure to know who the father were and was the father and I still in touch.
Oh my gosh, I couldn't believe it.
Why after all this time would that bullshit even matter to him?It was a issue it became a stumbling block with us moving forward with our wedding.
I became disappointed with Wallace was he trying to break off our engagement inquiring about things that absolutely have absolutely nothing to do with him.
One day the same conversation came up but this time got so heated that I left our house.
I decided to stop by Erin my best friend I was knew she would understand my point.It was exactly the opposite Erin wasn't feeling my love point of view nor did she agree with me not telling Wallace who the father of my baby were.
Sitting in Erin's living room Erin asked."So who was you fuckin with and got yoself knocked up?"
I felt defensive so my answers were short filled with a hint of sarcasm.
"b***h why?" You wanna f**k em?"
" Girl, fuk no!"
" Besides, August is the best I ever could have ever wanted."
I turned to Erin looking at her I asked.
" So how do you know he's the best you've ever wanted?"
" I don't believe that another man could satisfy me any better."
"Let's be clear Erin let's not confuse frequency with good sex." "No , it's good sex."
" Oh girl, Erin wow you sound so convincing. I almost feel jealous.
"August sounds about as interesting as he did when you described him back in the day."
"You make him sound like the life of the party."
"Raven I know you don't care about s*x and all that love stuff like I do.
I do know one night with August you wouldn't be talking so much smack anymore."
I just stared at Erin while sipping from my glass of wine.
Throwing my hand up waving off the conversation.
Damn Erin goes in labor something no one saw coming because she was at least three or fours weeks early.
I had the opportunity to witness how much beautiful pain could be.
I didn't call the ambulance as soon as Erin went into labor, I thought I could handle it.
I really didn't think Erin was in actual labor just have early false labor pains.
Erin was laying on the couch where I'd helped her to lay down.
"Raven, girl give me my phone I think I need to call August."
"Girl it's okay I'm here with you and everything is going to be just fine.
I sat with Erin for over an hour but her labor pains just got worse so I decided to go ahead and call the ambulance and the hospital.
We made it just in time because the baby's head was starting to crown.
Oh my I may had misjudged what I thought was best in that situation.
August barely made it to cut the baby's cord but he did welcoming a eight pound baby boy.
After Erin's delivery I was sitting in the waiting room with Erin's parents and Wallace when August walked out to greet us with the good news.
Wallace couldn't stay because he got called to work. He hugged me kissed my cheek then left.
As everyone was about to go check on Erin August pulls me to the side to talk to me.
"Look I think you should just go home this is family shit."
"What the f**k! I threw my arm up" Nigga, I am family been that."
August laughed backing away a little.
" Girl was you haven't been that in awhile, now."
"Look I don't want your bum ass around my family, like damn when are you going to get it thru your head."
"I mean you hanging around is not going to make me want yo ass."
I became so angry I could slap August and I had attempted but Erin mom walks up.
Her expression definitely divulged her feelings.
"Raven, what is going on here between you too?"
"Excuse my language Mrs. Flight but this muthafucka says I'm not family and can't see the baby."
"August, I understand Erin is your wife but you can't close her off from the world."
"Raven is family always have been."
I walk back to Erin's hospital room with Mrs. Flight leaving August standing by himself looking stupid!
Erin was crying I race to her side to hug and conforting her.
The baby had to be put on oxygen the umbilical cord was slightly wrapped around the baby's neck.
as I sat next to Erin I couldn't imagine what could she be crying for her baby was lying in the incubator breathing.
Her baby didn't die it was healthy and living.
Erin named her son Aj for August Jr.
Erin and I walked to the bathroom calling baby ward to see her son.
Aj was absolutely a beautiful baby. I did get to hold him tears tried to form in my eyes.
After leaving the baby ward Erin stopped me and asked me to be the baby's God mother.
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