Help me , Mister

That Was Not Him

Letitia's POV

Here I am sitting on the couch with my legs on top of it and a remote control on my hand but I am not even watching what is playing. I have a lot on my mind right now. I am thinking of hiring a divorce attorney but I don't think I can afford it now which means I have to find a job. I want nothing to do with Connor and a divorce will help me with that. I am just happy I didn't take his last name.

After our agreement, Kazimir went to take a shower which is why I am here alone. I don't know why he invited me to live in his house when he doesn't even know me. It is really confusing but I really appreciate it. I don't think he will be interested in watching a movie with me so I will just watch it alone and stop myself from overthinking.

"Are you even watching this?", I jump and almost fall over when I hear his voice. I didn't even hear him come in.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to startle you . ", he says laughing at my misery and I look at him with a sour look before looking away.

"What are you watching ?", he asks sitting next to me looking at the movie that is now ending . I feel nauseous again but I just ignore it.

"I don't know , I just chose what was infront of me at the time.", I say with a shrug and he looks at me with a weird look on his face.

"I have 2 hours to spare so let's watch a movie!", he exclaims and takes the remote control on my hand. My eyes widen and I put a hand on my mouth before gagging a little.

"Hey! Are you okay ? You look like you're in pain.", he says with a confused and concerned expression.

"Yes. Just choose a movie, I will be back.", I say in a strained voice before getting up and running to the bathroom.

"Letitia!", I hear him call but I don't answer him, I run as fast as I can and open the bathroom door and close it behind me. I hunch over the toilet and spill my guts out. I cry because this is scaring me. I have never vomited in my life, this is the first time.

I finish, wipe my face clean of any tears that managed to fall and brush my teeth before going to the walk in closet and wear my cute and cosy pyjamas. I walk to the living room and see him placing a bowl full of snacks on the table. He turns to me as soon as he hears me enter and walks up to me.

"Are you alright?", he asks looking at me with inspecting eyes and I just nod at his question.

"You've been crying.", that is not a question but a statement and I just stare at him before shaking my head no.

"I know you were and I am not going to ask you if you don't want to talk about it. I will drop it , for now.", he says emphasizing 'for now' and patting my hair like you do to a child. I smack his hand off and he laughs before turning away and walks to the couch.

"I don't know how you watch a movie without snacks but I know I can't. ", he says while taking a bowl of popcorns and sitting down.

"Well, it's not like I knew you have a stash of snacks hidden in your cupboard.", I say sarcastically and take a sit far away from him.

"Whatever, Annalise. Don't sit so far, come closer.", he says opening the blanket for me and I leave a distance between us but he pulls me closer that our shoulders are touching.

"Are you afraid of me now ?", he asks with a smirk that I wish to smack off.

"Of course not. I don't want you putting your huge head on my shoulder when you sleep. ", he smiles with a raised eyebrow and I quickly turn my head around and look at the blank television like it is the most interesting thing in the room.

" Oh? We will see who sleeps on the other's shoulder. I thought you were the shy type but I guess I was wrong. ", he says and he is very wrong. I never talk like this with anyone but him and Larisa. Even with Connor I never spoke my mind, I put a filter everytime. I think I am getting too comfortable here but I love it.

"This movie is chosen by me and I saw its name and description before choosing it, unlike someone else. ", he says in a mocking tone and my head snaps to his direction and I roll my eyes at him. He really likes provoking me.

"I won't respond to that. What is the genre of this so called movie of yours? ", I ask as he takes popcorns and shoves them in my mouth.

"Action movie, so please shut the hell up and watch because I am starting it now.", he says and my eyes widen at that. I don't like action movies.

"Why are you pouting ?", he asks with a confused expression on his face .

"I don't like it.", I say shortly.

"That's too bad, Annalise. It is my turn today and we're watching this. You'll choose what you like next time.", he says turning off the lights and I feel like crying.

"Don't call me that!", I shout at him and he laughs.

"Oh, come on . Are you crying? Let's make a deal then. You will get to choose twice and we will eat the snacks you want.", he says taking my hand and kissing it, sealing the deal. My eyes widen at that and I blush crimson red.

"Put your phone on silent , I don't want any disturbances.", he says taking his phone and I take mine and send a quick text to Larisa.

'I think I am sick. Which movie genre Kazimir hates the most?'-Letitia

I put my phone on silent when I finish and see that he already started the movie. I look at him focusing and munching the snacks, he does not look like the man who saved me that day. He is more casual and carefree now.

"I can feel your eyes on me , Annalise. I know I am attractive and all but we are watching a movie here not me.", he says looking smug and my heart skips a beat before beating in a fast pace. I quickly look at the movie and eat the snacks on the table but Kazimir is feeding me, he won't let me feed myself. I think I will enjoy staying here.

The movie is not that bad but I won't tell him that. I'll be boosting his already big ego. I put my head on his shoulder when I start feeling sleepy. I feel him taking my head and putting it on his lap. I really like sleeping on his lap, it is really comfortable. Atleast I stayed up half of the movie, he won't be mad, right?. I think as the darkness engulfs me.

When did I get here? That is what I think when I feel the soft silky sheets of Kazimir's bedroom and his cologne all over. My thoughts were cut off by a loud shout in the room and I quickly stand up.

"No! Please! M-mom! P-please!", the desperate voice calls again and I recognise it as Kazimir's. I see him sleeping on the couch but he looks like he is fighting someone in his sleep. I walk closer to him and call his name but he is not responding at all which means I have to touch him. This is scaring me.

"Kazimir! Kazimir! Wake up, Kazimir!", I shout while shaking him and his eyes snap open at last but what frightens me is the darkness in them. Before I can even act ,he holds my wrist in tight grip. My wrist is on fire and it feels like it will snap anytime.

"Don't f*****g touch me!", he says in cold and sharp voice that makes me shiver and he shoves me so hard that I fall on the floor. What helps me is that I was in a crouching so the fall was not too hard. I feel tears form in my eyes but I blink them away. I didn't even see him when he got up from the couch but when I look at him I see him towering over me with a look full of guilt and remorse.

"I a-am so s-sorry.", he whispers in the silent room with a broken voice and I can see his mouth trembling. Before I can even say a word he turns away and walks to the door so fast I think it is my imagination. A minute passes and I hear the front door open and slam close. Where is he going? I get up from the floor and walk to the bed. I throw myself on the bed and that is when the tears flow. I sob until I cannot breathe and no longer have tears but only the sound of my sobbing.

That was not him. I chant that in my mind like a mantra. The unanswered questions in my mind make my head spin. What happened to him? Who did that to him? Why did he react that way? Where did he go now? Those were the questions in my mind as I cry myself to sleep.

"Please, give me strength to conquer everything on my way. Give me patience, vigilance and perseverance. ", that was my prayer as I fall into darkness.